C50 The Heart of the past Was Lost

Zhang Yu turned back to look at Su Jianguo. At this time, Su Jianguo no longer looked dejected. Instead, he looked straight at Zhang Yu and nodded his head slowly. Clearly, he had heard Zhang Yu's words.

"President Zhang. . . Thank you. . . " Su Jianguo looked at Zhang Yu seriously. His eyes were flashing with gratitude. "You let me solve a question about studying and poverty. Perhaps I have been confused by the contradictions. "

Su Jianguo rubbed his hands. Perhaps he was truly confused by the contradictions. He did not know how to do it, nor did he know how to understand it. After wasting four years, he was actually immersed in the contradictions, unable to extricate himself.

It was his fault. His fault was not knowing how to understand it. His fault was that his utilitarian heart had exceeded his initial heart.

Perhaps, poverty puzzled him. The ancient people said that poverty only served to strengthen one's strength, but he did not do it. He also did not understand what a man's backbone was.

He was wrong. . . He was wrong. . . He was wrong to give success to an environment of money, to give it to an environment of wealth.

Yes, studying was not useless. It was to let people understand their own future as much as possible, to let people understand what they wanted and to let them understand what they were looking forward to.

Reading wasn't useless. Although he wouldn't be able to obtain more wealth in a short period of time, ten years of trees would allow bamboo to grow taller and faster than ordinary bamboo.

It was just that this bamboo used to be docile in the soil and used to be overconfident. However, ten years later, who could say that the soil of knowledge couldn't bring wealth?

The country valued talents so much. It was just that he thought that talents were different from talents in the country.

Su Jianguo looked at Zhang Yu. Although he was somewhat stunned, he had to admit that Zhang Yu was right.

If the heavens had really given up on him, why would they let him know so many outstanding people from various industries?

It had to be him who wanted him to be pure. Only by doing one thing would he be able to bury himself in a small place and absorb sufficient nutrients.

Meanwhile, in the future, he would definitely travel together with outstanding seniors like Zhang Yu and Zhang Hong.

Since he knew his own future, Su Jianguo would no longer be disappointed because of the short period of difference between them.

"I understand what I should do next. Thank you. . . "Su Jianguo's words caused Zhang Yu to smile in relief.

"I feel like I am looking at you who used to be full of vigor. Are you still full of energy now?" Zhang Yu asked curiously.

"Teacher Zhang, I'm still me. Although I'm lost, I can still find the path I should take. So thank you for letting me understand what I am troubled about and what I look forward to. Thank you. "

Su Jianguo clenched Zhang Yu's hand tightly. "Thank you again, Teacher Zhang. "

Zhang Yu smiled and nodded. "If you have anything else you need to do, just grab it and do it. I believe that Zhao Cheng is still waiting for your reply. "

"Yes, Teacher. I'll go and prepare right away. Please believe me. " Su Jianguo nodded. "Thank you. "

"Go quickly, child. " Zhang Yu raised his hand.

Su Jianguo picked up his Walkman and strode toward his dormitory. There was his newly wedded wife there, as well as someone he had once thought to be sunny there.

At this moment, he decided to talk to his wife properly, talk about his dreams that he had never talked about, and talk about the things that he had already decided on.

When he opened the door, Su Jianguo saw that Li Ying was reading a book. It was a book that they had first met. It was a book that Li Ying had given him. It was called, How to Cultivate Steel. Su Jianguo had never read this book, but his brave wife had been reading it. She had been reading it as a book to motivate herself.

When Li Ying heard the sound of the door opening, he raised his head and looked at Su Jianguo in astonishment. At that moment, Su Jianguo was no longer in a daze when he went out. When he returned, his eyes were filled with determination. It was as if he had determined something, but at the same time, he seemed to have confirmed something.

"Ah Ying. . . " Su Jianguo called out softly. Li Ying put down his book and stared blankly at Su Jianguo.

"Mhm. " Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo.

"I'm sorry. You married me, but I didn't treat you to a good meal. Today, let's go to the outer beach to have a meal. How about it?" Su Jianguo's palm faced upwards as he asked Li Ying.

"We. . . Might not have much money. . . " Li Ying still wanted to say that he wanted to buy a house, but he was interrupted by Su Jianguo.

"We still have money to eat, don't we? I will treat you to a meal. Can you give me this chance?" Su Jianguo's smile puzzled Li Ying for a moment.

"I. . . I might not be suitable. . . " Li Ying had a bad appetite these few days. After all, she had been pregnant for more than two months and she was starting to feel nauseous.

"Don't tell me you don't want to go out with me for a meal?" Su Jianguo only wanted to restart his life with Li Ying. He wanted to start their life and see what they had to face in this life.

To Su Jianguo, he only wanted to face everything he had to face. Regardless of whether it was the unbearable feeling he felt in the past or the calmness he was feeling now.

"But. . . " While Li Ying was still hesitating, Su Jianguo still chose to drag Li Ying out of the door.

The two of them walked on the beach and looked at the sea in the night sky. The two of them walked in silence until they reached the barbeque shop. Only then did they stop inside.

