C4 Absent

The broad smile on my lips immediately disappeared. I faked my smile when my brother introduced me to his friends and bandmates.

The guy with ash gray hair is Ashton, the guitarist. I won't wonder why his hair is gray because his name also sounds gray. The noisy cutie guy is Idio, the bassist. My brother is their drummer, while Diva, the only girl in the group, is the keyboardist.

"She's Azhia, my sister."

"I didn't know you have a beautiful sister, Art." He looked at my brother for a moment but immediately returned it to me. "Idio Obcena. Nice to meet you, Azhia."

I gladly accepted his hand and gave him a light smile. He always compliments me; he looks like a bolero and a woman. I wonder how many girls cried because of him.

"Pedophile," Diva whispered, but enough for us to hear.

"You're a band, aren't you?" I asked, even if it was already evident. They nodded as they grabbed the food. I snorted again at the thought of seeing Chaos here.

"If you're the bassist, and you're the keyboardist, brother is the drummer, and you're the guitarist..." I said as I pointed to them one by one. "Then, who's the vocalist?"

I couldn't stop myself from asking. I caught my brother smirking because of my question. Yes, brother! I have a crush on your best friend.

"Chaos is our mighty vocalist, Azhia. You've met him, haven't you?"

"Uh, yeah. Where is... where is he?"

I couldn't control myself because my mouth was so treacherous. Voluntarily moves and speaks to my detriment. I wanted to know where he was and why he was not there.

"On your school," replied the older brother. I just tortured him and left. As if I'm going to believe him. I already excused myself from them. I went back to the room and spent the time watching Netflix.

I just met my brother's friends. Some of them are already familiar to me, but Chaos is the only friend that I know personally. I was in 7th grade while my brother was in 10th grade when I met Chaos. We are living in the same village, and it also happened that he and my brother became classmates. They became close to each other and were almost always together.

My brother never dared to introduce me to his friends. Daddy ordered us that I couldn't be close to other men. Instead, he will let me study outside. I was home-schooled in elementary school, and now I'm in all-girls. I want to explore, but I have no choice but to follow my dad's order.

I wonder why they don't want to expose me to the public, unlike my brother Art who is fine. My brother's circle of friends is vast, but only Chaos impressed me. I secretly glanced at him every time they were together.

I remember when I first saw him with my brother outside our house, and they played basketball. He was dribbling the ball, but something happened accidentally. His grip on the ball slipped, and it went to me. My heart beat faster when I saw him running towards me, in my direction. I wanted to run that time, but my feet were glued to the ground. I can't take my eyes off of him either.

Sweat was pouring out, and he bent down to pick up the ball, gasping for breath. He was shocked when he noticed my presence. I didn't know what to do because I was also surprised like him. When we both looked at each other, my heart beat faster.

What the hell is happening to me?

I blushed when he looked me up and down. I felt conscious about myself for the first time in my entire life. Why do I have the guts that I need to impress him?

"Who are you?" He asked in a cold, baritone voice. He rechecked me, but his expression still didn't change.

"Huh? Uh...," damn. I don't know what to say. I can't find the right words, and all I can hear is my heart beating so fast because of this guy in front of me.

I ran as fast as I could instead of answering his question. I went back inside the house and immediately threw myself on the bed.

I can still feel my heart beating fast. I wonder if it's because of tiredness or Chaos.

That was how my attraction to him started. Since then, I have been secretly glancing at him or watching him from afar. I'm sorry why I didn't introduce myself to him, why I ran.

I see him often because of my brother. They became best friends and took the same strand and course. Since then, until now, I have not been able to look at others the way I looked at him.

I took my laptop, and his name automatically appeared on it as I opened my Instagram account. I visit all his social media accounts every day.

I snorted, remembering that until now, we were still not friends on Facebook. I sent a friend request to him before, but up until now, we still need to be friends. I also sent a follow request on his IG; good thing he accepted it, but the thing is, he didn't follow me back. But that's okay. At least your follow request was received, right?

My smile immediately faded as I saw his new Instagram story. He was there. Chaos was there, at my school.

"Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh!"

I took my pillow and hit them one after another. I am punching it while imagining that this pillow is my best friend.

"Why am I absent!"