C18 The waiting killed me

Artemis Pov

I couldn’t leave her but if I stayed any longer it would not say well of me.

This gave even more reason why I wanted to kill that Ajax. He was surely going to pay. For the first time since I met Freya, she reached out for me. Her hand held me by my arm. She didn’t mutter no words but anyone could tell what was in her mind. Anyone could see the pleading look she sent to me. They were visible and there was no denying it.

Holding her in my embrace I did not want to leave her, not alone, not away from me. I could not stand the idea of taking a single step away from her.

As I hugged her, getting soaked in her smell my hand found the small of her back and rocked her slowly.

“Alpha. Aj——“ for Oslo to persist, I knew it was something important. He wouldn’t come for no reason.

That was all it took. “I’ll be right with you,” when I said those words to Oslo, my gamma, I felt the room grow quiet. It appeared as though a thick fog had suddenly appeared. The atmosphere was thick and heavy. It was an eerie feeling wrapped with an ominous silence.

It was as though her breathing seized. She raised her head slowly and gawked at me. Probably not believing that I would rather go out and attend to my business than spend time with her. But that was far from it.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. But Freya,” I called.

“Freya?” I called again still no response. She didn’t stare at me but her vision was zeroed in on nothing she stared into nothing.

It was as if she existed only in the space of her head. I hated what I was doing to her. I hated putting her through pains I hated when she doubted me, our bond. They all summed up in my head and broke my heart even more.

“Freya. Look at me,” I said taking a hold of her chin the slightest bit. I propped her chin causing her to stare at me.

“You just stay here okay,” I said like someone speaking to a child trying to convey his message through.

“You stay here I’ll be back. Soon just wait for me,” I told her. She didn’t reply but she gave a head nod. With one kiss on her cheek I ran out.

Opening the door I saw Oslo and Iris standing just a few kilometers from my door.

They walked up to me and bowed. I was pissed and very much angry.

“Couldn’t you handle the problem?” I asked Iris, “did it have to be now?”

“I’m sorry. But the matter was urgent. We just found out that the item wasn’t working alone and he wants to strike a deal,” my beta explained.

“What deal?”

“He didn’t say, he insisted on telling you face to face about his partner. We apologize alpha for the inconvenience,” Iris said.

I ignored them and walked towards the direction of the elevator that led to the dungeon.

While in Oslo, my gamma asked, “is that Alpha Demitri’s daughter?”

I and Iris looked at him, wondering where this newly found conversation was headed. I on the other hand didn’t want to think about her at the moment. It would break about how much I had inflicted pains on her. I imagined her sad, laying by the edge of the bed curled all up into a ball.

But the best way to get over this ache that I was experiencing was to talk about her.

“Yes she is. What about it.”

Oslo wasn’t nice or a sweet talker. He and I were more alike. Cold and brutal.

“She’s your mate,” he stated more than asked. He wasn’t soft, yes I loved that. But he had to know when not to cross the boundary, like right now.

“Do you have a problem with it?” I was clearly pissed but if there was one thing about Oslo was that he never took the hint or he did but did what he wanted anyway. Iris looked from I to him.

“Not that I know of but if she’s Alpha Demitri’s daughter; which she is. I suspect she could be dangerous,” he said nevertheless.

Pausing for a moment, I turned to him. “What do you mean?”

“Alpha Demitri was small compared to you. But he was no coward like all the other alphas. He was adamant on bringing you down and he almost did with a tiny chance. She could be dangerous.”

“How dangerous Oslo, she was literally at the lowest rank in the werewolf community and she knows nothing about her father. So how the hell would she be a threat?!” Iris said irritated.

I wore an emotional face.

Oslo laughed, “you can’t be that oblivious can you. She’s his offspring, his own blood, his DNA runs in her vein surely even you are not that dumb to believe that she would not have his trait, do you? She would most certainly exhibit her father’s attributes even though she’s stacked in the lowest part of the world. Trust me she would show what she’s made of. He pointed out in the most explicit and raw way.

