C48 Reflect on the Meaning of Life Once Again

After Liang Fei left, Su Jianguo turned to look at Li Ying. At this moment, Li Ying's face was completely red. For the first time, Su Jianguo reached out his hand to hold Li Ying's hand. "Go back. There are some things that need to be done. "

"Ah?" Li Ying raised his head and looked at Su Jianguo in a daze.

Su Jianguo smiled faintly. This girl was sometimes very stupid and sometimes very smart. However, only a girl like this would make people like her, right?

"I say. . . The four-year agreement has come, you should fulfill the agreement with me. " Su Jianguo led Li Ying out of the restaurant and the two of them arrived under the Wutong tree.

The leaves were deep and the cicadas were chirping. Su Jianguo and Li Ying looked at each other. At this moment, Li Ying was shy.

"I. . . " Li Ying still wanted to say something, but Su Jianguo pulled her forward.

She looked at his broad shoulders and his warm side profile. Such a man, would he really live with her for the rest of his life?

But why did she feel extreme warmth and happiness?

Was it because she had been with him for a long time? But where did the sense of security come from?

Was it because he was familiar with him, or did he fall in love with Su Jianguo the moment he saw him at the entrance of the village?

Was it because of this?

Or. . .

Before Li Ying could think clearly, Su Jianguo took out a rope from his shirt pocket and passed it to Li Ying. "I see that you rarely lead flowers. This is for you. "

It was a flower with a bow tie. Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo in a daze. She. . .

"What? You don't like it?" Su Jianguo asked.

"No. Li Ying was speechless. He could only stutter and swallow the words in his stomach.

" Just what? " Su Jianguo looked at Li Ying curiously.

"No. I. . . I don't know what to say either. " Li Ying felt that his mouth was stupid.

"Li Ying. . . " Su Jianguo suddenly stopped and turned around to look at her.

"Ah? What?" Li Ying's heart was beating even faster now.

"Are you willing to. . . " Su Jianguo turned around and looked at her. "Marry me?"

"Ah?!" Li Ying took a few steps back.

"I mean, are you willing to marry me?" At this moment, Su Jianguo was not very nervous. He was only looking forward to her agreeing.

"I. . . " Li Ying did not know whether to agree or to escape.

"If you agree, let me hold your hand. If you don't agree, I can watch you leave first. " Su Jianguo gave Li Ying a chance to choose.

"I. . . " Li Ying wanted to say that she would leave first. She wanted to escape, but she swallowed the words in her stomach under the sunlight.

"What are you talking about?" Su Jianguo knew Li Ying too well. He asked even though he knew the answer.

"I. . . I don't know either. . . " Li Ying did not know what to say. At this moment, Su Jianguo smiled.

This smile was accompanied by the summer wind. She was intoxicated by the dream of the Midsummer Night.

"Then I'll take it as you agreeing. We have two months to arrange it. After this, let's go to Shanghai. " Su Jianguo stroked her hair and led her to school.

Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo. He smiled foolishly.

Two months later, Su Jianguo and Li Ying arrived at Shanghai railway station. As Liang Fei had said, the male colleagues of Shanghai railway station had a very good impression of Li Ying.

Such a good impression made Su Jianguo very uncomfortable, as if his own things had been coveted.

What made Su Jianguo even more uncomfortable was that his family background made Li Ying lead a bad life. As for the other girls from Shanghai's railway station, they wore better clothes than Li Ying.

At this moment, Su Jianguo was afraid that Li Ying would leave him because of poverty. Although they were newlyweds, the comparison of wealth made Su Jianguo's heart panic.

Li Ying also felt that she was as ignorant as Grandma Liu entering the Grand View Gardens. When she saw the clothing of the other female colleagues, she felt that she was a country bumpkin woman. Although she was knowledgeable, the difference was like the difference between clouds and mud.

Her inferiority often made Li Ying sit alone. In the past, because of the compliments from the boys, she did not think much of Shanghai.

Now that he was married to Su Jianguo, for the first time, he felt the feeling of being neglected.

Seeing that his knowledge was inferior to his, However, it was impossible for Li Ying not to feel jealous when she saw those girls who were dressed much better than him.

But the rules and principles made Li Ying honestly stay in his own territory. He silently stared blankly at the other girls.

At this moment, Li Ying and Su Jianguo finally understood the thrill of competing. Indeed, it was heart-wrenching.

Su Jianguo absentmindedly recalled his sister's words. If learning was useful, why couldn't it change poverty?

If ideals are useful, why is it that till now, you are still poor? Was learning really useful?

Was it because learning was useless that the poverty did not change? Is learning simply unable to create wealth, that's why they are inferior to others in every aspect?

This feeling made the newlyweds no longer as inseparable as they had imagined after they got married. Instead, they spoke much less.

Su Jianguo felt guilty. Li Ying, on the other hand, felt guilty. There was an indescribable feeling of depression.

They already had such a difficult problem before they had a child. What about after they had a child? Were children better than others in every aspect?

This kind of feeling made Li Ying cover her stomach. She was afraid that after the child was born, she would face it. In this world, there were three, six, nine grades. She married a poor person, and the child was destined to be poor.

Li Ying bit her lips. She was pregnant. She had a child in the third month since she came to work.

