C8 I wonder

"I, Derrick Stiles, hereby reject you Gwen Dylan as my mate." He had declared.

I was devastated, my heart was torn, bruised and shattered, I couldn't feel my legs. I was crushed.

Just yesterday, I found out Derrick was my mate. It had spread faster than lighting to all packs in the vicinity. Ava had spread the word of course.

Everyone could hardly believe their ears, the moon goddess was definitely playing tricks, an alpha had never been mates with an omega wolf. Everyone couldn't wait to see me get rejected and humiliated.

Their expectations came to fruition, I was relieved they never got to see it. I had been rejected privately.

It happened on a peaceful evening. I had been watching the skies in the garden. Caught in my sorrow, I didn't realize when the darkness covered the sky like a blanket.

It looked like there was going to be a heavy downpour soon. I panicked, I needed to find shelter. But it was too late. My mind went blank, my heart froze. It had started again, my shock episodes.

A trauma I had developed from my childhood. I was scared of the rain, I was always rooted on a spot whenever it rained, my mind would travel far away. I stood static, like a statue. I could see, hear, but I couldn't move, nor could I speak.

Suddenly I his scent filled my nose, strong and powerful. I was stupefied, Derrick had come for me. Had he come to mark me? I asked myself.

I couldn't move, these episodes had been going on for years, it only stopped whenever the rain ceased. It was a trauma I developed after mom left me. I would stand in the rain until someone pulled me out. But I wasn't getting any luck today, this was my secret hideout, a part of the garden no one knew. It had begun to drizzle, the tiny cold drops pattered on my skin.

"Gwen." His powerful deep voice called my name. My legs turned jelly, this was the first time he had ever said anything to me. But I couldn't say a word.

"You may be my mate, but I'll never accept it." "I can't be mates with an omega wolf, no matter how pretty she may be." He fell silent.

All these while, he stood behind me. His sense of smell was probably very strong, he had found me.

He didn't look at me, he never looked me in the eye. Oddly enough, I felt excited, he said I was pretty. wanted to see his face, I wanted to talk to him. But I was helpless, I tried so hard but I couldn't move a finger.

"I have to do what's necessary Gwen." "You'll always be weak and pathetic."

He said. My heart lurched in pain, I cursed the day I was born an omega wolf. My mom had been bitten, but nothing much changed about her. She was still very much human. She only had some wolf features. Like me, she had not been able to shift either.

I dreaded what was coming next, there was no way he was going to reject me, would he? All my life, I've wished and only dreamed to be with him. He was about to light my dream up in flames. Then, to my horror, he said it.

"I Derrick Stiles, alpha of the primordial wolves, hereby reject Gwen Dylan,

as my mate." He declared coldly.

The garden felt empty, I couldn't feel his powerful presence anymore, he had ran away.

He took off, leaving me alone in the garden feeling hopeless and dejected. Tears ran down my cheek, another one trickled slowly, followed by another. Thankfully, the heavy downpour washed my tears away. I wished it could wash what I was feeling at the moment. I was always going to be a failure, no one would ever love me.

I cried till I was weak. The rain finally ceased. I fell on the messy wet ground exhausted, I layed there for hours. I had gotten rejected by the love of my life.

Picking myself up, I made my way back to the castle. I fell on my bed and cried myself to sleep.

The morning sun shone brighter than usual. Only my part of the castle was bright, dad and Ava loved staying in the dark. I woke up shielding my eyes from the sun. I had left my window open. In fright, I shut it. Ever since last time, I was scared of leaving my windows open. I still had Brandon's ring, not sure where he was, I was yet to set my eyes on him since the incident. Heard word he went to the mountains to search for a member of their pack with his father. Their return date was not yet certain.

Memories of last night began to flash in my head. I still couldn't believe I got rejected, like I was a nobody. Tears flooded my eyes. I cursed the day I became an omega wolf. It's not like it was my fault I was born an omega wolf, I couldn't wrap my head around why everyone kept treating me like I wasn't their kind.

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There was a soft knock on my door.

"Miss, your father wants you down for breakfast." A servant informed me.

"I'll be there shortly." I sniffed.

Fixing myself, I went downstairs to join dad at the breakfast table. I guessed he probably had something to tell me.

"Good morning dad." "Morning my Gwen." He replied with worry all over his face, he didn't look so bright.

"How have you been feeling Gwen?." He asked.

"Great dad, just great." I lied forcing a smile.

"I got news Gwen, you got rejected." "The alpha wants another mate." "I wonder how you're feeling, no wolf has ever been rejected in our family." He said in worry.

He was right, I was the first. Our beauty had always charmed potential mates.

"I sent word to aunt Maya, I'll be sending you to Lycester." "You need to stay out of Dycan for a while, it'll do you no good."

"But I don't want to leave Dycan dad, I love it here."

"You can't be in a place that hurt you Gwen, you have to go faraway, at least till you're better." Getting rejected is though to deal with, aunt Maya can help." "It's best you leave Dycan, you'll be back in a year." "End of discussion Gwen."

"I see what this is about." "Are you ashamed of me dad?" "You want me far away so bad cause I bring you shame"

"You're projecting right now, I never said all that." "That's just how you feel."

"I'm just looking out for you Gwen, I'm trying to help."

He stood up.

"I'm heading out."

"Get ready, aunt Maya is expecting you." "Say your goodbyes by tomorrow, you leave at dusk." He said in finality.

I ran up to my room in tears.

I disorganized everything in sight. I ran my fingers through my thick black long wavy hair and cried, why was this happening to me.

A pervert had taken advantage of me, I got rejected, I brought shame to my family. And now I was getting kicked out, I knew this was exile.

Aunt Maya was going to be more than happy to have me live with her. But I didn't want to, Derrick was probably going to change his mind and tell me he felt the same way for me. But that was never going to happen. Aunt Maya was a widow, once married to a powerful alpha. He had lost his life in the war between wolves and vampires. He left her with a son Klutz, a dumb son. I wondered how he was.