C7 Hesitant Hearts

“I like Samuel very much, but i’m scared of making another mistake” she confessed to Bella, on there way back to there hostel from school the following day, while she just smiled,

“Sometimes i don’t understand you” she heard her say, which made her to stare at her in surprise,

“What do you mean?” she asked,

“Nothing” she replied, which only made her more curious to know what she had in mind,

“Nawa for you, tell me what you have in mind?” she insisted, and she stared at her for a while, with a very serious look on her face, “Your problem with Jackson happened last year, what i don’t understand is why you are still mourning him, and equally punishing yourself till now” she said, which really shocked Jane immensely……..

“Who told you i’m still mourning Jackson or punishing herself?” she asked seriously,

“Isn’t it obvious that you are, it’s been months since you last had a guy in your life, which kind of punishment is more than that?” she fired back,

“Please, it’s no punishment to me, i’m single and happy” she replied with a smile, while she laughed for a while…….“Comot there! pretender, don’t tell me that crap again” she said with laughter, while she eyed her…….

One thing she really do love about her friend Mariam, is her honest and blunt nature, and she never hid her feelings from her, even for a single day, though sometimes she may be annoying,

“If you like, continue to play hide and seek with that poor boy’s feelings, i have nothing else to tell you again” she added, while she slapped her shoulder,

“Madam it’s okay” she replied her……..

Falling in love for the second time isn’t that easy, especially when you have been so terribly dealt with, the first time, but then love is an inevitable force of attraction which do come to every human being, and when it comes, carries your whole body, soul and even sense of reasoning with it………

Truly she was so scared of being hurt again, cos she knew she barely managed to survive her first heart break, which really wasn’t easy for her and seriously she equally didn’t know how her friends, especially Bella were able to jump from one relationship to another without any emotional break down,

“How i wish i could just be like them” she had often said countless times, but then she really couldn’t be like them, because they are not the same…….

We soon got to our hostel, where Bella gave her a sweet smile before going to her own room, which she shared with her boyfriend. “Take care, i will come to your room later” she said as she smiled……..

As Jane unlocked her door, Lawrence came out from his own room, with a sweet smile on his face,

“Finally you are back, i have been lonely all day” he said as he came towards her, while she stared at him with a smile, and she felt like hugging him that moment, as her body yearned for his arms around her, but she kept herself in check, and swallowed her wishes, because she equally knew he had no morale to hug her in that manner in a hostel corridor,

But surprisinly he drew close and hugged her, which really drew out dimples from her face,

“i couldn’t sleep last night because i was thinking about us” she equally heard him whisper……

“Hmmm love is full of surprises”….

They entered her room together, where he sat quietly on her bed and watched as she quickly prepared rice that afternoon, because she returned from school with hunger. But the way he stared at her that afternoon really made her to lose concentration a couple of times and equally made her uncomfortable…….

“Please stop staring at me” she finally muttered while he laughed,

“But i can’t stop myself from staring at you” he replied with her tone, which made her to sigh with a smile,

“You better go back to your room and watch your t.v, since you are looking for who to watch” she fired back while he laughed out loud

“Watching you cook is more interesting than any t.v programme” he joked while she eyed him. “Big head” she cursed. “Flat nyash” he cursed back, “Na there your eyes go see fast” she replied, while he fell on the bed as he laughed. “Madam cook fast, i’m very hungry” he said as he laughed,

“I’m not your mother” she replied, as she eyed him…….

After cooking, she freshened up in her bathroom, before dishing out the rice she cooked on a large plate. They ate together in silence and the way he ate really told her that he was actually hungry…..

“You cook nice but my mum cook’s better ” he finally joked with a smile when he was filled up, while she eyed him. “Because you have fill your stomach, why didn’t you make that comment earlier?” she asked with an angry mien, while he smiled,

“Hope there is still some left in the pot?” he also asked, “Why are you asking?” she asked back with a frown,

“Because i will still eat at night nah” he replied, while she sighed with a smile, seriously that boy’s head needed to be spanked that moment……..

They were soon in his room where they joked and laughed as they watched a movie and Jane really was very glad that he finally was able to feel free with her……..

Then he made a statement which shocked her.

“This is my first time of being this close with a girl” he confessed as he swallowed hard, while she stared at him in silence, because i really knew not how to react or what to say, but then his eyes really said it all as he looked into hers……..

“So Lawrence is actually a virgin, how i wish i had kept mine till now also” she said to myself, as she stared back at him with a fast beating heart