C9 FEELINGS: BURN

CATHERINE'S P.O.V

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"You don't know how much I hate you Catherine"

…And instead of him to have at least a little bit of sympathy, instead those words were all I heard from his reddish lips, as if wanting for me to not only feel the emotional pain, but also what it actually feels like to burn. He said.... he yelled mercilessly hitting his right hand on the wall, to the extend that the tears that I was trying so hard to prevent from dripping, began to flow helplessly down my cheeks, that I had to close my dull green shaking eyes to stop them from flowing even more, but as soon as I opened them back, my teary now puffy eyes back diverted to the side away from the demon's gaze, and I see a box of first aid kit, and realized that it could be my only way out.

"You...you are right" Shifting my gaze back to the cold hearted billionaire, I begin my sentence with a stammer, before I slowly tried to control my breathing

"You are right, since I am the cause of it, and the one who got you hurt, let me treat...."

The lump comes again on my throat, threatening to not make me complete my sentence, until I took another deep breathe, as if this was some kind of therapy. His intense burning gaze on me made it feel twice as much, that I felt like shutting myself up, but that wasn't the same with my lips that wanted to say all the words out, so in the end, I did....

"Let me help you, let me treat you" Looking back at him as I finally completed my sentence, even though it was no lie that I was shaking like a leaf between my knees, and was hesitant, still I immediately found, more like slipped my head under his arm, before taking the first aid into my hands sharply, in order to stop him from stopping me, but even though I was fast enough to do just that, still I watch as his lips parted, as he tries to voice out words that I didn't wanted to hear, cause I needed no one to tell me that they were no good.

"Not anymore torturing words....at least for today" Whispering silently to myself as I quickly unbox the first aid kit, i brought out the cotton wool, before finally having the gut to look back at him in the eyes, that were now clouded with a mixture of confusion, surprise and more dominantly hesitation, as I gestured to him to sit down at the nearby chair, before he slowly agreed, which I clearly had never thought he would.

Reluctantly sitting down on the chair, he looked up at me with a unreadable expression that I kept on trying so hard to understand, before immediately parting his lips slightly.

"Fix your error, or I will deduct out of the money I would pay you"

Returning back to his cold island, he said to me in a threatening tone, even though I was the one that had told him to sit down and offered to clean his wounds, but I don't fight back with him, I dare not, in order not to actually lose the money like he said, cause one thing that was clear about this icy man was that he was always true to ever single word he said, and that even means he was capable and would kill me, if he said he would.

"Damnit, Catherine!" I reprimanded, and immediately brought myself out of my thoughts, so as to focus on the wound that I was cleaning, and the cold icy man's face in which my trembling hands was touching, which strangely felt like a trophy, maybe because he had never let me come this close nor touch him before, or maybe my hands were shaking because of something else, of the feeling that took me and made my spine shiver and heart race cause I was being so close to him despite every of his cruel words, despite every single painful teardrop I shed because of him, somehow every of his cruel words seemed to fade away and become nothing to me...

The tears, the pain, everything all faded away, and got replaced with a feeling to touch him more. Pushed by this strange burning desire that felt like it was going to kill me if I didn't do it, as soon as I wrapped the bandage on his forehead, instead of I to back away from him, my hands decided to have a mind of its own, decided to do the most bravest thing that I had ever done in my entire life, even though it might kill me: I moved my hands slowly away from the side of his forehead and down to his cheeks, before caressing it boldly in a way that I have knew I could do.

"What do you think you are doing?" In a mumbling hush tone, he whispered as he looked at my face, and as soon as my eyes met his, I immediately brought myself out of this feeling, this desire, and staggered back with my face all burning up hotly, embarrassedly,

"Am...am so...sorry..." Stammering ashamedly, I said without meeting his gaze, cause I had no courage to, but as soon as I tried to immediately take my hand off his cheeks, and run out ashamedly like the instinct in my head, he stops my hand from moving away his cheeks, and rather looks at me in my eyes that were widen with more startlement.

My eyes looked back at him shook, and my mind concluded that it must have been I who was hearing things, so I decided to try to take my hands off his cheeks again, but it was only then did I finally realize how real he was

"Don't stop" Looking at me, he said in a hush little tone, but it was loud enough for me to hear, and it was loud enough to make my breathing tremble.

"Ki...Kilian" Looking at him in the same intense manner, I paused, and said his name silently for the first time since our contract marriage with my shaking voice, and heaving breathing, but as soon as he heard me speak, and noticed the way I was so tensed, nervous, and scared of the reality of this, he frowned his lips, and parted them

"I instructed you not to stop, but I guess that was too difficult for you" With his eyes pierced to mine, and his reddish lips frowned even more, he said sounding so pissed off and uninterested, that it made me rain curses at myself for ever stopping to caress his cheeks, so yet again, I do, more I was been controlled by what my heart kept on pushing to act, and parted my lips to plead his forgiveness, and to ask him why he was as well behaving this new way to me.

Why was he doing this?, making my heart race now, even though he was still the same cause of all my heart pain?

All this where the questions that I needed answers to, so I did parted my lips...

"Killian, I...."

…And started my sentence out just fine, but in the end, I never got to say anything, cause she interrupted: The one and only Daniella!

To say that I had forgotten that she ever existed and was actually Kilian's girlfriend {The one I feel strange, new, yet exciting things for}, was so true, but her entering into the secluded office was enough to refresh back my memory, cause as soon as she cat walked inside, all that I heard last was an "HOW DARE YOU!", before an hard slap came landing across my left cheek

How she managed to find her way here, I had no idea, but all I knew felt was the burning excruciating pain she imprinted on me, and all I knew was that with her here, I was AS GOOD AS DEAD!