C49 forty nine

"B-baby? What are you talking about? Did I hurt you again? I told you I stopped helping Akia, only my cousin helped her. I keep my distance from her because I know it would hurt you. Let's talk about this, don't leave, let's talk, Selene," he said affectionately.

I sniffled and shook my head, "You can't fool me with your lies—"

"I'm not lying," he quickly interjected.

"Yes, you are!" My breathing sped up again, along with the pounding of my heart from anger. I saw it! I heard it! I'm not stupid! I'm not stupid to not know what's going on! Damn him! I messed up my hair out of frustration.

"I saw it, Cyrus. I heard it," I said with a cracked voice.

"What are you talking about? Come back here.. No, even if you just tell me where you are, I'll come to you. I'll come after you," he insisted.

"Why does it feel like the pain is increasing?" I asked.

"Tell me, what's really the problem? Let's fix this," he pleaded.

I shook my head. "It can't be fixed because my trust in you is completely shattered," I sniffled again. I heard a sigh on the other end. He was crying.

I sighed. "I don't know if I should believe everything you said to me. I don't know if I should believe what you're saying. I'm so tired,"

"S-Selene.." he pleaded.

"I don't know if I should believe when you said you love me—"

He cut me off. "Don't. Don't ever question how I loved you," he said with a broken voice.

I fell silent and bit my lip. I could feel Samuel's intense gaze on me but I didn't look at him. I looked up to hold back the tears threatening to fall again. I'm so tired.

"A-all I said to you is true. I'm not someone who can't stand by my words. I love you," he said through sobs.

"I'm confused, I don't understand your accusations against me. You don't want to say it and I'm not guessing, Selene," he said sadly. I didn't say anything. I didn't want to, I'm too tired.

"Yeah, I lied," he admitted and my eyes widened.

"I know, You deceived me.. You deceived me!" I answered and wiped the tears on my cheeks.

"No, I deceived myself because I thought you'd understand me.. because I told myself that you won't escape from me.. that you won't leave me."

"Cyrus.." I threatened. I wanted him to stop.

"I'm also hurting, Selene. When I look into the eyes of the person I love, there's always doubt. It's okay if you doubt me but to doubt my love for you, No. That's a different story, Selene. That hurts," he sobbed.

"I also have bad memories in my past. My trust was shattered once to the point that I didn't want to try again to love someone. But because of you, I took the risk and it was okay. I'm sorry if you doubted because I put others first.. I'm sorry, Selene."

I covered my mouth again as I cried. Traitorous tears, when will you stop? Aren't you tired yet? Because I'm exhausted.

"I-I deceived myself.. because I thought you'd understand me.. because I told myself that you won't escape from me.. that you won't leave me."

"Cyrus.." I cried, my voice hoarse. I clutched my thigh as I felt my entire body weaken.

"You're my Moon, Maybe I ask for the moon but it is hard," he sighed.

"You lost yourself and I do the same," he said.

"My Baby, My Selene, My Moon, Can you even now say that you love me as a farewell? This is the only one I ask before I can completely let you go. It's hard but I can do it,"

It's like my heart is being stabbed repeatedly. My hands are shaking as I wiped my face soaked with tears.

"You're hurting too much, aren't you? Are you going to leave me?" His voice trembled again. I didn't speak, I looked up again.

"Are you too tired? Are you going to leave me?" he asked. I bit my lip.

"Yes, I'm very tired," I cried.

He sighed. "Sorry.. If you're tired even though all I did was to love you over and over again even if you didn't believe me.. Sorry, if I hurt you so much without knowing, Sorry, if my love for you is causing you too much pain," he said with a broken voice.

I remained silent because it felt like my heart was being squeezed again by his voice, which seemed tired from everything that's been happening. My chest started to tighten. Even though I was sitting down, I could feel my knees weaken.

I wanted to go back and stop Samuel!

"B-baby, I won't follow wherever you go," he said sadly. "Not because I don't love you anymore.. I won't follow because I know this is what's best for both of us. I believe that love is not just about staying and holding on. It also about letting go of the hands of you.. The person that I love the most,"

Tears streamed down my eyes again simultaneously. I clutched my thigh as I felt my entire body weaken.

"You're my Moon, Maybe I ask for the moon but it is hard," he sighed.

"You lost yourself and I do the same," he said.

"My Baby, My Selene, My Moon, Can you even now say that you love me as a farewell? This is the only one I ask before I can completely let you go. It's hard but I can do it,"

It's like my heart is being stabbed repeatedly. My hands are shaking as I wiped my face soaked with tears.

"You're hurting too much, aren't you? Are you going to leave me?" His voice trembled again. I didn't speak, I looked up again.

"Are you too tired? Are you going to leave me?" he asked. I bit my lip.

"Yes, I'm very tired," I cried.

He sighed. "Sorry.. If you're tired even though all I did was to love you over and over again even if you didn't believe me.. Sorry, if I hurt you so much without knowing, Sorry, if my love for you is causing you too much pain," he said with a broken voice.

I remained silent because it felt like my heart was being squeezed again by his voice, which seemed tired from everything that's been happening. My chest started to tighten. Even though I was sitting down, I could feel my knees weaken.

I wanted to go back and stop Samuel!