C1937 I Asked My Heart

Who is it? Who am I, Lin Bai? Am I the real me, or is this projection of the so-called Green Lotus?

Did I walk out step by step in my life, or am I repeating the path that someone else walked on, repeating a path that someone else had already walked through, experiencing the experiences that someone else had already experienced?!

Or rather, all the people I mean are nothing but illusions, the projections in this world, what I have experienced, the so-called kinship, love, friendship, are nothing more than empty words!

Lin Bai had never thought that there would be a day when he would be faced with such a question, to the point where he was unable to confirm whether or not he was real. If it was a different day, if someone were to say those words to him, he would likely laugh so much that he would not even be able to breathe. However, the current him, not to mention laughing, he would not even cry. He did not know whether the tears he left behind belonged to him, or to the green lotus isolated in the air.

How ironic this was! If a person could not even confirm if he was himself or not, if everything that he had experienced was the projection of someone else, then what was the point of him surviving in this world? What was the reason for him to continue living?!

At this moment, he finally understood why the little black cat and the 'heaven chosen one' would lie to him when he was asking them about it.

This was because, as Spiritual Beings, with their inherited memories, they knew these things better than he did. But even though they understood it, they did not know how to explain it to themselves. They could only hide those words in their hearts and endure it.

The green lotus was like a blade. It was silent, and only remained silent in the void. However, the radiance it emitted was like the sharpest blade in the world, unceasingly slaughtering Lin Bai's heart. It caused it to be riddled with holes, and it was damaged to the extreme. Even at this moment, Lin Bai began to doubt himself. If he wasn't him, would he still have the heart?

What the heart was? It was the foundation of the soul. It was the convergence of ideas. The reason why a person could be called a person was because they had an intentional existence. It was precisely because of the existence of the heart that there was happiness, anger, sadness, and hate. But if everything that a person experiences is merely a repetition of the path of others, then his body is not just an empty shell.

And in an empty shell, how could there be an existence with intentions, and how could there be love, hatred, and enmity …

The world was completely silent. Only Lin Bai and Qing Lian faced each other. Although it was clearly just a plant, it inexplicably gave off the feeling of someone standing there. And in Lin Bai's eyes, the person standing in front of him wasn't Qing Lian, but a living person who was similar to him!

But he knew that person was not him, that person was Qing Lian! However, if the person who looked exactly like him was Qing Lian, then what was he? Was the image of Qing Lian merely the body that repeated everything Qing Lian had experienced?

If that was really the case, then what was the point of my existence, what was the need for my existence?!

[Tianxin, what Tianxin, it turns out it is just a heart-piercing blade!] So this "Heart of Heaven" was just letting him see his "other self", letting him know that he was just an illusion!

The clouds slowly rose up and tightly wrapped Lin Bai and the green lotus within them. Other than the two of them, there was nothing else in this space. At this moment, time seemed to have frozen, as if it was eternally frozen.

At this moment, Lin Bai had completely lost track of time. He could only helplessly stare at Qing Lian, who was not far away, as he continuously questioned his own heart, as well as Qing Lian, and everything else.

"Why aren't you out yet? Could it be that this little brat Lin encountered some sort of accident? " Time passed in an instant, and in just a short period of time, half a month had passed, and in this half month, the entire mountain had been completely covered by a thick mist. Even if the water spirit beasts had powerful eyesight, they were completely unable to see through what was happening within.

Gulp..., after circling around the foot of the mountain for a while, a series of rumbling sounds suddenly came out from the stomach of the Sound Essence Water Beast. When it heard the sounds coming from the stomach, it shook its huge head and muttered: "Forget it, let's ignore it. "Since Elder Liu said that this little brat Lin is that person, it shouldn't be wrong."

Thinking of this, the scales of the water beasts began to creak, and the mist began to disperse. They turned around and went into the forest, and started to look for prey.

However, against the expectations of the Yin Master Water Beast, as time passed, it was as if Lin Bai had entered Mount Fangzhang like a stone thrown into the ocean. Except for some splashing at the beginning, the sea level did not increase at all. Although a long time had passed, there was still no movement from Mount Everest, only an endless fog.

