C10 BLEEDING HEART

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"Believing that loving someone will make you happy is nothing but a lie, there's always one side that loves more, and you better not be that side, because it suffers, it burns, and wishes it never felt anything for you at the first place"

"They do make stories for girls with weak hearts, it goes likes this..."

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CATHERINE'S P.O.V"

"Killian, I..."

I parted my lips, and started my sentence just fine, but in the end, I never got to say anything, cause she interrupted. THE ONE AND ONLY DANIELLA!

To say that I had forgotten that she ever existed, and was actually Killian's girlfriend [The one and only one that I feel strange, new, yet exciting things for], was so true, but her entering into the secluded office was enough to refresh back my memory, cause as soon as she cat walked inside with her high red stiletto heels, all that I heard last was a "HOW DARE YOU!", before an hard slap came landing awfully across my left cheek.

How she managed to find her way here, I had no idea, but all I felt was the burning excruciating pain she imprinted on me, and all I knew was that with here here, I was as GOOD AS DEAD!

"Get the fuck out of here right now, you filthy bitch!"

With sparing any minute to let me recover from that dreaded awful slap of hers that I was sure already made my cheeks red hot, she yelled out at me without caring if anyone outside might as well hear the hell fire that was going on inside, but to be the most honest with my words, I didn't care one bit about if any fucking person heard us, rather and what was the most painful of it all was the fact that he didn't say anything, did any single thing to defend me, nor silence his girlfriend, instead I watched how my so called billionaire husband stayed perfectly still with yet again another expression which I could never be able to possibly read.

Another expression that only made myself hate every single bit of my heart for always making me fall into situation which I would never wish for even the witch herself which I consider my enemy, Daniella, to ever for once face.

In the end, he, the famous billionaire which I had actually, literally thought might have felt a little bit of emotion for me minutes ago, was the cause of the tears that immediately wasted no time to swell on my eyes, and not the slap that I had received from her

"What the fuck were you really thinking?, that he would go against his precious girlfriend?, because of a nobody like you?"

"That he would ever for once have liked you?, YOU!!!"

The self condemning words wrapping it awful invisible arms around me, I felt as my breathing shook, and as my legs which were unable to stay still anymore, staggered back on it own, but still that didn't stop the devil's mistress from sparing any chance to rubbish me even more, and remind me over and over again of my place, to remind me that I have never belong here in Kilian's place, not in his fancy fucking company, and that trying to force my way to fit in would only lead to nothing but pain, and sorrow and a shitty feeling that was always there to break you, and crush you to the point that you would never be able to recollect all the broken pieces again without causing more harm...

A feeling that made your heart bleed so badly, that you feel your entire existence is all one big lie, useless, pathetic, completely meaningless, and it was that same awful feeling that I felt as soon as she walked in here, and he decided to say nothing.

"What part of just disappear do you not understand?" Her words pierced deep again in my heart as I saw the fire burning in her eyes before she decided to crush me even more, cause why not, and as if she could read my emotions, she walked closer to Killian, before placing her palms on that same cheeks that I caressed minutes ago.

"You bitch have already caused too much harm to my love..."

Blurting out, she intentionally paused her sentence, and looked at me to make sure that I was listening... no, she intentionally paused her sentence and looked at me to see my crying face and get satisfied with it.

"So you better walk out of here if you have any dignity left, or I wouldn't mind dragging you out myself, cause this game you are playing would never work, darling"

Looking back at me as she stop caressing his cheeks, she moved a step closer to where I was and whispered into my left ear her piercing words, making sure that I heard every single bit of it, before immediately backing away from me as if I was nothing but filth, and scum...to her, I was, and to him?, In the end, I needed no one to tell me that I was the same nobody to him like I have always been.

The same contract wife, the same shit he found pleasure in seeing cry, and maybe all this emotions that I foolishly thought he had for me was all one big game he was playing with his beloved, to see me break, cause hey!, I was a foot mat to stemple upon, a complete meaningless being which her feelings were never taken seriously for one bit.

In the end, I was just another weakling, and a daisy who would never be chosen in the field of roses, but in the damn end again, and despite all this realizations, and humiliations still my fucking heart refuse to accept the reality, and made my puffy eyes shift to him one last time, in hope that he would actually say something, anything at least to stop me from walking out, but I was the fool that had still expected that he would, cause as soon my eyes met his, he looked away from me, and didn't keep the gaze, rather all he had was still that unreadable expression on his face, and it was at that point that I finally realized and accepted the fact that I was truly the most biggest fool that have ever existed.

The most biggest fool to have ever craved for a little bit of love, and thought that it could ever be possible, the biggest fool to had actually thought that something would become of this contract marriage. But I was wrong, and not only did I finally realized that, but also did I realized that indeed, it's not always the heart that breaks, but sometimes the mind loses it as well, and I lost it the very moment he decided to look away.

"Since he never for once cared about my existence, how dare I still forget my place, and stay here?"

As more tears glimmers on my eyes, I curse myself and bite my lips to prevent anymore tears from flowing, cause I was tired of them seeing me break down like the fool I was, but in the end, I guess I was weak even to stop crying, cause immediately my legs turns back, and finally walks away from the damned office, the tears flowed freely down my cheeks, and made me weaker than never before, but what became worst was the games my heart started to play with me.

My heart unable to take anymore becomes a hurricane, and explodes, and made it impossible for my mind to think, made my body freeze, and made it impossible for me to breathe...

"I CAN'T BREATHE!..."