C37 Thirty seven

"Are you sure that's Cyrus?" Angel asked Elica.

Elica bit her lip as she nodded, seeming to also think that the woman in question was Akia.

I slowly lifted my palm to my face again to cover it because of the continuous stream of tears. I still felt the movement of my shoulders.

Why am I crying again because of him?!

I heard the consecutive sighs from those beside me again. They gently rubbed my back, trying to calm me down.

They were quiet, and all I could hear was my crying, feeling the wetness on my face from the tears. Even though I wanted to remove the hand covering my face, I couldn't because I felt embarrassed in front of them.

I almost jumped when my cellphone suddenly rang, a sign that someone was calling. I wiped my face again. Slowly, I lowered my hand to retrieve my cellphone from my pocket.

I immediately stood up when I saw the screen, the one I've been waiting for a long time to hear from. I glanced at Angel and showed her the screen. She seemed surprised by what she saw, so she nodded, signaling for me to answer.

I smiled and released a sigh along with a simultaneous gulp to stifle the sob.

"Hello," I started.

I bit my lip hard and focused on the floor. No one spoke on the line, only consecutive sighs. My eyes started to water again.

"H-hello," my voice cracked.

I felt the serious gaze of the two beside me because of the voice they heard.

[B-baby...] he seemed to struggle to say.

I choked back a sob and covered my mouth because I didn't want him to hear me.

"Hmm," was all I managed to say.

I knew he knew that I was feeling this way. I heard him take a deep breath, indicating that he heard my heavy sighs.

[Baby, I love you but...] he stopped.

What but?!

I felt my knees weaken as if something was telling me where this was going. I bit my lip and waited for what he would say next.

[I can't give you my whole damn time because some of my friends need me. I can't choose to be selfish right now, baby.] I sat down and couldn't help but sob. Why isn't it Cyrus!

[She needs me right now but Baby. I loved you, alright? But Akia needs me now because of her problem---]

"But I need you too," I blurted out.

I immediately felt their hands on my back again. I hugged my knees, sandwiching the cellphone between my ear and shoulder, while my tears continued to fall.

[Baby...] his voice also cracked.

Why do I hear his sobbing too? If he's hurting, why can't he?

"I need you too, but I need you too." I pleaded.

[Baby... She really needs me, and I'm the only one who can help her. I want to tell you why I'm doing this. I want to tell you the real reason. But I can't because I respect Akia's wish to keep this hidden from everyone,] He explained.

I bowed my head because no words came out of my mouth. Only continuous tears and sobs were all I could manage. I also felt my knees shaking.

"It's unfair for me to continue this. Even I don't want this to happen, but I want to be fair, especially to you. I can't give that damn time for you, baby." he said, along with sobbing.

I knew he was crying because I heard his sobs and sniffles on the other line.

I bit my lip and closed my eyes before wiping my tears.

"What do you want to happen?" I asked bravely.

I brushed the hair that fell on my cheek. My face was drenched, and I couldn't look at my friends who were watching and listening to me.

[B-baby, Break up with me. Tell me that you want us to break up. I can't bear to be the one to break up with you,] he said sadly.

I firmly placed the cellphone beside me and hugged myself again, sobbing.

What? Is it hard for him too? Why not for me? Did he think breaking up with the guy that I loved the most is so easy?!

I took a deep breath and put the cellphone back to my ear while my tired eyes continued to shed tears.

"Do you think it's easy for me?"

I pursed my lips and looked into nothingness.

[Baby... We need to end this,] he said sadly.

I nodded even though I wanted to shake my head.

"Are you sure about this?" I asked.

Say you're not.

Say that your thoughts are changing too.

Say that you don't let go of my hands.

Say it, Please.

"Because... When this ends," I stopped to take a deep breath. "There's nothing... There's no going back for you," and then my tears fell again on my cheeks.

[Baby..] he called out, sounding nervous.

I shook my head. "I'm not something you can leave anytime and come back to whenever you want. Always remember that a kite, when you let it go, is difficult and blurry to obtain again,"