After ordering some kebabs and beer, Su Jianguo and Li Ying sat across from each other.

This was the first time Li Ying saw Su Jianguo spending money and eating outside.

"What happened to you today?" Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo doubtfully.

"Ah Ying, why do you think people need to study?" Su Jianguo looked at Li Ying.

"Learn?" Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo doubtfully. What happened to her? Why did she feel that Su Jianguo was acting strange today?

"Yes, I'm studying. Why do you want to study?" Su Jianguo looked at Li Ying. He wanted to know the answer. He also wanted to know how Li Ying viewed poverty and learning.

"I feel that learning can help me learn things and change my views. I have never thought about the use of learning. If it really has any use, then just take me from the mountains to Shanghai, this big city. " Li Ying said very simply. She did not have such big ambitions.

"Is that so? In your opinion, is that all?" Su Jianguo looked at Li Ying doubtfully.

"Yes, that's all. What's the matter? " Li Ying was confused.

"Do you know that I was once in a state of dementia for three days?" Su Jianguo said somewhat emotionally, "I have always been thinking about that line of my sister. If learning is useful, why is our family still so poor?"

"How can Big Sister have such thoughts? Learning is not the way to earn money, so how can you immediately change your family? " Li Ying had a puzzled expression.

"Yeah, learning can't immediately change poverty, but you and I can change step by step, and there isn't much change in our views. Aren't you also envious of the local girls in Shanghai who wear red and green? Aren't you also envious of Xiao Chen being able to bring a jade bracelet? Aren't you envious?" Su Jianguo's words made Li Ying's face turn red.

"I am envious. However, I am not jealous. I believe that in five or six years, I will also have a chance to obtain these things. " Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo. "Even if I am envious now, I know what my family is like. I do not wish to have them immediately. However, I do not reject having them in the future. "

"However, if you don't marry me and choose any boy with a better family background, perhaps you will have one. " Su Jianguo said.

"What are you saying? Could it be that I am married to money? So what if I am a kid with a better family background? He doesn't have much to say to me. No one can speak to me. No one can talk to me. What's the use of wearing gold and silver? I don't understand why you have such a contradiction. Su Jianguo, I married you. Naturally, I chose you. Why should I regret it?" Li Ying had also had enough of the recent cold violence. She wanted to explain it to Su Jianguo.

"So?" Su Jianguo looked at Li Ying.

"I don't know what happened to us. We were clearly fine before marriage. I don't know what happened to us. We were clearly fine before the wedding, but after the wedding, we became strangers. I don't like this. Su Jianguo. If. . . " Li Ying placed his hand on his stomach and bit his lips. "If you really don't love me, or if you're really tired of our marriage. . . Then I'll accept our divorce. "

"I won't divorce you. " Su Jianguo said resolutely.

"No, if you feel that it is very awkward to be with me, If you feel that my envious eyes will make you feel uncomfortable, if you can't bear it, I hope that this day will come. If you can buy these jewelry for me, or I can buy them myself. If you feel that my expectations are wrong, I accept your divorce. " Li Ying's temper also rose.

"Ying, that's not what I meant. I want to say, have you ever thought of mourning for a poor couple?" Su Jianguo asked.

"I have thought about it, but so what? I am married to you, Su Jianguo said. Since it is a fact, I have to fight for my life. Su Jianguo. I don't understand why you think so. I also don't understand why you used to treat studying as an interest. You, who developed an interest into a career, are actually so cowardly and retreating. I can see your hesitation, Because of your dream and poverty, you hesitated. However. . . "Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo seriously. At this moment, she had a bright heart.

"However, in my heart, the escape that you have done. . . It is weakness and irresponsible! If you think that my point of view is also wrong. . . If you think that I look down on you, then I will accept everything you say. I will be responsible for my words, and I will also be responsible for my future. You don't have to worry about me. " Li Ying thought that this was the last time they were going to break up, so he opened the window and said something.

"Ying, do you think I look like someone who wants to divorce you? I just want to ask you. . . If. . . We work together and work hard to become recognized talents by the government in Shanghai, we can enjoy the talent subsidy and settle down in Shanghai. What do you think?" Su Jianguo handed the document that Zhang Yu had given him to Li Ying.

"You?" Li Ying looked at Su Jianguo doubtfully. Su Jianguo slowly smiled.

"I was once lost. How about getting lost in the future? Getting lost is really useless in learning. I searched for a long time, lost in the middle of nowhere. . . I met him, but I still couldn't find the direction mark of this road. Until today, I finally figured it out. I've always had a lamp by my side, but I overlooked it. I've also overlooked it. " Su Jianguo held Li Ying's hands.

"I hope you can understand that you are my wife. You are the lover of my spiritual contract. The contract is a contract that will last for a lifetime. How can I lose it just like that? How can I lose it forever? I have chosen you, and you must be your husband. I'll take responsibility for you until the end. However, are you willing to let me read 'How Steel Is Refined' together with you?" Su Jianguo's words stunned Li Ying.