C16 The voice in my head

Disclaimer: matured scene ahead.

Artemis Pov

‘You know what!’

A vision flashed before me what could possibly be my life should I follow through with that thought. Should I ponder and hesitate or reconsider my actions.

My life based on that decision was already mapped out. It was spelt out and foretold and anyone could guess the ending.

If I were to follow Freya’s voice in my head, I would be at the lowest apex in the feeding chain. I’ll be the lowest of all organisms. A laughing stock and would've been ridiculed upon. No!

‘Fuck it, fuck her feelings. Besides she wouldn’t know,’

My wolf was particularly quiet. I could tell that he would do anything in his power to gain his mates trust and love to make her happy. Yet he still was an alpha and he had a duty to his pack and his people. We were alpha and would always demand respect, failure to do so and you would wake up six feet under ground. I and Aegus were particularly competitive and we were set out to win every single time.

The meeting came to an end. I was basically skidding down the halls into the elevator. My beta Iris followed hurriedly behind me.

“Alpha what are we going to do?” He inquired.

“Have you got a plan? I asked him.

“Nothing yet,” he told me.

“Okay this is what’s going to happen. I’ve massaged Oslo. He should get information about the item and possibly the item may be in our possession in no time,” when I said ‘item’ I was referring to ‘Ajax’ the dimwit that messed with me.

Iris nodded but I could perceive he wanted to say something.

“Speak,” I said.bored.

“If I may ask what are we going to do to him?” My Beta asked. He had a stoic and cold face which sometimes made him look cruel and emotionless but in reality he was soft like a puddle. His heart was quick to melt like an ice placed under the sun. Sometimes it worried me what I’d be like when he found his mate.

The moment he did I wasn’t sure if I was going to still have my beta or he would become one with his mate. To be frank I did not think I would trust him because he would be loyal to none other than his other half, his mate. I would not blame him though if it came to that, I, for one had experienced first hand what the mate bond did, how vulnerable it left you and broken when you’re not with the other.

Thinking of mate my mind zeroed in on Freya’s broken face when she saw Loretta. It even broke my heart gravely that she didn’t wear any emotion. Her face which always filled with blush every passing second was bereft of any sort of emotions.

It was harder reading her as she did not give out any emotions at all; hurt, anger, sadness, heartbreak, happiness or confusion; it was just blank and void. Her eyes held nothing.

My heart ached as my wolf whimpered softly within me.

‘Mate—‘ That was just the word Aegus muttered. I wanted her too and I didn’t want to deprive him of her. I could never be that cruel.

I remembered last night. For once in my life I slept without nightmares. Holding her close to me was a dream so soothing and tempting that if I kept on I was sure as hundred percent that I would get drugged by her; her scent, body, laughter, smile and even little things as blush and she getting red every communing second. She— it felt surreal, a night with no nightmares.

Her scent had flooded my nose and sensory organs. They sediated me. Waking up by her side was calming. Her perfect full small lips in front of me. Her hair and that smell of strawberry and cinnamon.

Thinking of her my mind zeroed in on the sexy night dress she wore. Her breast was full and round, standing firm. I remembered clearly how they went rigid under the atmosphere. I shook my head, I didn’t like the train of thought.

But Aegus my wolf thought otherwise. As I pulled her closer to me last night. A battle of restraint was put up for her in my mind. I fought like a man about to lose his life.

Every being, thing, cell, organ name it were screaming at me to take her. To claim her, to hear her moan my name from pure bliss.

The taste of her lips. Oh, that taste. I’ve had it and I shall have all. It was soft against my lips l, tender and featherly, soft like velvet. I had never tasted anything like that.

‘I wonder how her mouth would be around our throbbing dick,’ Aegus thought.

‘Stop it!’

‘Like you haven’t thought of it,’ he practically rolled his eyes.

I wasn’t going to lie, I had but if I dwelled on—-

‘Her mouth would obviously be small trying to take all that in,’ My thought interrupted. Aegus had put this thought in my head and there’s was no saving me from it. I felt my —-

“Alpha, Alpha!”

The sound of Iris' voice pulled out of my dementia. I couldn’t hold back, maybe it will be another day.

“Oslo has gotten my orders. We shall head home for now while you go and assist him. Report back to me when you’re done.” I tried to control the hard on down.

We walked out of the company and as we got into the car, Iris still gave me one of those advising looks.

I rolled my eyes and set out to ignore blandly. He persisted. His eyes coming up to me every crawling second, he would open his mouth and make to speak but would shut it.

It bugged me out and I couldn’t ignore him any more.

“What now Iris,” I asked groaning. I was stressed out. With Freya frequenting my mind unprecedented and my wolf encouraging it I was running mad plus my emotions and my rationality that I had to apply. I couldn't stand another external being that adds tons of emotional pressure on me.

“Speak or I’ll kick you out of this vehicle.”

He cleared his throat. “I wanted to know if you had come to a conclusion of what you wanted to do to Ajax—- umm the item.”

“Why?” I asked as calmly as possible, controlling the storm of havoc reining inside of me.

He sensed this but continued anyway. “Anything rash on your mind?”

I raised my brows at him inquisitively.

“Something rash like exterminating the ‘item’ would not be advisable. It could draw attention to us. It’s best if we handle this meticulously.”

“Iris dear, are you asking if I wanted to kill the ‘item?’ Is that what you’re suggesting?”

He nodded calmly. Iris may had appeared or seemed soft but nobody should be deceived. He was extreme when need be. He worked more with what the outside public would say. He was conversant with the phrase; ‘this could destroy us,’ ‘we shouldn’t draw attention,’ ‘it may put us in a tight corner,’ ‘the future; while I on the other side was more of ‘fuck it! I don’t care,’ and I truly didn’t.

“Alpha if——-“

“Iris!” I called

He went quiet. My mind was a playground right now habited by Freya. I didn’t need him piling to it.

I turned to him. “The item is going to die. He was the moment he decided to trample on me,” I scoffed, “and he thought he would go scot free, he thought wrong.”

“Iris do you know why I’m still the strongest alpha alive? I don’t let my enemies have a second chance with me. You cross paths with me and I eliminate you. If you want to remain in power? Act and don’t think. Leave the thinking for later. So Ajax dies.” I said in a period tone.

“What would Freya think?” His voice was below a whisper but I heard it anyway. I turned to him sharply, my eyes turning black.

At the back of my mind the words echoed, ‘what would Freya think?’