C2020 1979 i just want to kill myself with anger!

Your Full Moon Empire's monarch system, and you are a noble. Your authority has reached a certain level and you are unable to move forward, leaving you with an endless emptiness. You do have materials, but your spirit will be very confused. Brother, aside from collecting items, the first question that comes to mind every day is, who am I, where am I, and what am I supposed to do ?

and then, oh