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Why is it that when I look at you, my heart can't be as calm as the calm lake without any ripples, why can't I always be as sharp as a little girl when talking to you, why can't I always be as sharp as a girl when standing by your side, why do I always think of escaping, but when I run away, I start to reminisce, why do I feel an uncontrollable sorrow rising in my throat when I look at your