C12 I Don't Understand Love

He took my hand and asked me, "Where do you want to go?"

"Beijing." I said without hesitation.

He would laugh. "You're a very smart girl."

I seriously replied, "No, I heard that the capital is a land full of booze and drunkenness. For a person like me who has committed all sorts of crimes, I will definitely be able to make a name for myself and not be looked down upon by others." He works in the palace. Although it is just a rank 6 document, he will be in the capital. He has his reasons for staying there, so I don't want to make things difficult for him.

Liangcheng is not very far from the capital. I rolled over on the ox-cart deck and looked at the clouds in the sky. When I got tired, I would lie down and silently look at his back.

Occasionally, there would be some people on the public road who couldn't help but look at us twice, while the gazes of some women fell on him for a long time. I sat up and hugged his waist as I said coquettishly, "Mo Li, will you always take care of me after entering the capital?"

"Yes."

I liked hearing him talk about this. My heart felt as sweet as if I had drunk honey. "Then why don't you come and love me?"

He pulled my hand away and my smile disappeared. "You don't want to?"

"God." He called out softly, "What is love, do you understand?"

"I understand." What I can't get is love.

"You're still young, you don't understand. Love isn't something that can be said so easily. Don't worry, I won't leave you, don't you dare say such words, God love, you don't understand what true love is, it is actually something that can make you give up your life, can make you ignore everything else, can also make you laugh from the bottom of your heart, do you understand? He murmured for a long time.

I don't think I understand, because I've never felt this way before, but I can hear the helplessness and pain in his voice.

"But I want you to love me, and I'll love you, and then I'll know what you're talking about." I put my arm around his waist and smelled his faint medicinal scent. It was so comfortable that I couldn't describe it.

He turned his head and tapped me lightly on the forehead. "There will be a man you will love very much. A good girl shouldn't hug a man's waist like this, and don't easily say that you love him, or else people will look down on you. " Take my hand off his waist.

"I like it. I don't care what people say." I just want to be willful, I like to hold him.

He said softly, "And if I don't like it?"

I withdrew my hand and sat up straight.

He smiled and continued to drive the old cow.

If he doesn't like it, I'll change it slowly. He won't abandon me, and if he says anything I'll do it seriously, because I like being with him now.

At noon, I ate something casually by the roadside. I took a big gulp of dumpling soup with a bowl of water and drank it until my forehead was full of sweat. The people in the store saw my short hair and I just smiled without scolding.

He gave me a few of the dumplings in the bowl and said, "Eat more. There won't be much to eat along the way."

"Delicious." I ate it with relish, feeling that the dumplings in the whole city were not as delicious as the ones here.

"Young master, please reward me with some silver coins to buy a bun for my child to eat."

I looked around and saw an old woman with a little girl. The little girl had yellow hair and was so skinny that she looked like only skin and bones. She was looking at the dumplings in my bowl with her big eyes.

I saw Mo Li take out the money bag that he carried with him. There were only five coins inside, so he gave two to the woman.

The woman only took one and said gratefully, "Thank you, young master. A good person will be rewarded."

I finished the dumpling soup and smacked my lips, "I want a bowl."

He took another copper coin and said, "Shop, and a bowl of dumplings."

After the shop owner served dumplings, I carried the mother and daughter who were eating buns at the corner. "You should eat some soup, right? Steamed buns are too dry."

"Miss …" The woman's face was filled with gratitude.

The little girl timidly said, "Thank you big sister." Those bright eyes looked at me, tired and cute.

"Go sit and eat!" Mo Li also laughed happily.