C9 Dust Journal

"It was a scheme that your father and I came up with. It's impossible for the two of us to defeat them. They're in the dark and they're everywhere. " Shuyue sighed.

"All we can do is delay the time they find. If we delay a certain period of time, we win.

But in the last few years, we have clearly sensed that they are ready to make their move.

Just in case, your dad asked me to think of a way to keep it a secret, a way to keep you safe at the same time.

So I designed a lock without a key, an unsolvable seven-way maze. After that, I deliberately made a big show of training you in the simplified version of the Maze of the Seventh Route.

I have installed a burglary mechanism inside the maze. If anyone tries to move any of the balls, no matter what they are, the mechanism will open up and destroy the contents. They must have realized this, so they didn't dare to act rashly.

They knew that even if they coerced your father and me, it was very likely that we would activate the destruction device while pretending to undo it.

It is because of this mechanism that they have been afraid of it for the past few years, allowing you to grow up safely. Now they couldn't wait.

They lead you back, first because they think you know the solution, and second because they're not sure if you know what the secret is — you have to crack it without knowing to prevent you from activating the destruction device when you crack it.

So they deliberately opened your door and trapped you in your house in order to lure you to open the mechanism. They are afraid that if they force you to do so, you will deliberately make mistakes. But what they didn't guess was that we were hiding the real clue in a photo that only you would notice. "

"They... A powerful force? Who the hell are they? " I asked.

Shuyue did not answer.

"No, it's illogical. If this thing is really important, they can take my mom and threaten my dad, or they can take my dad and threaten me. Even third-rate TV dramas have been put on before, so this is always the most effective move. "

"Hehe." Shuyue laughed dryly, "They are much more terrifying than you think. If they want to know what you're thinking, there's no need to catch you. When you came home, did you not encounter any strange people or things? "

"Yes."

I remembered that Uncle Wang, who I had known for more than ten years, had become less amiable. The security guards downstairs and the dog walking auntie had turned a blind eye towards me, hitting me until I was half dead yet still holding onto my polo shirt as if nothing had happened. I told the story to Shuyue.

"After you've read what your father left you, you'll understand."

Inside was a diary and a letter.

Kids:

When you see this piece of paper, Mom and Dad are probably in trouble. All these years, you are not by my side, my parents think of you all the time, we love you.

My father's life has been a struggle against his fate. When he was young, the only memory he had was his family quarrelling endlessly.

Your grandmother, because of our family, was forced to walk with your grandfather. So Dad's childhood was not happy, and he never enjoyed the warmth of a family. It was a crazy era, and everyone lost their rationality. Students beat their teachers to death, their children beat up their parents, all the books were burned and everyone rebelled.

Dad had thought, If only I could turn into a bird and fly away. Break free from the shackles of fate and fly away from this land of darkness.

In 1961, your grandmother met an American journalist who described the freedom and grandeur of capitalist countries. So she left my grandfather, took me from the hands of the family elders, and stepped onto the American cargo ship.

But this American didn't treat your grandmother as well as he promised. He sold the Oriental jewelry and dowry that your grandmother had brought, and he spent his days enjoying himself and becoming addicted to drugs.

Until one day, when news came from the country that your grandfather had married a second woman with the surname Warranty after divorce and your grandmother's youngest cousin was only 19 years old.

It was only at that moment that I realized that this curse of several hundred years was not broken. If I wanted to break out of the cage of destiny, I would have to unshackle it from its source.

When he heard that China had returned to college entrance examination, his father immediately returned to the motherland. One of the reasons for applying to the History department was to understand the origins of his family. However, he didn't expect that there wouldn't be any eggs left after the fall of the nest. Many of the information and records of China were destroyed during the Ten Years Calamity.

Dad went back to America.

Meeting your mother in America was the first time in my father's life that he felt that everything was less important than making your mother happy.

Dad wanted to let go of all family matters and live a peaceful life with your mother.

However, this thought had completely vanished from his mind after a single encounter.

After that incident, Dad knew that his life would be turned upside down, and he would no longer be at peace. But by then you were already a formed fetus.

Dad never thought about what it was like to be a father and what it was like to be a father before he saw you in the hospital.

The first time I hugged you, I saw your little hands and feet. You look like a miniature dad, and your little face is as beautiful as your mother's.

Since you were young, you have always been a good girl and never cried. Dad will bring you to get an injection, the other children all cried. You were in Daddy's arms and Daddy kissed you.

So this is the feeling of being a parent. Father and mother are willing to use their own lives to protect you, giving you the best in the world, making you the happiest person in the world. You are the warmest light in our lives.

So we took you home, changed your name, and hid your name.

But as you grow up, Dad knows that if he selfishly keeps you by his side, you will no longer be safe.

The day you left the house, you grabbed my hand and asked Dad if he didn't want you anymore.

