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I analyzed it, that is, not long after Qing'er went to visit me the last time, Sister Lan went out to study, and only came back yesterday.

But, my colleagues from Qing'er, those teachers who read my essays under Qing'er's influence everyday, would they know about Qing'er and me?

I don't know what will greet me, flowers or rotten eggs...

After analyzing it for a long time, my heart slowly calmed down. Since I'm here, I might as well settle down. I might as well force myself to do it.

I made mental preparations to meet Qing'er, and also mentally prepared myself to face Qing'er's colleagues with cold eyes.

To my surprise, when I arrived at the venue, I didn't see Qing'er. From the moment I signed and arrived at the venue, to the foreign language faculty and staff who were in contact with me, whether they knew my identity or not, they all welcomed me with smiles on their faces. They seemed to know my identity more warmly.

My uneasy heart gradually calmed down. It seemed that none of Qing'er's colleagues knew about the matter regarding my breakup with her. I didn't know how Qing'er had managed to conceal the matter from her.

Everything seemed very calm, as if nothing had happened.

As if she knew that I was going to ask Qing'er why she wasn't there, Sister Lan sat close to me and told me in a low voice, "Qing'er came to take her leave today with a terrible stomachache, and I took it for her. She's resting in the dorm, do you want to go and take a look later?

At this point, I believe that no one knows about the matter of Qing'er and I breaking up, and Sister Lan doesn't know either.

I gently shook my head. "Sister Lan, I'm working right now. I can't leave ?"

"Oh ?" "Yes, yes, work is important..." Sister Lan laughed: "I've long heard that you're extremely ambitious. I've met you today, you're right ?"

I smiled and said nothing.

"Oh right, my Old classmate's Liu Yue has been promoted, right?" Sister Lan asked me: "Everyone is usually busy with their own things, it's been a long time since we've last contacted each other ?"

"Yes, Director Liu, you're talking about my old director. He was transferred to Publicity Department of provincial Party committee and we just completed the transfer procedures." I calmly said, but in my heart I was extremely nervous. I really hoped that the Sister Lan would never contact her.

"Good, this fellow is so amazing. He doesn't even treat me when I'm high ?" The Sister Lan muttered: "When Liu Yue was in university, he was a member of our class. He studied very hard and was very hardworking.

I am very interested in this Sister Lan who is talking about Liu Yue's university era. I really hope that this Sister Lan can say a little more, but after this Sister Lan just said that, he was called away.

I am very regretful and at the same time comforted that Liu Yue is actually so outstanding in university.

The celebrations soon began, and the agenda of the various statements was followed by the announcement of congratulations on the list of participants, the review, the outlook, the leading speeches, the guest addresses... I'm used to it. I don't need any of these things. All I need is a city leader's speech, and in that speech I might just choose to write a few lines.

In the eyes of the chief and editors of the Party Committee's organ newspaper, the activities that the Vice Mayor people participate in, from the perspective of the new news of the Party newspaper, belong to the category that can be reported but not reported. The newspaper only sends a short message about it, only the activities that the standing committees of the City Party committee participate in will be given the space and space, which is also a reflection of the political nature of the Party newspaper.

I had originally wanted to slip away as soon as I got the materials, but seeing that the atmosphere around me was more harmonious, there was no coldness and awkwardness that I had expected. Besides, it was inconvenient for me to walk quietly. Jianghai University was located in the outskirts of the city and had to walk for half a day before he could reach the bus stop.

It would take at least two or three hours for the event to end, and I didn't have the patience to sit through it. So I slipped out of the meeting in boredom.

When I came out, Sister Lan saw me and smiled at me. Maybe she thought I went to Qing'er's room to look for Qing'er.

Of course I wouldn't go to Qing'er's dorm. I didn't have the courage and guts. I went out the back door of the school and followed the familiar path through a dense grove of poplar trees. I stepped on the soft golden leaves and walked to the river in the back of the school.

The winding river quietly flowed, the river water clear enough to see the bottom. From the reeds in the middle of the river came the happy cries of birds, and from behind them came the sound of the autumn wind sweeping through the fallen leaves ?

This was the place where Qing'er and I used to play and walk together when we were in college. 4 During the year, we would often sit quietly on that big rock by the river, snuggling together and looking at the clear river, telling all kinds of interesting stories and dreaming of a beautiful tomorrow ?

I don't know why I have come to this place again without knowing it, but it is as if some mysterious force were guiding me to this place, to the big rock by the river.

When I suddenly saw a familiar figure sitting in front of a big rock, I suddenly fainted. I clearly saw that I suddenly saw Qing'er's figure appear in front of me, with her back facing me, quietly sitting on the big rock. It was just like how it was in the last four years, only that I was missing.

I didn't know if it was an illusion or reality, but I shook my head with all my might and rubbed my eyes, and when I looked again, it was indeed Qing'er!

