C41 It's a Tough Choice to Start a Family

This was the first time that Su Jianguo did not choose to stay at school, but instead went to West Lake, walking aimlessly next to West Lake. He looked at West Lake with tears falling down, but he did not stop walking.

He knew that as long as he stopped, he would definitely hug him tightly and hide in a place where he could no longer stand up.

Su Jianguo had never thought that there would be a day where he would first start his business and then start his family. Or would he start his business after he started his business? It would be a nightmare in his life.

Angele's song was playing in his mind. "Yalia is mysterious. Yeliya. Yeliya is mysterious. I have to find her. "

Thinking about this song, Su Jianguo felt that his dream was to find Yeliya. He really wanted to find her.

However, he had no choice. His parents were old and his younger brother and sister were young. He could not do his best to find this girl.

Life was so long that people couldn't help but cover their mouths. They wanted to cry their grievances, because they couldn't find the goddess Yalia in their lives.

However, the more they couldn't find her, the more they wanted to find her. However, before they found her, everything around them would become a whetstone on their path of training. They would grind a layer of skin on themselves and lose their minds. They would be in a trance and stagger.

Su Jianguo closed his eyes. His eyes were very heavy, and his tears were even heavier. He couldn't bear the pain of finding dreams and resolving the pain of reality.

Su Jianying's words resounded in Su Jianguo's ears. If learning was useful, why was he still in poverty?

If learning was useless, Then, what was he persisting in?

Su Jianguo seemed to have walked into a dead end. This dead end made him want to find someone to ask about how to crack it.

This dead end made him suffocate. In his eyes, he had never encountered such a troublesome situation before. It was in his heart.

Like a red-hot iron, it burned his eyes and burned a hole in his heart.

Su Jianguo slowly sat on a bench by the lake. Tears flowed down his face as his lips moved. He did not want to give up. He really did not want to give up.

Perhaps his life would change as long as he persisted in Shanghai's railway station.

But what about his family? For his willfulness, within three years, his family relied on his eldest sister, Su Jianying, to support him.

If his eldest son was still selfish, how could he feel at ease? Where was his conscience?

Su Jianguo's hands trembled as he placed his hand on his chest. He opened his mouth slightly. Was it his conscience? Did he really lack a conscience?

However, he merely wanted a bright future and wanted to find Goddess Yalia. Was this wrong?

Su Jianguo's hand was tightly pressed against his chest. He did not understand. Was he wrong? What was his fault? Was it because he wanted to find his goddess Yalia?

But who wouldn't want to find their goddess Yalia?

More and more tears flowed down Su Jianguo's face and dripped onto the back of his hand. This drop shocked his mind and made his hand tremble.

Before this, he was still in the Youth Palace. . . Su Jianguo raised his eyebrows. Yes, in the Youth Palace. . .

Su Jianguo's eyes slowly became empty. He looked forward and slowly smiled.

He even shamelessly told those third-class students about his ideals, his considerations for the future, and his views on life.

At that time, he also cried, but he cried to his heart's content. He cried out his grievances, but he also cried out his only wish.

At that time. . . Ha. . . How much expectation and respect did those children have for him?

However, in just a few days, he only went home to take a look at his sister. However, after meeting his parents, his ambition had completely disappeared!

He was defeated, defeated by reality, defeated by poverty?

However, he didn't want to lose, didn't want to lose to poverty. He wasn't someone who easily gave in!

However, if this wasn't defeat, then what was?

He didn't have money to support his parents, he didn't have money to support his brothers and sisters. He only had hot blood in his heart. . . He only had thoughts in his heart!

Even if it was put into practice, so what? Even if President Zhang Yu favored him, if Professor Zhao Cheng appreciated him, so what if Principal Cui Jin valued him?

These were not money. Without solving the problem of his family being full, there was no way to eliminate the embarrassment of his current financial situation!

His sister said that if studying was useful, why was his family still so poor? That's right, Why did he work so hard? Why did he work so hard to learn that he was always so poor?

Yesterday, he thought about it for a whole day in the dormitory, but he couldn't figure it out, nor could he figure it out!

He didn't dare to stay in the dormitory because he didn't know what was right. He also didn't dare to meet his roommates because he didn't know how to tell Fang Yi and Liang Fei that he didn't want to go to Shanghai's railway station. He chose to stay in school just to get a wife and reduce the burden on his parents.

He was such a proud and arrogant man. He could not say it out loud, and he felt even more ashamed to meet his teacher, Zhao Cheng!

Because, he, such a ambitious man, was defeated by poverty.

Su Jianguo laughed self-deprecatingly. He slowly clenched his fists with trembling hands. He swayed his body and stared at West Lake in a daze.

At this moment, Su Jianguo wanted to ask, Is living for the dream or reality? What was the difference between bread and roses, life and dreams?

He, a mortal, would he have the chance to pursue the goddess Yalia in his heart?

Or perhaps, it was because of his own birth that decided. . . Was it destined that he was not qualified to pursue the goddess of Yalia?