And this child caused her career to stagnate, and also made her and his rented house extremely crowded.

When the child was born in the future, they would have to face milk powder and diapers, which the two of them would not be able to bear.

Why was poverty not improved by knowledge?

Confusion arose in Li Ying's heart. As a result, she did not tell Su Jianguo about her pregnancy.

As for Su Jianguo, he was not happy at Shanghai's railway station. He was always unhappy about being inferior to others. He was always depressed about being poor.

Such dark clouds caused Su Jianguo to be in a daze for a while. Slowly, Su Jianguo returned home later and later. Most of the time, he just sat there in a daze.

Even with Liang Fei and Fang Yi occasionally helping him, how long could others help him?

Wasn't everything still dependent on himself?

Or could it be said that the accumulation of poverty was so difficult to return, resulting in their lives being inferior to others?

Just as Su Jianguo was about to leave the office, he happened to meet his life's benefactor, Zhang Yu, who had been chatting with him for a long time.

"Long time no see. " Zhang Yu smiled as he sat beside Su Jianguo.

"President Zhang, long time no see. " Su Jianguo smiled bashfully.

"I heard you are married?" Zhang Yu congratulated him. "Congratulations. "

"Yeah, I'm married. " Su Jianguo said weakly.

"What? Newlyweds are not happy at all?" Zhang Yu asked doubtfully.

"President Zhang, is it convenient for you now?" Su Jianguo asked.

"What is it?" Zhang Yu looked at Su Jianguo curiously.

"President Zhang, I don't seem to be able to find my own path. I can't find my direction. I don't know what I should do. I also don't understand what I should do. " Su Jianguo looked at Zhang Yu in a somewhat dispirited manner.

"It has been four years since we last met, but your mood has become much more complicated. Can you tell me why?" Zhang Yu was very curious. Why would a person who had once been hot-blooded and persistent suddenly have a dispirited appearance?

"President Zhang. . . I heard it four years ago. This sentence has been etched into my memory all the way until now, but I don't agree with it. However, I don't agree with it, and I feel that it's very correct. That's why I got lost. I want to know what's right. " Su Jianguo looked at Zhang Yu.

"Tell me, what does it look like?"

Su Jianguo turned off his Walkman and looked at Zhang Yu.

"President Zhang, I want to know if learning is useful?" Su Jianguo looked at Zhang Yu seriously.

Zhang Yu recalled that day. That day, he asked Su Jianguo why he didn't choose to come to Shanghai. Su Jianguo also asked the same question. At that time, he chose to stay in school because he did not answer properly.

Could it be that. . . This was Su Jianguo's inner demon?

Where did this inner demon come from? Why did it say that learning was useless?

Zhang Yu looked at Su Jianguo. At this moment, Su Jianguo asked again, "President Zhang, is learning really useful?"

"If you rely on learning to eat, it is useful. If you rely on learning to make money, it will be useless. " Zhang Yu no longer said that learning was very useful. If he was unable to convince Su Jianguo, he would not be able to convince Su Jianguo. Instead, he used another conversation to talk to Su Jianguo.

"If learning is useless, then why should I learn?" Su Jianguo looked at Zhang Yu. This sentence made Zhang Yu understand his condition.

Could it be that Su Jianguo wanted to be rich? Or could it be. . . Zhang Yu looked at Su Jianguo's uncut sweater. What was the cause of the cuff rupture? It was poverty.

"Xiao Su, learning is to let you understand how to be a human. But learning isn't to let you understand how to make a fortune. If you want to rely on learning to become a millionaire, It might be very difficult in the short term. But in the long term, it can definitely be done. Because learning was a gradual process. Doing things was also a gradual process. Indeed. . . " Zhang Yu looked at Su Jianguo and told him his thoughts. He wanted Su Jianguo to understand that learning was not a useless idea.

"Your current poverty cannot be changed on a large scale. That is because of your family. It is because of your accumulated poverty that you are unable to return. Even if you want to change, Even if you want to change, you need to change it bit by bit, it can't be changed in an instant. However, this didn't affect your wealth. After all, the moment when knowledge became money, it was often the moment when you achieved success and fame. Perhaps fame and fortune are too vulgar for you and me. Or maybe you and I don't like such vulgarities. But in this world, who doesn't vulgarity? " Zhang Yu comforted Su Jianguo.

"However, vulgar people also have their own rules and bottom line. I understand. In your heart, you want to see the situation change. A good life for your parents and your wife and children. But this doesn't stop you from working hard to learn for this purpose. Su, you can think of the difference between ideal and fame, And what kind of mission and responsibility have you been entrusted with?" Zhang Yu, like how Su Jianguo had told the youth about responsibility, told him about his sense of responsibility.

"What is it?" Su Jianguo really wanted to be convinced by Zhang Yu. This way, his nightmare would no longer be a nightmare.

"It is the destiny of a great man who has been given great responsibilities. Such a mission will inevitably cause one's willpower to suffer, but it will not cause one's willpower to suffer for a long time. If I really want you to be poor to the end, Then why did you meet me? Why did you meet your benefactor, Zhao Cheng? Why did you meet Fang Yi, Liang Fei, and your wife, Li Ying? Every single one of them is an elite in this industry, right?" Zhang Yu's words jolted Su Jianguo awake.