C6 Chapter 6: The Mess I Created

"Roman, can you help me get him dressed?" Seylah asked as she nodded to Liam.

"Yeah." he said sweetly as he undid Liam from the highchair and went to the bedroom.

Seylah closed the door as they were in the room.

"Yeah, we are not together. This doesn't mean I am giving whatever this is, a chance either." she said hurriedly

"Why not? Your parents and Liam approve." he said in annoyance.

"Because I don't approve. I don't approve you worming your way into my family, I don't approve you showing up unannounced." she said flustered.

"Why?" he said lowly.

"Because I just don't." she said quickly.

"Liam needs his morning nap before we go to yours." she added quickly.

"That's fine." Roman said lightly.

Seylah got Liam down for nap. Roman sat in her bed as she got Liam to sleep. When she was done her walked into her bathroom, Roman followed.

"Roman, privacy." she said in annoyance.

"I'm confused." he said lowly.

"By what?" she asked plainly.

"You." he said lowly as he placed his face into her neck and kissed softly.

"Roman." she said lightly as she tilted her head allowing him better access.

"The only time you seem to approve of me being around is when I'm filling you up and bringing you orgasms." he said cockily as he slipped his hand into her pants and began tracing circles on her clit. Soft moans escaped her lips.

"You want this to be real." he said lowly as he slipped a finger into her wet hole and curved it to hit her g spot. Leading her closer to the edge. She was riding the edge before her climax hit and he stopped. She snapped her gaze to him.

"Admit you want this and me, and I will let you get there." He said seductively as he grazed his lips across hers.

"I want your sex. I don't want you." she said lowly lacking any confidence.

"Is that so?" he said cockily.

"Yes." she said lightly.

"Well, I better go tell your parents the truth and get out of all of your lives." he said slowly as he started to remove his hand.

"Don't tell them. They'll keep worrying about me being alone and Liam not having a father figure." she said lightly.

"And what about me? I have to show up and get myself hurt because you can't be honest with yourself." he said coldly.

"Roman. Just stick around until I am in a relationship with someone who accepts Liam and I. Then, I'll tell them the truth." she pleaded.

"You have a man right here who accepts and wants you and your son." he snapped.

"Roman, we have complicated history." she said lightly.

"Whatever." he said as he turned to walk away but she grabbed him and pulled him into her with a kiss. She kissed him hungrily as her hands wandered his body. He slid her pants down and sat her on the bathroom counter and dropped to his knees and began licking and sucking her clit. Every time she'd almost orgasm he'd stop for a moment before putting his tongue back to work.

"Please." she said softly.

"Please, what?" he said lowly against her swollen bud.

"I want you." she said softly.

"Beg me." he instructed.

"Please, Roman." she panted softly.

"Beg me, in detail." he commanded.

"God, Roman please fuck me. Please, I just want to orgasm. Please." she said flustered.

"Who do you want to get you off?" he said cockily.

"You." she said softly.

"Can anyone make you feel like I can?" he said lowly.

"No." she said lightly. He stood up and dropped his pants and rubbed the tip of his hard manhood against her soaking hole. He slowly entered her. She covered her mouth to stay quiet as he thrust into her deeply. It wasn't long before she came completely undone around him. She buried her face into his neck as waves of pleasure coursed through her body, She clung to him tightly, her pulsating orgasm drawing it out, filling her up with his hot seed. She continued to hold onto him until her breath steadied.

"Roman. We can't keep doing this. It'll hurt us both." she said lightly as they were still clung together.

"It doesn't have to hurt us. I love you now as I did in the past. When I lost you I was broken. I will never do a thing to lose you again." he said in a low and honest tone.

"It won't work between us." she sighed into his chest.

"It will and it can. I'm not going to give up because you won't admit it." he said lowly. He slowly pulled out of her and grabbed some tissue to start cleaning her up.

"What time will Liam be up from nap?" he asked lowly.

"Within an hour, probably." she said softly.

"You get ready. I am going to lay down for a minute." he said lowly and placed a kiss to her cheek.

Seylah's POV

I can't wrap my mind around my feelings. Do I still feel something for Roman? Yes. Do I completely melt under his touch and sweet words? Yes. But he broke me before. He says he wants a life with Liam and myself. I can't trust him not to break me again. The last time he thought I was wronging him, he cheated on me. All I was doing was talking to his friend to plan a surprise party, and he hooked up with Bree to get back at me. He got mad at me for not explaining myself for planning a party, while he slept with someone else. What if he thinks I crossed him again? Then what? It's not just me involved anymore it is Liam too. If he breaks my sons heart too, I won't be able to forgive that. I can get over pain caused to me. I could never get over it if it was Liam hurting. I can't take that risk with Roman. He's too impulsive, he's act first and think later.

I finished getting ready and walked into the bedroom, Liam was awake and snuggling with Roman in bed. Holding onto his face and grabbing his nose. They haven't seen me yet so I keep watching. Roman pretends to get an ouch every time Liam squeezes his nose and it causes Liam to giggle as Roman pretends to be hurt. I have to admit, Liam just absolutely adores Roman and I have no doubt Liam has Roman wrapped around his finger. It is nice to imagine if we could work things out. I love watching them together. They've known each other a few days and are already attached to each other.

"You boys having fun?" I say with a laugh.

"Liam tell your mommy you're a bully just like her." Roman said playfully.

"A bully like me, huh?" I say playfully.

"I think Liam is just trying to assert dominance over who his mommy belongs to." I say jokingly.

"What do you say, bud? We share your mommy?" Roman asked him playfully as Liam pulled their faces together.

"I think that's a yes." Roman said cockily.

"Well let's get you nursed and dressed so we can see some horses, Liam." I said sweetly.

