C3 A heart betrayed

The day she thought she was doing the right thing for the guy she loved and adored….

That fateful day was February 14th of her first year in the university, and was a simple naive virgin who knew not that a guy could go any length just to take a woman’s most cherished treasure.

Jackson and Jane had dated for 1 Year and 3 Months prior to that particular day, and even though she felt strongly for him, she never allowed him to go beyond kissing her, and he never bothered to go further, because according to him, he valued her more than satisfying his urge, which she really fell for, coupled with his humble nature and behaviour, without knowing that she was digging her own pit.

On that fateful valentines day, he took her shopping, where he bought few clothes which he could afford for her, before treating her to a delicious meal in ‘Sweet Sensation’, which was one of the best fast food available in the vicinity that year…. They really spent much time there, eating, joking and taking pictures. "I must confess he really spent a lot on me that fateful day, which really swept me off my feet and i equally decided to surprise him with a gift of my virginity cos i thought he deserved it.… how foolish i was" she said to herself.

When they got back to his hostel later in the evening, she kissed him gratefully while he held her tenderly.

“Hope you are happy?” he asked. “Yea baby, I’m so so happy” she replied him.

Jackson really is a very tall and heavily built guy who was in his final year.

He carried her up, kissed her again for a while, before gently laying her on his bed, they stared at each other, while her eyes melted as his heavy gaze went all through her body which sent shivers down her spine. “I’m all yours tonight, but please be gentle” she said to him, while he gave her a weird look.

“Hope you are sure about this?” he asked with an innocent look on his face. “Yea as long as you promise to keep your word that you will never abandon me” she replied, while he smiled deeply. “I swear with my life baby, i will never leave you as long as i’m alive” he swore.

“Then i’m all yours sweet heart” she said with a wink, while he smiled, and that was how he had his way with her. “Please stop it’s okay” she finally pleaded as she strongly held him, while he gazed into her eyes and jerked as if something had pushed him from behind, before lying on top of her. She closed her eyes as she breathed deeply and gently pushed him away. “I’m so sorry for hurting you” he apologised as he felt her face with his palms, while she unsuccessfully tried to fight back tears which finally dripped out of her eyes. Why was she crying? she knew not, because she gave him her body willingly and not under duress, but she guess the guilt and feeling of losing her most cherished treasure which she had swore to keep for her future husband made her cry.

Jackson was very caring and comforting as he tried to appease her that night. He boiled hot water for her, made tea for her and even held her all through the night. Truthfully he really was very romantic, which equally increased the love she had for him.

Oh! he simply was an angel that night and she was deceived into believing it was all real, hmmmm who knew how he must have laughed in his mind that night!

As the whole event played back in Jane head, she clutched her teddy bear and cried. Even though she had gotten over the break up, she still haven’t gotten over the feeling of losing her virginity to him. "How could i have known that it was just a game to him, cos he really captured my heart, stole my body and swept me off my feet with his charms" she said regretfully.

“Dear lord i’m now in love again please guide me” she prayed even though in her mind she knew her prayer lacked merit.

Jackson really was a devil in human disguise and after the night she gave him her virginity, he changed from Jackson who respected her body to Mike who loves nothing but sex, and it was as if his eyes opened after our first act which jane regretted, and from that moment his attitude towards her changed.

This act then became all he knew and he started demanding for it almost everyday which really shocked Jane, for she had thought after there first time that will be the end of it. She was wrong and it just seemed as if there first act turned him into a sex addict overnight and her foolish self later gave in. She had no option than to oblige him, just to keep her man and prevent him from having external affairs outside. She just want to keep making him happy.

This really gave a big blow on her relationship with God, she never had time for school fellowship programs or Christian events on campus again all because Jackson was with him always, willing to satisfy his lustful desire and moreover she felt trap in the relationship that within herself she loosed her prayer life and close communication with God. She really felt a huge guilt in herself, cos she willingly gave in to Jackson and now there is no way out.

However he never did stop caring nor spoiling her with gifts, but then every good deed or affection he showered on her, often ended up with him demanding for this rubbish act in return and she continued playing along. He virtually owned her body that period and she really couldn’t bring herself to disobey him even though sometimes she did try to stop him from having his way with her. This would leave him gloomy for the rest of the day and she will finally give in to his demand just to make him happy.