C1 "Unspoken Desires"

Jane heart pounding rapidly as she sat close to him, she could tell deep down within herself that she had fallen in love yet again. He simply sat beside her like a log of wood, focusing all his attention to the movie. “What is wrong with this boy?” she wondered unhappily,

“Doesn’t he seem attracted to me the way i feel feel for him?, she began asking herself questions she cant give answers to.

That fateful day truly was the third time she was spending her afternoon with him, yet he failed to notice her moves, he only acted like he has never developed any iota of feelings for any lady before.

Lawrence was an attractive wealthy male, who caught Jane fancy right from the first day she packed into the new lodge (hostel). Unlike most guys, he kept to himself and behaved like a saint, winning Jane heart with his godly behaviour. But getting him to reciprocate her good gestures towards him was a very hard task.

His intense behaviour soon began irritating her, forcing her to make up her mind not to visit him again after that fateful Tuesday evening. Because she had her pride to protect, which really was more important than her likeness for him.

He was in his 300 level, while Jane was in her 2nd year in the university. Her feelings for him were really strong and divine, but Jane couldn’t display her emotions the way she wanted, without appearing cheap and disgusting.

Finally by 8pm, the movie ended. she sighed and got up from her chair. “Good night” she said to him unhappily, but surprisingly, he held her hand strongly and looked up at her with fire in his eyes. “Please don’t go yet, there is something i wish to tell you” he pleaded. Jane gazed into his eyes and smiled. “Finally he is living up to expectation” she reasoned,

“Please sit down” he begged humbly. she rolled her eyes and sat beside him. “I know you do trust me a lot, that’s why i’m the only guy you always visit, but i can’t help it anymore, i have tried holding back my feelings but i can’t any longer, because it’s killing me silently. I have been dreaming and praying to have someone like you. Please will you grant my request and be my special friend?”, “I have been in love with you from the very first day i saw you” he pleaded nervously with shaking lips. Jane stared at him coldly even though she was very happy inside.

“I don’t think it will be possible, let’s just be friends” she replied and stood up. He tried to draw her hand, but she snatched it from his grasp. “Goodnight we will see tomorrow” she murmured, gave him one last look and left for her room.

Jane rushed to her room, hugged her teddy bear happily, and heaved a sigh of relief. She was very much delighted.

“At last, hmmmm” she murmured happily, falling asleep and dreaming of good time.

By 6am the following morning, she heard a gentle knock on her door and when she got to the door, there stood Samuel, hands in his trouser pocket, smiling at her. “Good morning” she greeted and yawned,

“I’m so sorry for disturbing you this early, it’s just that i was unable to sleep all through last night” he explained nervously.

She let him into her room, he settled on her chair and kept her company, while she brushed and freshened up…

“Seriously, i still find it hard to chat with you” he confessed, making me giggle and laugh, “But i don’t think it is a good thing to be shy before a girl, moreover we do like guys who are manly” she advised jokingly. He smiled and stared at her. "You should be bold just as a man you are...aren't you" she asked. Lawrence was standing motionless only looking at her red lips as it wag back and forth slowly

“Hope i didn’t put you off with my behavior yesterday?” he asked curiously, “I’m so sorry about it” he apologized with a drawn face. Jane breathed deeply, summoned courage, advanced towards him and planted a kiss on his cheek which left him totally surprised. “Let’s forget about last night” she murmured. He stared at her with a coloured face filled up with surprise...Jane really forced herself to plant the kiss on his cheek in order for him to feel free with her.

Seriously i have never met a complete introvert like Samuel before, “perhaps he might have no relationship experience before” she reasoned.

Jane sat on her bed that beautiful morning with a calm smile, looking up at him there eyes met. He opened his mouth to say something, but no voice came out. He swallowed hard in embarrassment and got up,

“Are you going back to your room” she asked anxiously, he nodded, “Yea i didn’t warm my soup last night, let me go and check if it has spoilt” he managed to mutter before leaving. Jane looked away unhappily, even though she didn’t make it look so obvious that she was unhappy.

Lawrence really was the kind of guy most lady do dream of having, not only because he is good looking and wealthy, he also was the quiet type. Jane knew he felt something for her, but the problem was just his manner of approach. He was scared of making the first move, which was then left in her hands to encourage him decently, because she had fallen for him already. It only takes one very bold step for him to won over her heart. The chemistry is there already but Jane was being careful not to appear desperate or make it seems like she makes the advances. She truly wants him to say the words in his mouth. "i will make sure he learns how to be bold. i will make him try over and over again.