He didn't know, he didn't know anything, he didn't know what his future was like, he didn't know what his future would be like, and he didn't know what the outcome would be.

The unknown made Su Jianguo confused. It also stunned Su Jianguo. He blankly sat by the lake. He didn't know what night it was. Not what year it was.

In a trance, Su Jianguo slowly sang the song Goddess Yalia. He also did not know why he sang this song. Perhaps he was unwilling?

He was unwilling to just destroy his life like this and return to the small mountain village to get married and have children!

Perhaps it was because he had given up? If he did not give up, he would give up his studies and go around the mediocrity of his wife and children?

In the end, he wasn't that Yan Que! He's a swan! The sparrow knew the swan's will, but so what if he knew? He could only face it in silence. . . He could only be beaten down by reality in a sorry state, unable to stand up again.

However, even if he prostrated himself on the ground in such a sorry state, he still had a huge heart!

Therefore, as he sang, in a sorry state. . . He sang the song of "Goddess Yalia," which was filled with the vicissitudes of life, hysterically and in such a sorry state.

When her voice became completely hoarse, Su Jianguo sat on the chair and stared blankly at the West Lake and the noon sun.

Su Jianguo stretched out his hand to block the dazzling sunlight and looked at the sunlight doubtfully. Would his life be dull or dull in the future?

Su Jianguo closed his eyes and swallowed his saliva. He was stunned and stiff, as if his soul had dried up.

No, he was unwilling. He was truly unwilling! No matter how he tried to convince himself, even if he was extremely selfish, he was unwilling to part with his current studies.

But. . . When he thought of how ugly his blind date was, He. . . He. . .

Su Jianguo laughed again. With tears in his eyes, he laughed. "Haha. . . "

His heart ached and ached.

That's right, he couldn't even give a betrothal gift. He couldn't even afford a television or a bicycle!

He didn't even have the qualifications to marry a wife, he didn't even have the capital to share the burden of his parents, how could he still talk about ideals?

Was he worthy? Was he worthy?

Su Jianguo slowly smiled. His voice was not loud, but it was filled with sadness.

After a while, Su Jianguo covered his face with both hands. Tears gushed out. He was not worthy. In the end, he was not worthy. . .

Perhaps he had cried for a long time, but Su Jianguo stood up unsteadily. He walked like a walking corpse at West Lake and accidentally bumped into a woman.

This was a girl dressed in a village attire, but she was carrying a book. This was a book that she had read for the college entrance examination.

Su Jianguo raised his head and looked around. Xinhua Bookstore? This was really interesting. . . The first time he saw Cheng Jianjun and his son here, and he felt inferior for the first time here. He did not expect that he would come here in a trance again. Is it fate?

"Are you alright?" The girl stood up and looked at Su Jianguo doubtfully. "Do you need my help?"

Su Jianguo sized up the girl and laughed self-deprecatingly. "I. . . Am worthy of someone helping me?"

Before the girl could react, she saw Su Jianguo turn around and leave slowly.

Su Jianguo was not a man who did not know manners. It was just that at this moment, his world collapsed. Whether he chose to persist or not, she did not know. How could he care about everything around him?

The girl noticed Su Jianguo's unusual behavior and quickly chased after him. "Comrade, Do you have something on your mind? Do you want to talk to me?"

Su Jianguo tilted his head and looked at the girl. The girl said warmly, "My name is Li Ying. Comrade, I see that you are not in a good mood. Do you want to sit down? Perhaps talking to someone will make you feel much better?"

"Is that so? Talking?" Su Jianguo sized up Li Ying.

This Li Ying was naturally a warm-hearted woman. " Yeah, there is no such thing as an obstacle that cannot be overcome in this world. Perhaps from another angle, you will be able to get past this obstacle? "

"My obstacle. . . My fault. . . I'm afraid no one can help me. " Su Jianguo sighed. Why did he waste his breath on an unfamiliar girl?

In this world, there were probably very few people who could help him.

"No, comrade. There were some things that he had to go through even if he had to rely on himself. If. . . You can't even handle it yourself. . . How can it conform to the arrangement of the great appointment?" Li Ying encouraged him, "There are a lot of things. . . If you look at one aspect alone, you might end up in a dead end. But if you look at it from another perspective, you might understand that closing the door. . . Then you must open a window in the dark. "

"Is that so? For you to open a window for me? Then tell me, if you don't have money and are poor, how are you going to solve it?" As if he was taking revenge, Su Jianguo sized up Li Ying. When he saw that Li Ying was not dressed well, he said those words.

"It doesn't matter if you are poor. As long as you work hard. Furthermore, I believe that our like-minded friends will work together. Everyone will pick up the firewood. We have to believe in the strength of the group, and even more so believe that if we live, we will have a miraculous destiny arranged for us" Li Ying handed a book of his to Su Jianguo. "Student, I have been reading 'How Steel Is Refined' recently. Perhaps you should read it too. There are a lot of inspirational stories in it. "

Su Jianguo pushed Li Ying's hand away. "If Steel can't be refined, then. . . I don't even know if I am steel or trash. What's the use of looking at this? "