C10 Pain In My Heart

Sheila's POV

‘How can this happen to me? what have I ever done wrong to my mom? I've always been a good girl right? after wasting so many years in school being humble and respectful what is the end result? I've been raped and cast out, neglected like a dirty rag. She never attended to me when I was sick, I've always struggled through my problems. Why did I expect her to hug me and comfort me this time too in my distress? ’ I asked in thought.

I looked out of the only window in the security room lost in thought.

“Hey what are you doing standing there? start preparing for school, I don't want to see your ugly face in this house the whole day. ” said my mother.

I turned to look at myself in the mirror and look back at her.

“There seems to be almost no difference between you and I , you are just older and I am younger. ”

She rushed towards me and slapped me on the cheek. I sneered at her and said,

“The pain in my heart can not be compared to the physical pain you just caused me. ”

She looked at me a little surprised and said.

“That's right bring out your true colors, you've hidden them for too long. ” she said sneering.

“Mommy why? I keep asking you, do you have any answer for me? I don't think so because I've never done anything to you. ” I demanded painfully.

She looked at me with disdainful eyes.

She threw some money on me and screamed,

“Get ready for school you are not staying here!! ”

“I won't say anything to anybody but please help me get justice, please inform the police about this or I can do this myself. I am twenty they will believe me. ” I said trying to put some sense into her mind but I was just wasting my speech and energy.

“Shut your ugly mouth. I'm not reporting anything neither are you. And don't bother saying anything to your brother. ”

“Goodbye” she said

And stormed out of the room.

‘When did I start talking back at her? Damn that felt good, what? damn? when did I start using this word? anyway forget it no one cares. I got out of the room to take a shower in the guest quarters,

now I am a guest and a gateman in my own parents house, I don't even know if I should cry or laugh. But no crying anymore, I've cried enough already. It won't restore my virginity nor will it let my parents love me. Now its me for myself, since she doesn't care about me then why should I ?’

I finished taking my bath and started dressing, I looked at my skirt and saw that it was way long.

No one will see a lady in this type of dress, I had no sewing equipment in my things so I walked out to go and ask him for his.

As I thought of my brother I realized I hadn't seen him as all these drama was going on. I still went on both for the equipment and to see if he has being around all this while. The pain within my legs were yet to disappear, thinking that I had to dress to go inside and come back undress and dress again, I decided against it and draped a towel around my body and went inside. Once my mother saw me, she attempted to speak but I beat her to it and said,

“I'm not here for you” said

And went ahead to my brother's room.

Ben open up are you in there?

I banged on the door as if my life depends on it. He finally opened up, I saw him in a drowsy state.

“Hey did you hear gun shots yesterday?” I asked.

He shook his head and said

“I feel like I've been knocked on the head, did something happen here? ”

I shook my head towards him.

“Please lend me your sewing equipment. ” I told him.

He bent down to pick his headset which had fallen from his head, it seems he slept listening to music.

He stopped midway looking up at me, I saw him stiffen in front of me.

“Why are you still bent over there?” I asked.

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