C51 disgusting

]I am the one, who hurt him so much so I am not going to push him away, I should be the one to get the pain as I am going to be his replacement for Anna even though I know he will hate me when he wakes up but I can never see him crying like this

He kissed my lips as I closed my eyes trying to think that he is sober and doing this with me and thinking about me and more importantly, he loves me,