C50 A Nightmare

Sometimes I have a very depressing sense of loss.

The person in front of me is my boyfriend, but there are a lot of things that I can't share with him.

I seem to always be outside his heart, the world inside and my world can't be integrated. . . I can't even see what the world inside his heart looks like.

I lowered my eyes in disappointment.

If you don't want to say it, then don't force me