C526 Why Not?

"Why do you refuse to see him even though you clearly want him that much?"

"I don't know why either. If I could know, then that would be great."

When he finished, he looked at me with a strange expression on his face.

However, it was also at this time that he continued to speak, "Actually, I am a coward, I am also afraid. If I were to say that I see him