“She can’t, she’s so sweet and beautiful like an angel,” Iris said dreamily and before I knew it, I growled. My wolf had surfaced and was acting protective and jealous.

“Oh come on——.”

“Even more reason to suspect her. Quiet and innocent people are always the guiltiest,” Oslo said.

“This quick judgement is the reason you haven’t found your mate,” Iris bit.

“Like you’ve found yours,” Oslo bit back.

While they were bickering my mind roamed on Oslo’s words. How true could they be?

Freya’s Pov

He kissed my cheeks and walked out. He fu-cking walked out. I wasn’t angry, anger weren’t the emotions I felt. It was sadness. I was sad and heartbroken.

Jade whimpered at the back of my mind. ‘Does mate not want us?’ She asked.

‘Off course he does, he just has a very important business to tend to,’ I defended him for her.

What a hypocrite. While I was trying to console my wolf and assure her that it wasn’t what she thought, I thought the same.

What’s so important? I found myself asking. How could he leave me like this.

The rumors were true. Artemis really was wicked. As the thought left me, Jade winced a little.

‘No he’s not, he just wants to keep his reputation,’ it was her time to comfort me. I guess we both shared one thing in common, ‘denial,’ we both seemed to be in denial.

‘But we’re mate,’ I whined.

‘He’s just, just—-‘

Following that line of thought, a harsh memory flashed before my eyes. The moment in the elevator when he pulled back, when he withdrew and smirked.

What if I was short sighted? What if he didn’t really smirk but pulled back in disgust. What if he crunching his nose from disgust and I mistook it as a smirk.

‘What if he truly doesn’t want us?’

Like the universe were bringing up reasons even more for me, my mind moved to Loretta and her perfect body. She was tall and had an hour glass body. She was blonde also. Male happened to be more attracted to blonde.

I muffled a scream and scattered my hair. I wanted to claw out my skin.

Aside from sadness the thing I felt the most was shame. I was flustered. I initiated it, pushed my boundaries and walked into this room like a fool. Like I basically begged for him. Get a grip and stop being a horny werewolf. That in particular was directed towards Jade.

She was too sad and heart broken to give a counter reply. I looked around the room. The embarrassment I felt not allowing me to move to the bed.

I stayed on the ground for a little while. Some part of me still longed for him. I was waiting for him. I did not want to admit. But I imagined the door opening multiple times, I imagined him standing by the door with pleading eyes begging on his knees like before.

It was getting late and dark. The ocean of sleep sucking me in like a strong current. Every time I closed my eyes I would jerk up to see if he came back but he never did.

“You cruel bastard,” I muttered with a tear stained cheek.

Every time I described him as cruel Jade whimpered within me.

“That’s it, if he doesn’t come by the count of ten, I’m going to bed,”

1… I started in my mind.

2..

3….4…5…6…7…8…9… 9.5

I turned to his door. 9.6….9.7..9.8…9.9

One last look at the door and no sight of him I stood up. 10… I looked one last time. 11 and I stood up walked to the door.

Turning the door knob, Jade muttered. ‘He said you should wait for him.’

‘I have waited!” I said getting angry and on the verge of crying again.

‘Sleep in his room. He might be running late. You don’t know what he’s doing, you have no clue so don’t take harsh decisions.’

‘But—-‘I began to argue.

‘Just wait. How bad could it be and you have nothing to lose,’ my wolf encouraged.

Slowly, gently and with doubt in my heart wrapped with after heart break I l lined up in his bed and covered the duvet.

I slept with my eyes to the door. Would he really come to me or was I making a mistake again.

My eyes stayed for a moment on the two large metal door which were nothing but silhouette in the dark room.

Who was I kidding? He was not of course going to come.

“Just go to bed Freya,” I mumbled to myself. My hand wrapped around my body and my eyes closed.

That was when I heard it. The clicking of metals as the door flew open. I turned on the side lamp and he stood in all his glory.

I sat up instaneously.

“Were you going to bed without me?” He asked approaching me slowly, with gradual pace.

“I told you to wait for me.”