C221 He was fighting for the opportunity himself
This was truly a difficult choice. At the very least, he wouldn't be able to pick one at this point. It was really hard to say who would go and who would stay.
He was afraid that his decision was wrong, which would be troublesome. And most of all, he couldn't tell if it was true or not from the child's face. This was the first time he couldn't make the right judgement. He was thinking