C41 forty one

"I didn't even bother to look at him. Mawi had this annoying smile plastered on her face. Meanwhile, Samuel was nowhere to be found in my sight.

"Where's Samuel?" I asked Mawi.

"Then my gaze shifted to the bag she was holding, and she handed it over to me.

"He left, seems like you're not leaving either," she replied, her eyes darting back and forth between Cyrus and me. "You're not leaving?" she asked with a mischievous smile.

I pursed my lips and looked away. "N-no," I replied, feeling embarrassed.

I bit my lip. Damn it, Cyrus!

"Ah," he said with a nod.

I quickly took my bag from her. I was annoyed at him too because of his irritating smile! Fine, I'm the weak one here!

I started walking upstairs again, with Cyrus following closely behind.

I turned to him. "Just go home," I said irritably.

He put his hands in his pockets and walked seriously into our room with Mawi.

I stomped away like a child following their parent.

He stopped, causing me to bump into him.

"What!" I exclaimed and rubbed my forehead.

He chuckled. "Sorry, Baby," he said, touching my forehead.

As if I bumped into a wall! I angrily slapped his hand and went straight to bed.

"Go home!" I yelled at him before lying down and covering myself.

I forced myself to close my eyes and bit my lip. Why doesn't he just leave?! I already said I'm not leaving, so why is he still here?!

I heard a loud sigh and the door closing. So he really left? Is he really going home now? Doesn't he even fear that if he leaves, I'll leave too?

I slowly uncovered my face, feeling my eyes trembling. The heavy feeling returned.

He left me again!

I quickly got up and stood. I grabbed the suitcase under the bed and placed it on top. I angrily approached my cabinet and took out my clothes again.

I couldn't stop crying. I'm angry at him! I'm angry at myself! I wiped the tears from my cheeks. The weight in my chest returned, making me feel dizzy. I touched my forehead, feeling a slight dizziness.

I neatly packed my clothes into the suitcase and closed it quickly. I looked at my bag placed on my chair by the study table.

I sighed. For sure, Samuel won't come back here to pick me up.

Well, I have money for a taxi or what! Whatever, screw it. Should I just 123? But no, I shouldn't because I might get bad karma!

I grabbed my school bag because my phone and power bank are in it! Without hesitation, I pulled the suitcase and started walking.

I felt like a fool walking down, crying, with tears threatening to fall.

"Where do you think you're going?" Someone asked coldly.

I almost jumped and instinctively held my chest. My eyes widened, and I swallowed hard.

"I'm asking you, where are you going? Are you leaving? I thought you weren't?" They asked in a serious, consecutive manner.

I bit my lip and shook my head.

"I-I thought you were leaving," I replied nervously.

Why am I nervous?!

He raised his brow. "I said I'm just here," he said with a frown.

He glanced at the tight grip I had on the suitcase. I saw his hands clench, and he looked away, then sighed.

I pursed my lips and bowed my head. I felt like a child scolded for playing in the mud.

But why am I like this?! What does it matter to him if he saw me leaving? Why does it feel like my fault for being hurt because of him? Okay, I admit it! I'm at fault because I let him affect me! And that's all.

I raised my gaze to him, and he stared at me seriously. So I raised my chin, and his expression changed immediately.

He pouted. "W-what?" he nervously asked.

I rolled my eyes.

"I'm leaving," I joked.

Suddenly, he panicked and grabbed my arm to stop me. He took the suitcase from me and placed it behind him while shaking his head.

"Don't you dare," he said firmly.

I pursed my lips to hold back a smile. I wasn't really planning on leaving; I was just teasing him. I stared at his flushed face and teary eyes.

He will cry when I leave him, huh?

I grinned. "I was just kidding; I'm really not leaving," I said with a smile.

His lips parted, and he looked away, letting out a heavy sigh.

He walked towards me and looked me straight in the eyes. "Baby... Don't joke like this,"

I pursed my lips. "I thought you were really leaving, so I got annoyed," I admitted.

But I still won't reconcile with

him!

He sighed. "I went downstairs because I ordered food. I thought you'd also like to relax and sleep, so I left it in your room," he explained affectionately.

I nodded. That's all I could say.

He scratched his head.

"I'll take this upstairs," he said, gesturing to the suitcase.

I nodded again.

Why am I acting like a child right now? I'm being childish!

"And you," he said firmly, taking my hand.

He pulled me with his right hand while holding my suitcase with his left, and started stepping up each floor of the stairs.

Sometimes he would glance back at me, as if I could teleport and disappear from his side!

I just rolled my eyes and let him pull me along. He sat on the edge of the bed, and I stood in front of him.

He pulled me closer to him, wrapping his arm around my waist and pressing against my side. I felt his breath quicken, so I furrowed my brow and placed my hands on his shoulders.

"When I called you, I cried," he confessed.

"I know," I replied curtly.

"And then when you finally broke up with me, it felt like my world collapsed. Especially when you said you couldn't come back to me. I was so scared.. terrified,"

I bit my lower lip. Me too.

"Sai called me and told me they saw you with that Samuel guy again earlier, so they asked Angel and Angel said you were leaving," he said sadly, tightening his hug.

I heard him sobbing, so I tapped his back to comfort him.

"My car almost flew here just to catch up with you," he confessed again.

I remained silent.

"Good thing when I got here, Mawi had just brought your suitcase downstairs. So, I snatched it from her and brought your clothes back,"

"You brought it back?" I asked in surprise.

He nodded. "Yes," he simply replied.

I sighed.

"And earlier when.." he stopped and sobbed. "I saw you so determined to leave, I got all tangled up in my thoughts. I just wanted one thing, and that's for you to stay,"

I felt his shoulders trembling. Shit! Is he crying?

"Are you crying?" I asked in surprise.

I tried to pull away to see his face clearly, but he just held me tighter.

He nodded. "Yes, I'm crying for you," he started sobbing again. "Please, stay and never think of leaving." He begged. "I have nothing more to love than to love you.. Because you are the moon that illuminates my dark life.. Because you are the moon that I want to see it shine," he said affectionately.

"Cyrus," I called him.

I sighed and looked away while still rubbing his back to calm him.

I could still feel his sobs and rapid breaths.

"I will wait for you to give me another chance to be mine again," He softly said.

I pursed my lips to refrain from speaking. Silence enveloped us.

He sighed "I'm willing to wait," his voice soft.

I bit my lip again as tears threatened my eyes. I looked up to hold them back.

"Because you are worth the wait," He said.

It was enough to freeze me. Enough to quicken my heartbeats again. Enough to stop my breathing.

I think I'm totally drowning.