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But I told myself, It's okay, I'll be good to you after the wedding, you'll fall in love with me.

The night of our wedding was our wedding night. But I can see you don't want to marry me. So instead of going to my room, I went to my study and went to my room at five o'clock the next morning. (I was afraid that my grandfather would be sad to see us sleeping in separate rooms on the first day of our marriage.)

Wife, I have a lifetime. You will accept me and fall in love with me.

This mission was very dangerous, and he didn't know if he would be able to return. If I really didn't come back, you … you found someone you liked and married, right? I don't know why, but the thought of you marrying another man made me want to kill that man.

If he doesn't treat you well, tell me in your dreams that even if I become a ghost, I will help you take care of him.

Wife, I have been selfish to tie you to my side for 10 years. Here, I apologize to you and have delayed your youth for 10 years.

Wife, I like you so much, love you so much, don't you know? The luckiest thing in my life is to meet you and marry you.

Wife, actually, when I think about dying and not being able to see you, I'm quite scared. I don't know if this is considered a coward or not, but I really hate to part with you.

Wife, do you know? Every time I come back from a mission, I check to see if there are any letters you sent me that I haven't given up in ten years. But you never sent me a letter. I don't blame you, I only blame myself. Ten years of time has not made you fall in love with me.

Every year, I fight for the New Year holiday, just so I can go home and see you. When you get home, you won't even talk to me.

Wife, you went to college and chose clothing design. At that time, you had someone bring me a pain, now, that note is still there, every time I think of you, I will take it out to see.

Oh right, daughter-in-law, the year before last I received a package containing some local specialties from my hometown. Your name is on it. Although the handwriting doesn't miss yours, you should have sent it to me, right?

I didn't hear you say anything about last year's Chinese New Year. I only heard my grandfather asking me if I had any bags to take. You must have sent it to me, didn't you? Wife, you must be embarrassed to ask, so you asked grandpa to ask, right?

I knew it. How could you not have sent it?

Wife, if I can go home again this year for the new year, can you say a few more words to me, just a few words, okay? If you really don't want to talk to me, then can I take a few more glances at you? Every time I look at you, you avoid my line of sight, causing me to not dare to openly look at you, afraid that you will feel uncomfortable again, afraid that you will be angry. So, after you fall asleep, I can only secretly watch you all night, just to remember you, just to make up for a year of lovesick.

Wife, what do we do? Although you ignore me and don't like me, I want to be together with you forever. In my next life, in my next life, I want to be together with you …

Wife, I'm leaving. I wonder if you will shed a tear for me? It shouldn't be. I caused you to lose ten years of your youth, but other than that, I left you with nothing else …

But, what should I do? Wife, I really want you to shed a tear for me. This way, at least prove that you still care about me in your heart.

However, when I think of you crying, even if it's just for me, my heart hurts like a knife cutting through it. I don't want to see you cry, I just want to see you smile, just like when I first saw your smile …

Wife, I haven't seen your smile in ten years. I miss you so much …

Wife, no matter what, you have to take good care of yourself and do what you like best.

testator: Jiang Mo