C6 NEVER EXPECT THIS KIND OF MARRIAGE
My wedding was a blast!
Everyone is so happy as if we are a normal couple who fell in love with each other and end in marriage.
Though I can't stop thinking about Jana. Even if they all thought that I don’t care about other people’s feelings, it's the opposite.
I rejected most of my guy friends who confess to me not because I don’t care about their feelings for me but because I don’t want to lead them on knowing my destiny. It will hurt them more.
That is why I chose to be misunderstood as someone who has a heart that is hard as stone.
That is why now, I am bothered by the look on Jana’s face. I may not experience romantic love but I earn lots of love from my friends and ex-friends.
"Penny for your thought my wife?" My husband asks me.
My husband. Until now I can't believe that I am Mrs. Ottave now.
"Jana." I only answered.
He heaved a sigh "Hon please, stop thinking about her okay?"
I bit my lower lip. "How can you do that?"
He furrowed. "What do you mean?"
“You are acting as if everything is okay. That the things that are happening now are normal. That is as if there is no Jana who is hurting.” I said accusingly.
He faced me. "Look Mara, we both knew that this is our destiny. We have more than a decade to prepare ourselves for this. It's not that I don't care about Jana. Of course, I do. Jana is one of the best things that happened to me."
I don’t know why but I felt a pang in my heart.
One of the best things that happened in his life. What about me then?
"Hon please let's move on and be happy with our new life now hmm?" He said in a soft voice.
I just look at him. I can't read nor understand him.
Why is he so cool about it?
If he loves Jana why he did not even try to fight for their love?
And why is he acting like a loving husband who is very in love with his wife?
"Come here hon."
He pulled me and hug me tight.
"Don't overthink okay?" He said trying to comfort me.
I just let him hug me but I remain emotionless.
He faced me. "And we should enjoy our honeymoon now hon." Then he winked.
I blush then I just notice our suite. It looks very romantic but because of Jana and Maru, I wasn't able to appreciate the view.
It's full of red rose petals all over the room. A king-size bed that has a towel that forms heart-dove.
The light made the room more romantic.
Maru pulled my hand and brought me to the glass window. I was taken aback when I felt him on my back, hugging me.
I can feel his breath from my neck.
"It feels nice." He said.
I look at him. He looks happy.
Is he?
Then he gave a quick kiss on my lips.
"I told you hon to stop overthinking. Your spoiling our honeymoon."
I let a heavy sighed. "Sorry."
"Apology accepted. So now Mrs. Ottave may I have this dance?" He offers his hand.
I furrowed. “Where’s the music?”
He chuckled and showed me his iPod and put one earpiece on my ear and the other one on his and start to dance.
(Music)
If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
I just close my eyes and rested on his chest.
(Music)
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
I felt his lips kissing my head.
"Please stop overthinking and be happy with me." He muttered.
(Music)
All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly
"I am true to my vow to you." He said while looking at me.
(Music)
I've dreamed of this
a thousand times before
But in my dreams
I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
"Me too," I answered him.
(Music)
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
"That's great Mrs. Ottave."
Then everything became slow motion. I can barely hear the music.
I felt his lips with mine. Kissing me with passion and gentleness. And I find myself responding to him.
He gently removes our earpiece without breaking our kiss.
Slowly we went to our bed, still kissing me. And then I felt his hand on my back.
And I knew that tonight I will be giving myself to my husband.
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It felt so good feeling his warmth.
I found myself smiling while looking at my husband's face.
My husband.
I suddenly felt myself blush to remember what happened last night.
I still can't believe that I already gave myself to him.
"Morning wife." I open my eyes when I hear him speak. His eyes are still close though.
He pulled me and hug me tight. “Ahhhh Maru!”
"I prefer your moaned last night wife."
My face suddenly heated because of what he said. I gave him a soft punch.
"Can you stop?!" I told him, a little pissed and embarrassed.
He chuckled. "How are you feeling hon? Feeling sore?"
I don’t know how many times did I blush because of embarrassment from all the words that come from this guy’s mouth.
He is right though, I'm still sore down there. But I knew that this feeling is normal for a first-timer.
I came back to reality when I felt Maru’s small kisses on my shoulder. Then he kisses my neck to my jaw and my lips.
I tried to break the kiss. "Maru aren’t you getting tired?”
He kisses me again. "No wife. I just woke up, that's why I have full of energy for you again."
"Maru!" But he won't budge.
"I can't get enough of you wife." He said sweetly.
"But I'm hungry," I told him to divert his attention.
His brow raised. "Really?"
I just nodded.
"Okay, hon. I will let you win this time because I know your still sore but next time no more excuses okay?" He said then he gave me a quick kiss.
I just smile and nodded at him.
I never expected this kind of marriage. I wonder if all arranged marriage is like this. Are my parents also like this when they got married?