C1 Preface

Discipline, Darkness and Disgrace - an English Adventure .

This book describes events that took place during the summer of 2017 while we were working in England. This preface serves as an introduction, an explanation and a disclaimer for those who choose to read it. Materials contained within may be highly offensive to some – simply don’t read it if this applies to you and no offense will be caused.

Who are we? We are a group of Polish girls who are in an entwined relationship with each other. We practice and live a BDSM lifestyle that centres around my relationship with my girlfriend Dominika. She is my love, my life, my tormenter and the one who understands and loves me more than any other. Our regular flatmates, Kasia and Emilia also join in with us sometimes too and are also in fact in a long term lesbian relationship. We all have different personalities, but to simplify, I am the sub in the relationship (sometimes called bottom) and Dominika is the Domme (Dominatrix). Kasia and Emilia also fit into our relational dynamics in their own way, which will become apparent as you read on.

As always when I write it is important that I clarify the difference between being a sub and abuse. While they may manifest themselves in the same way, they are in fact completely different because of the issue of consent. Non-consensual behaviour is abuse, plain and simple, whereas consenting behaviour is acceptable. Dominika and I – and I focus on us because whatever role Kasia and Emilia play – are governed by strict rules that are in fact more absolute for her to follow than for me as the sub.

As a sub I give myself to whatever follows, almost without a thought, Dominika has to ensure that the rules are complied with and consequently is actually more restricted than I am. I will freely admit that from time to time Dominika does deviate from the rules, but this only happens when I have blatantly broken a rule – and she does so with reluctance and only to show me how important it is to respect the rules. We have at times had a discussion about where control lies, and the fact again is simple. Dominika has complete control, but because I have consented to it.

I am not however a doormat.

I have my own mind and my own beliefs and have chosen this lifestyle for myself, and whenever I write an account of what happened during a session I try to do so correctly, but I am free to write as I wish. The words in this book have been written with absolutely no interference from the other girls and Dominika especially, while she supports what I do, she absolutely refuses to be involved. This is because for her it is vital that the world beyond us, understands that I have my own voice.

Only two people have influence on me, concerning my writing and one acts as mentor and proof-reader and the other acts as a copy-editor to make my writing publishable. My chosen language is English because I am studying English and it is good practice for me and probably also more commercially valuable. I think it is fair to say that both Dominika and I (and indeed Kasia) have deep psychological reasons for the lifestyle we have chosen, but the truth is we all fit together very well. Out of all of us I would say Emilia is the most normal, but never call her vanilla!

So finally before you enjoy my adventures, I want to state again, and especially if you are looking at us as a template or an example, it is important that you communicate clearly, everything is based on consent and you have clear rules. We do not encourage any copying of the acts described in this book and if you do so you do so at your own risk.

So I give to you Discipline, Darkness and Disgrace - an English Adventure.

Ania P. November 2017