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It was this thread of power that had turned him from a free man into a servant of God, preventing him from living according to his will.
At one point, he was extremely disgusted with everything in the world, and wanted to leave as soon as his life was over. However, he met Hua Ruge, so he could not bear to die.
Since he was still alive, he could not live for nothing.
He wanted to be free