C17 Chapter # 17

I just couldn't get it. Why does he hate me that much? What have I done to him? Does he love someone else? Maybe I should ask him. What does he want? If he doesn't want this marriage I won't force him. He doesn't want to marry me in the first place, but, It's my fault that I lost myself in that delusion of mine and let myself to fall into the deeper pits of the abyss