C9 Chapter 9

As of this moment, I totally set aside everything and let my heart take over my self-control. There's nothing wrong with giving in, especially if it's what makes us happy. Just for this once, I will let myself be drowned in an abyss of her beauty.

I wanted nothing but satisfaction, and for Lexin to feel bliss even just for tonight.

"Just this once..." I kept whispering in her ear as my lips explored her bare neck.

Her skin brushing into my lips was enough to convince me to do more, to go down on her, and do things I swear, she will never forget. I guarantee that it's not just her who would leave begging for more after this night.

"So, you're leaving tomorrow, hmm?" I let her sneak her hands around my nape as I pinned her against the door.

Honestly, I'm nervous. I felt like I would pass out anytime yet, I'm acting like she would lose her voice later because of too much comfort. But that's the least of my concern now. What matters to me is our current situation. The idea of marking her tonight brought me in so much glee.

"My life is in the city," she whispered back. "And yes, love... Just this once, make me happy just this once..."

She held my face and made me look at her, pulling me closer. The emotion in her eyes tells me that she needs more connection, or that I do, though, in reality, I guess we both need each other's attention. Her hazel eyes were so soft I almost felt like I was drawn to the cloud.

It speaks a lot that I got deaf by simply staring at her dreamy eyes.

"That became one of my goals since I first saw you," my eyes moved to her lips, then to her eyes. "Making you happy, marking you mine, leaving my traces only you will have. Something that would make you feel bliss is what I'm aiming for until now, Lexin. You brought my chastity back to life and I'm not even mad about it."

I saw her gulped. Even her eyes shone more that made me smirked in victory. God knows how I wanted to ravish her right now, right here on my doorstep but unexpectedly, having her standing right in front of me had brought contentment to my heart that my plan to touch her subsided.

Smiling, I wrapped my arms around her small waist and pulled her closer to me, hugging her as I face her with guilt in my eyes.

"Can we do it next time?" I laughed awkwardly.

A hint of confusion crossed her face. The moment she realized it, she leaned on my shoulder and bit me hard which made me wince in pain.

"What the! Lexin, that hurts!" I stepped back, caressing my upset shoulder. I sent her a glare which she returned twice.

"Damn you, Aya!" She gritted her teeth. She looks angry, yes. But I could see the embarrassment in her eyes through the light coming from the window. "Just tell me if you don't want me! I will not push myself against you if you don't want us to happen tonight. You could have just said no!"

I reached for her hand but she just tapped my hand away. Damn... She really looks anguished.

"C'mon, Lex..." I called smoothly. "I was just joking, love. Come," I offer my hand.

She just stared at it, then back to my eyes. "You're humiliating me in front of you, Aya." She closed her eyes shortly. "Am I the only one who wanted us to happen here, huh? Because as far as I can remember, you were ogling over me and now that I initiate to do it with you, you rejected me."

My forehead crimped. "I did not reject you."

"You just did seconds ago!" she snapped. I could hear her heavy breathing as she walked past me.

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from letting a laugh. So, this is Lexin when rejected. Anguish, annoyed, and embarrassed. I would love to see more of her and there's just one way to make that come in reality.

Now that I have made up my mind, maybe it's really time to give in and use this chance to be happy again. Just being with her now satisfied me... I don't want to lose that feeling again or I'll be damned.

I clenched my fists and sighed deeply, relaxing. I feel like I'm making the right decision. Turning around, I searched for Lexin whom I found sitting on the long sofa, hands resting on her legs, and watching me with her now calm orbs.

"Am I just assuming, Aya? Do you even like girls?" Her voice was so low I could barely catch up.

Slowly, I nodded. "I'm not straight..."

"So do I," she said. "But why hold back yourself? Are you not into me? Were your stares meant nothing? Was it just for a show to see if I'm going to fall for your lustful and tempting eyes, Aya? If yes, you won and to tell you, it wasn't funny."

I swallowed hard. Now she's serious and I admit, she was kinda scary. With her calm state, I don't know what's running inside her beautiful head.

I wet my lower lip, then walked towards her and plop down next to her. I want to move closer but I'm afraid to make her angrier. But again, as I've said, I'm letting my heart take over, so instead of behaving, I moved closer and reached for her hand.

Thankfully, she didn't budge.

"Look..." I sighed deeply. "I want you, Lexin... But tonight isn't the right time, okay? We'll get there, just not now but I swear to God, we will get there." I lowered my gaze to her hand, then smiled as I caressed her skin with my thumb.

I think my heart will explode because of too much contentment. Holding her hand like this... Damn. I never even imagined that I'll get to hold her million-dollar hand. It never crossed my mind that I would feel satisfied with a woman...

My blood rushed to my cheeks thinking about her. Good god, it was as if I was back to being a teenager thrilled with her crush. I almost giggle at the thought.

"I'm leaving tomorrow." There was a hint of irritation in her voice. "I may take longer to come back here. As I've told you, my life is in the city."

"You're not the only one who has a life outside this small town, Lexin." I raised my head to look at her. "I will be in the city a few days from now. I need to take care of some business there, that means we could still see each other, right? Unless you don't want anyone to see you being romantically involved with the same gender."

"Well, are you someone who cares about your reputation?"

I was taken aback by her question but I managed to hide it. I watched her as she anticipated my answer, hope was visible in her eyes. I thought she was someone who really cares about her name because she wasn't just an ordinary woman, someone who would do anything to keep her name taint-free but, I was wrong.

Her tone was hopeful like she was praying for me to say no.

"I don't have a name like yours, Lexin..." I gently squeezed her hand. "I'm just worried about your reputation. I mean, of course, it's not for me but, for you... and Alex, too. Our society was not completely open about same-sex relationships," I said, remembering how my parents loathed us.

"Who cares about their opinion, Aya?"

"Aren't you the daughter of Santos Corporation? You have a big name..."

She nodded. "I see... So, you've been out reading about me on social media. You already know about me being a widow."

Pursing my lips, I answered, "Well, yes. Like I was surprised and thought, nope. I must just go and find someone who has never been married before. Childfree, someone with whom I can share things as a single woman, but look where I am now..."

I just keep on coming back to her. Swallowing my words before I could even chew them.

"Why still here? I'm a widow and had a child. Absolutely not your type."

Leaning on the backrest, I leer at our hands and intertwined our fingers. "Your hand perfectly fits in mine."

"Old," she commented then, resting her head in between my jaw and shoulder. "We're attracted to each other, right?"

"Hmm..." I responded.

"Shall we make this night our official first date?"

"A date?" I glanced at her.

"Yup, first date with my girlfriend. I assumed being your girlfriend is what it takes to make you go home, right? From this day onwards, I want you to come home to me, Aya."

She slightly raised her head, her hazel eyes meeting mine. I think my heart just exploded at her announcement.

"Say yes, love..."

My lips parted. Before I could even say yes, she gave me a smack on the lips.

Fuck. I am officially taken by one and only Lexin Santos!