C415 Choice

If I say that, it will be much easier for me.

"Why didn't you say so earlier? I thought that not letting me take this job in the country would mean that I had lost everything. I really can't bear to lose it, and I don't have the income for this job, so I'm not anything at all. If I don't develop like you think I am in the United States, then I'm nothing at all, so I'm not worthy of you