At the beginning, the Yin spirit water beast would come every three to five days, but in the end, it only felt that the hope was getting more and more bleak, slowly turning into a dozen days. And as time passed, the time it came also continued to lengthen.

"Will he succeed?" And in the sea outside of the continent, as time passed, Wuzhi Qi also became more and more agitated. He continuously looked into the sea, his gaze seeming to pierce through the surface of the sea to see what was below.

"He's asking the heart." Hearing this, the old man slowly spoke up. He looked towards He Jia Er and Xia Xiaoqing who were looking at him, Wu Qi, and the rest, and said, "If he isn't him, what do you plan to tell them?"

"Just say whatever happened, and it didn't change anything …" Wuzhi Qi was stunned for a moment before he asked in surprise.

"Is it that simple?" Old Man Man Man bitterly smiled and shook his head. He looked at the girls and slowly said: "You are indeed just a monkey. You don't know what a human is and what they think."

As soon as he finished speaking, the old man slowly stood up and walked to the side. He then suddenly jumped out of the ground and rushed into the sea! Like a cannonball, his body flew through the air and fell heavily into the ice-cold sea water. It was as if he was trying to use the ice-cold, bone-piercing water to wash away the confusion and confusion in his heart.

"What did I say wrong? Why is there such a huge reaction, as though you're going to drown in a sea! " "Seeing Savage's appearance, Wuzhi Qi was stunned. Then, he asked the little black cat, who was stuffing a bowl of sea cucumber and abalone into his stomach.

"You are not only wrong, you are wrong." The little black cat wiped the oil off the corner of its mouth and looked disdainfully at Wuzhi Qi. Then, it burped and looked at the figure of the old man in the sea with admiration in its eyes, "The old man is the old man. He looks farther away than us, and his understanding of people is also deeper than us."

"F * ck, so you all understand, but I don't?" Wu Qi heard this and held his head in extreme pain. He grimaced and muttered, "But I'm a monkey, I'm not even a human, how would I know what they're thinking!"

"So you can only be a monkey!" The little black cat curled its lips in disdain and threw a sea cucumber into its mouth.

Wu Qi's eyes widened when he heard this and said angrily, "I'm not human, are you really human?"

"Master Cat, I'm just a cat, a lazy cat." The little black cat self-deprecatingly smiled, lowered its head, and did not speak anymore.

The entire continent seemed to have returned to how it was before Lin Bai entered it. Other than the fact that the clouds shrouding the mountain were slightly more numerous than before, there was nothing else out of the ordinary.

Time slowly flowed by. In the blink of an eye, three months had passed. In these three months, Lin Bai did not change at all. He did not feel hungry, tired, or emotional. He just stood in front of the green lotus and kept torturing himself, asking if he was the projection of the green lotus in the mortal world.

"Am I or am I …" This question echoed through his lips all the way to his lips. From morning to night, there was no gap, no matter if his voice was hoarse or his throat was bleeding, it would always be repeated, never ending.

As for the green lotus, it remained silent from start to finish. It stood silently in the air, facing Lin Bai, neither increasing nor decreasing, without any change. It was as if it would remain silent even after the ancient times.

Meanwhile, the leaves of the green lotus were also unceasingly trembling, and with every tremble, the scenes of the past would be played out in front of Lin Bai's eyes.

"I ask my heart, is everything that I have experienced truly fake? Is it a dream or an illusion?"

"I ask my heart, am I the real me in this world, or am I just a mere dream for the sake of projection?"

"I am asking my heart. Is everything that I miss the green lotus or me?" Is everything that I intend to do caused by my heart, or is it that the obsession in Qing Lian's heart has yet to disperse, and she has chosen to surrender to me? "

"Let me ask my heart, do I do all that I do, or is it the work of Qing Lian?"

"I ask my heart. If I am not, if I am not, then who am I, and where is my heart?"

"I ask my heart. Who am I? Am I sincere?!"