Dad can't bear to part with you. Even if I have to use the last of my strength, I must protect you so that you can grow up like an ordinary child.

The only way to protect you is to get you out of the secret center.

If Dad wins, you will have a quiet childhood. Years later, when everything goes to dust, Dad will be able to be a normal dad, watching my daughter go to college, travel, meet the other half of her life, and walk into the marriage hall under my escort.

These years, my father went to Tibet, Nepal, India, and my father knew he didn't have much time left.

That encounter caused my body to begin to change. When I found out, in a way, Dad wasn't human anymore.

If you have read this letter, remember that Daddy will be watching over you in heaven.

This diary records the tip of the truth, but the process of chasing the truth is like a giant whirlpool, causing you to sink deeper and deeper into the abyss. Daddy didn't want you to know the truth all his life, but he had already thought of a way to protect you.

But dad has been fighting against fate all his life, but if dad also helped you make a choice while you didn't know it, wouldn't that be unfair to you as well?

So Dad left you the right to choose.

The only premise is that you only need to think about yourself. Do you feel that knowing is more important than being an ordinary person and enjoying the bland happiness?

Don't try to avenge daddy, no matter what, dad won't come back, don't waste your life.

If you still want to live your old life, all you have to do is burn your diary and go to America with your passport and birth certificate in the envelope. You don't need to worry about anything other than having your name changed. You are still the original Wang Wangwang.

But if you keep this diary open, you will know that you have peeped into a part of the truth, but you will also have to pay the price of knowledge. This price may bring you down into the abyss. This was the last thing my father wanted.

Regardless of your choice, you are still father's daughter. Leave the blood of our family and never submit to fate. No matter how difficult it was to overcome, one must not give up. Darkness seemed endless, but one could still be pierced by a beam of light.

Live well, my daughter.

papa

Tu Xinlei

In the envelope with the letter was a wedding photo, a passport, and an English birth certificate.

It showed a young mother and father standing in the sunset at the University of Philadelphia, wearing a simple white dress and her hair tied up in a bun with two pink roses. Dad was wearing a white suit that didn't fit him very well, and he was smiling at her from the side. She was the only one in his eyes.

On the back of the photo was written:

Tu Xinlei and his wife, Olina.

Iwillgiveoumilovefromthisdayon, fortherestofourlives.

From now on, I will give you love until the end of time.

My name is Fu Ao Qing. I am the daughter of Tu Xinlei and Ou Lina.

Tears wet the letter.

My father was killed to protect me.

Dad, I'm sorry, I can't do what you told me to do,

I have to find the person who killed you and avenge you.

Just as I was about to open the diary, a hand pressed down on the cover.

It was Shuyue.

"Why do you want to see it?" Shuyue said.

"I want to know the truth. I want to know why my dad died. I want to avenge my dad."

"Where did you get your confidence from? Could an ant trip an elephant with its legs? Would the Floater be able to shake the tree with its anger? Why can't I fulfill his wish and become an ordinary person? "

Shuyue looked into my eyes:

"You don't need to show off. No one wants you to be a hero. We spent so much effort to protect your life for so many years, we don't want you to just be a fool and throw it away."

"Don't open it." she said, in a pleading tone.

I lowered my head and stayed silent for a long time.

Even if I was afraid that when my teacher asked me about "the dream profession of the future," I said loudly, "I want to be a scientist."

Even if I was in "my university" in the essay, wrote Tsinghua University and Peking University.

Even if it was just a fantasy, one day, he would go from MSS to MSS. Nobody becomes Somabody.

However, the fate of ordinary people was that even if they were hot-blooded, they still had insurmountable restrictions.

There was a long silence. I forced Shuyue's hand away.

"This is my choice."

In my generation, I have been taught since I was young. My little arm is not much better than my thigh. Justice cannot defeat evil.

Without Water Ice Moon's super power, he would not be able to kill Demons Subduing Demons, nor would he be able to protect others without Batman's savings.

He lowered his head and lived cautiously. Slowly, he forgot how to lift his head up.

Could it be because he couldn't see the light, he could only choose to close his eyes?

Could it be because there was no possibility of winning, he had to choose to ignore it?

If I choose not to look at this diary, I can continue to be an ordinary person.

But I will never have true peace of mind in my life, there will always be a voice in my heart saying, You once had a chance to get close to the truth, but you gave it up.

You're a man who doesn't even dare to know what happened to your father.

Rather than being cowardly and selfish, I'd rather open this diary.

At the very least, he could tell himself that he still had a chance to become someone extraordinary.

Even if the truth of me let my life drift away, I can still sleep at night with certainty.

"You have never been a child with a high talent. If you blindly pursue something that you cannot match, you will only receive pain."

After Shuyue finished speaking, she slowly loosened her hand.

I opened the diary.