Qing'er's body had obviously become thinner, and she seemed very weak. The familiar ponytail hair had disappeared, and what replaced it was a head full of short hair. At this moment, she was holding onto her cheeks, bent her knees, and staring blankly at the river ?

I don't know if I should go in or go out. I don't know if I should greet Qing'er or not ?

I just stood there in a daze, looking at Qing'er from the back in a daze. I was not even 10 meters away from him.

The surroundings were completely silent. A light breeze blew past Qing'er's short hair, and Qing'er used his hand to gently stroke his hair that had been messed up by the wind ?

Time seemed to stop.

I just stood there in a daze, staring straight at Qing'er's silhouette and back, looking at Qing'er's pale face and skinny body.

Until the voice of the Lao San calling for Qing'er came from afar.

"Qing'er?" Behind me, from afar, came the breathless shouts of the Lao San. They passed through the poplar forest in the autumn and entered into my ears.

When Qing'er heard the Lao San's shout, he stood up and slowly turned around.

Naturally, Qing'er saw me, and I, had nowhere to hide.

Looking at Qing'er, looking at his face and eyes, my heart spasmed with shock. After not seeing him for the past few days, Qing'er's face looked extremely haggard.

Seeing me, Qing'er was very surprised, almost frightened. His body clearly swayed for a moment, and his dim eyes suddenly shone with a faint light as the corners of his mouth involuntarily trembled ?

I didn't know what to say, Qing'er also didn't say anything, and just like that, we froze. Qing'er's eyes were tightly locked onto me, and his chest was constantly moving up and down.

The moment they fell silent, the Lao San rushed over. When he saw me, he was stunned for a moment before reacting, "Reporter Jiang, you came to participate in the foreign language department's celebration interview, right? Why did you come here instead of a proper interview?"

Lao San's tone was filled with mockery and disgust.

My expression was stiff, but I didn't say anything. I forced a smile as a reply.

Lao San looked at me coldly with a slandering look before walking in front of Qing'er, "Qing'er, I couldn't find you at your dorm, I knew you must be here again ? "Let's go and eat some medicine ?"

With that, Lao San pulled Qing'er's arm and walked away.

Qing'er didn't say anything. Under the Lao San's pull, he mechanically stepped forward, passing by me, and kept on looking at me ?

The moment Qing'er passed by me, I could clearly hear his hurried breathing, and I could even hear the tears in his heart ?

I stood rigidly in place. I didn't turn my head back as I listened to Qing'er's and Lao San's footsteps gradually disappear in the small path in the middle of the White Poplar Forest. From afar, I could faintly hear Lao San's and Qing'er's voices: "Qing'er, ignore him, don't look at him again.

I could guess that Qing'er was still being dragged by the Lao San as he looked back at me stubbornly.

When the sounds of Old Third and Qing'er had completely disappeared, when there was only the sound of the birds in the reeds in the middle of the river and the sound of the leaves rustling in the autumn wind, my heart was filled with a surge of fear.

I stood by the big rock, my heart filled with desolation and desolation... Suddenly, my legs buckled, and I plopped to my knees in front of the boulder, kneeling straight, rigid, while the hard gravel under my knees stung my muscles and nerves.

I don't know if I'm kneeling to say goodbye to the past seven years or to pay tribute to my lost youth and love.

At this moment, my heart is still beating, but my soul has already disappeared, disappearing into the endless blankness and persistence.

Once again, I felt like I had died in the midst of my own shamelessness and despicability...

Ever since that interview, I have not seen Qing'er, not even the Lao San. I have always tried to use every possible way to decline the Jianghai University's interviews and find any excuse to refuse to attend the reunion of my best friends in the dorm.

I became even more silent and taciturn. Aside from working everyday, I also went back to my kennel to think about and reminisce about Liu Yue. Even though Liu Yue told me to move in her dorm, for some reason, I didn't. I still maintained my usual habit of quietly sitting there after dinner, quietly listening to Deng Lijun's sad and sorrowful < < Tender Like You > >. I quietly recalled every single detail of Liu Yue, and only when it was deep into the night when everyone was quiet would I quietly return to my dorm.

My heart was always refusing to live in Liu Yue's dorm, as if it was a prediction of what would happen next.

Liu Yue and I still maintained our normal communication and BB machine information transmission, occasionally making a phone call.

I once again suggested that we go to the provincial capital to see Liu Yue.

My request was politely rejected by Liu Yue on the phone, on the BB machine, and in the mail. Liu Yue told me that she was at a critical moment, at an important moment, where she was currently focusing all her attention on. She did not have the time to consider personal affairs, nor did she have the heart to enjoy the pleasures of a man and a woman.

Therefore, I stopped bringing this matter up. When Liu Yue and I are together, we can always feel ourselves being passive and immature at any time.

I don't know what Liu Yue does at this crucial moment to make her pay so much attention, but if she doesn't say it, I don't want to ask.