I laid down next to the two and began nursing Liam. Once he finished I got him an outfit and got him dressed.

"Mom are you and daddy ready?" I asked as I packed the diaper bag.

"Yes! Just a minute!" my mom hollered back.

"We are so excited!" my mom said in excitement as she walked downstairs from their bedroom.

"We are!" my dad joined in.

We got loaded into the car and headed off to Roman's. The trailer of horses were dropped off a few minutes after we arrived. Liam was unsure how to feel as he saw the horses. Roman took him from my arms and walked over the horses that were unloaded. He handed Liam treats to feed them. Liam let a belly laugh loose as the horses ate from his hands.

"Can he ride with me?" Roman asked lightly.

"Oh, I don't know. I'm a little nervous about it." I said honestly.

"What if we just lead him around. I'll hold him in the saddle, you can walk with the lead rope." he suggested.

"That could work." I say in agreement. My parents were off getting hay bags filled and filling the trough with water.

We spent a few hours with the horses. My parents took a ride around the property and Liam fell in love with the horses. When Roman and I took him into the house for nap he began to cry and throw a fit. We eventually got him settled in the crib in Roman's room. Roman took the kittens to his sisters the morning after Liam and I left. He couldn't tend to them in the day because of work, so she offered to help.

"When the kittens are old enough should we let Liam pick one?" he asked me curiously.

"Where will I keep a kitten?" I asked in shock.

"Here. It can be a family cat." he said lowly as he pulled me in to kiss me.

"Roman." I said through the kiss.

"Don't go planning a future for us." I said lowly.

"You'll stop lying to yourself eventually. When that day comes I need to be ready." he said seriously as he kissed me again.

"You're crazy." I say with a laugh as he kisses me.

"Just crazy for you and your baby." he said seriously. He picked me up and set me on the counter so our faces were closer to the same level as he deepened the kiss. I don't know how we missed it but my parents walked into the house and my dad cleared his throat uncomfortably. I quickly pushed Roman away and quickly composed myself.

"Sorry." I said to my parents embarrassed.

"Nothing to be sorry for dear." my mom said sweetly.

"I still haven't gotten used to you being all grown up yet." my dad said lightly.

"Yeah." I said lightly.

Roman prepared lunch and had a couple beers with my dad while they grilled some food. I showed my mom Roman's home. It is too beautiful to not give her the walk through. My mom thought it was so sweet seeing everything Roman has bought for Liam to keep in his house. I almost regret giving her the tour and showing her everything because she then started laying the questions on me hard.

"So do you think you to will get more serious at some point?" she asked sweetly.

"I'm not sure mom." I said lightly.

"He sure does love you and Liam. I think it'd be a fools choice to pass him up. It takes a special man to want a baby that's not his." she said softly.

"I know." I said lowly thinking about it.

"Things must be pretty serious though." my mom said happily.

"What do you mean?" I asked in confusion.

"Well, he wouldn't have gotten his house ready and set up for you both if things weren't getting serious." my mom cooed.

"Should I expect a wedding and more grandchildren in the near future." she said playfully.

"Mom!" I exclaimed.

"What? I'm serious, honey. He really loves the two of you." she said sweetly.

"Mom, he has only known Liam a few days." I say flustered.

"Yes, and he has already stepped up to be what Liam and you need." she said seriously.

"I guess." I said lightly thinking it over. We walked back to the kitchen, it seems Roman had a much easier time with my dad. The two of them were laughing and having a good time.

"What are you boys talking about?" my mom asked sweetly.

"Just work for the both of us." my dad said.

Liam woke up and I went to go get him but Roman raced me there.

"Let me be the one to get him, Sey." Roman said as he passed me quickly. I let Roman be the one Liam saw first.

"There's my buddy." Roman baby talked Liam.

"Careful, people might think you are going soft." I joked.

"Only for my two favorite people." he said sweetly as he kissed Liam's forehead.

We changed Liam's diaper and went down to have lunch. Roman took over feeding Liam. I have to say it's strange having so much help with Liam when he's around. It's nice seeing the two of them bond. I can't shake the feeling in my gut that it won't last long. When we finished eating my parents headed home and I sat down and nursed Liam. Roman sat next to us in the living room and stroked Liam's hair as he nursed.

"Careful, you'll make him fall asleep again." I say with a laugh.

"Sey?" he said lowly.

"Will you give this a chance?" he said lowly.

"I don't know." I said honestly.

"You two come stay with me here for a while. If I can't change your mind in a couple of months you can leave. I'll stop trying." he said seriously.

"Roman, we can't live here." I sighed.

"It doesn't have to be permanent if I can't change your mind." he said seriously.

"We'll see." I said lowly. Just then my phone rang.

"Can you get that for me?" I asked Roman softly. He grabbed my phone and answered it. His face went white as a ghost when he answered it.

"What is it?" I asked nervously.

"Your mom, she fell down the stairs. She's in the hospital. Your dad said she just collapsed." he said fearfully.

"We have to go there!" I say anxiously as I unlatch Liam and stand up. I carry Liam out the car and struggle getting him into the car seat. Roman comes up beside me.

"Let me do it." he said calmly. I try getting into the driver seat and Roman points to the passenger seat. I walk over and get into the passenger seat instead. I can't stop tears from flowing. Roman got into the driver seat, started the car and headed to the hospital. He grabbed my hand and held it to his lips.

"She needs to be okay." I cry.

"She'll be okay, baby." he says reassuringly. We got to the hospital and learn she's in surgery. I see my dad and I hold onto him so tightly while Roman tends to Liam.

"Daddy, what happened?" I asked through my cries.

"I don't know. She just collapsed as she reached the top of the stairs." he said shakily.

"Will she be okay?" I asked softly through my cries.

"She'll make it through princess." he says as he holds me tightly.