C23 Emperor's birthday feast

No matter if it was Uncle Gu or Green Pomelo, they all seemed surprised by my calmness.

Uncle Gu even tried to persuade me more than once, as if he was afraid that I wouldn't be able to get it right.

However, they really were overthinking things.

In that moment before, I really had wanted to die. I felt that as long as I died, I would be able to get rid of everything that was painful. But now