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Seeing Feng Zexi's disappointed expression, I finally realized that I said something I shouldn't have. I wiped my tears away and hurriedly said, "Don't tell him, okay?"

"Why not let him know?" Feng Zexi was expressionless. I don't know what kind of mood he was in now as he spoke to me.

"He's gone, why should I let him know this?" I adjusted my mood and tried to make my voice as flat as possible.

I raised my head. My eyes met Feng Zexi's eyes. His expression was so downcast. He smiled at me. However, why did that smile feel so bitter to me?

"Alright, I agree." Feng Ze Xi's smile was still very pretty. After a pause, Feng Ze Xi opened his mouth again, "Xiao'er." This was the first time he called out my name so earnestly. When I saw that his expression had turned serious, I couldn't help but become a little nervous, "Give me a chance, I will love you even more than Chen. I will let you know, the only person who truly loves you in this world is me, Feng Zexi."

What I was afraid of finally happened. How scared I was, he said to me, "Big brother Xi, I'm sorry, I, I can't accept you …"

Feng Zexi put a finger to my lips and said with an indifferent expression, "Don't be in such a rush to reject me. We still have time. Let's go, I'll send you to your dorm."

Saying that, Feng Zexi extended his hand and pulled me towards my dormitory building. I didn't struggle, I just didn't let him drag me along. I followed behind him and looked at his tall back. I had a bad feeling in my heart.

Only Feng Zexi accompanied me every day. I once asked Feng Zexi about it, but he would always silently shake his head as if he didn't know anything about Gu Yuchen.

A year later, I didn't think that Feng Zexi would bring up the matter with me again.

"Little girl Xiao Xiao, after Chen has been gone for so long, will you forget about him? Do you like me?" Feng Ze Xi suddenly asked.

"Big brother Xi, I'm sorry. The person I liked was him the entire time. From the first moment I saw him, I liked him a lot." I thought I'd made it clear to him a year ago, but I didn't think he'd mention it again.

"I think we know you together, remember?" Feng Zexi kept staring at me, which made me lower my head unnaturally.

"I don't remember. Ever since I could remember, you and Brother Chen have been by my side." I kept twisting my fingers, feeling nervous.

"When did you start liking him?" Feng Zexi asked again.

"About three years old. Ever since I can remember, I've liked him a lot." I tried to remember when I first fell in love with Gu Yuchen.

Although I know that Feng Zexi likes me, I don't want to rely on his likes. Thus, I kept on relying on him, and even more so, I didn't want to deceive him.

After Gu left, I kept pestering my parents to send me to E Nation to study, but my parents didn't agree that I should go to a foreign land alone. They said that they would not allow me to leave the country until I had graduated from university, and even though I didn't want to, my parents had already promised me that they would, so I was very happy.

Brother Chen, just wait for me. Once I graduate from university, I will immediately go to E Nation to find you. This time, I will tell you everything in my heart, even if you reject me in the end, then I will give up. At least … I want to hear it from you.

For this day, I study hard, try to make myself more outstanding, I want him to see me again, the eyes lit up.

Five years of college life have finally come to an end. Without Gu, I don't even know how I have lived my life. I was finally able to go and find Big Brother Chen. It was also during this year, when there was a tremendous change in my family. My mother suddenly passed away, and my father became very fierce and often beat me up.

Dad always said, I'm a loser, I'm my shameless mother, I don't know where I got it...

Hearing my father say this, I was very sad. Although my father was a bit strict in the past, he always doted on me and held me in his hands, saying that I was his little princess. But now my father not only drinks but gambles, and whenever he gets drunk or loses money, he beats me, and now whenever I see him come back I hide in the closet in my room and don't let him find me, and I'm too scared to tell him that I want to go to E Nation.

My father knew that I was on good terms with Gu Yu Chen and Feng Ze Xi, so he brazenly went to the Gu family and the Feng family to borrow money. But they knew my father's temperament and didn't lend the money to me, so I didn't expect that my father, who couldn't borrow money, would actually borrow money from a loan shark.

I thought Dad would use this money to bring Mu Clan back to glory, but I was wrong. Dad didn't have any intentions of reviving Mu Clan, and he still drank and gambled with this money all day long. Not long after, Dad used up all of it. I also finally understood why the Gu and Feng Families didn't want to lend him money.

One day I overheard him talking to his secretary.

"Director Mu, the company is facing a huge crisis right now and has suffered a heavy loss in funds." Father's secretary said worriedly, "Ever since Madam left, the Mu clan started to lose their spirits. It can't be helped if this goes on. Director Mu, you have to think of a way."

"Madam?" Father laughed coldly as if he had heard a joke, "That woman is not a madam at all, she's just a woman that no one wants." When he mentioned her, his eyes were full of killing, and that made me look scared.

"I'll tell you, Little Liu." His father slowly said, "When that woman married me, she was already pregnant with someone else's child. Xiaoxiao wasn't my daughter at all."

"How could that be? Miss looks very much like you. " Xiao Liu looked surprised.

"Like? Haha …. She's not my child at all. " "I thought she would have some value in using them. Relying on her and the young master of the Gu family's good relationship, I can borrow some money from those two families, but they won't lend it to me. Damn it." "Dad suddenly revealed a proud smile and continued speaking." "She's no longer of any use to me. I've already killed her damn mother. She, hmph, I'll beat her to death sooner or later."

"Director Mu, you mean to say that the Madam … she …" The secretary looked at Mu Kaize in horror.

Mu Kaize suddenly laughed out loud, "Haha, that's right. That b * tch was killed by me."

After hearing all of this, I instantly collapsed to the ground, tears flowing uncontrollably down my face. Mommy, Mommy …

I finally understood why dad called me a bastard. Mom and dad already had me when they were married, and Mom was beaten to death because of this incident. That's why she said I wasn't my dad's child at all.