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At the very least, it gave me a little bit of vanity. This vanity was related to the so-called national dignity, and it wasn't that I wasn't sensible, but it was probably because I was a little too angry, so I felt that it was something worth satisfying.

But one satisfaction alone doesn't mean much, and I am well aware that this isn't much, except that I wish I could do it myself one day