C9 Chapter 9

Alpha Jax

My fathers words kept ringing inside my head with loud unending echoes. ' lose her forever... you will become the one thing you despise the most...’ It was a non ending cycle of his voice disrupting me to my core. Two nights of struggling to find sleep only proved the credibility of his utterances. The man didn't speak a lot but when he did, only sense emanated from his mouth.

Those words had my heart racing frantically and wolf going ballistic inside of me. It was yet another night of wanting to sleep but my body working hard against me. I rolled over and over again on my king sized bed, attempting to find a suitable sleeping position. The beast roared in the inside, scratching and pushing, wanting out to go out to see Scarlett. I remained on the bed, adamantly holding my wall up my brain to avoid shifting.

'You know she is ours. ' My wolf growled, sending his thoughts to mine. I could feel my human side becoming weaker as minutes passed by, my wolf wanted nothing but to hold her in our arms. It was a dangerous situation to have a wrangle between my human side and my animal side. Werewolves who couldn't harmonize both sides eventually ran mad or crazed, that is why there existed rogues. My father was right, I really didn't have a choice.

'She is a spy. ' I insisted, rubbing my creased forehead a little bit roughly. At that point, I almost banged my head on the headboard.

'She is a scared young girl who needs nothing but our affection and protection. The amount of fear she oozed when Alpha mentioned Silas was almost palpable. She wasn't lying and you fucking know it. You just expected an alpha female to be your mate. ' He argued back, his growls making my head begin to pound. The last time he took over my senses completely he slaughtered a whole pack of rogues solitarily. I didn't want to imagine what he would do to anyone who crossed his path now that he was convinced Scarlett was our mate.

I felt her fear, since the moment she stepped foot into the pack. What puzzled me was, her fear wasn't because of me, I could feel that something else inside of her was troubling inside of her. But what if a spell had been cast to confuse me into believing that she is my fated? I drowned an entire glass of scorch that had been on the bedside table, different scenarios playing out in my mind.

'She is pregnant for that bitch. ' I ground my teeth, the mere imagination of someone else touching her making my teeth clash.

'Because he forced himself on her! Why does it make you mad if you are sure she is not ours? The pregnancy of a rogue whom you seem to believe is a spy shouldn't make you this leaden with rage. ' I untangled legs from the messy beddings before stepping off the bed. I paced on the area rug on the floor yet again, his words sinking in one by one.

'Leave what happened to your mother out of this. She had nothing to do with it, I mean she doesn't even smell like those crazed bitches. She is normal, can't you accept that she really is ours? I need to see her now! '

He roared the last part, pushing in the back of my mind violently. I could feel my neck start to tingle as fur began to sprout. He was taking over my mind and body, morphing into the beast that he was. My skin burned, droplets of sweat accumulating in an unexplainable manner. It felt as if I had been thrown inside a furnace, heat engulfing my entire body. I groaned, pushing my aching feet toward the bathroom for an extreme cold bath.

'My heart, it feels like it's constricting. ' I whispered, rubbing my chest with my right palm. Ever since she shifted in the torture room, my heart constantly pained. Despite my trials to push her image out of my head, I couldn't. I was weakening gradually and every day I yearned to see her.

'That's because of the bond. If we don't accept her and complete it, one of us will die.’ He answered, my fingers extending into claws. My knees gave out, the force pulling me down on the floor in front of my bathroom door.

I knew that when werewolves rejected their mates, the weakest of the two mates died. The surviving one would go mad, and turn into a blood thirsty beast. His mind would become crazed, possibly worse than that of a rogue. I sighed, leaning on the oaken office table. Once again my father's word were being proven.

'Admit it, open your heart and let it feel what I feel. She is ours and if we lose her, we will become worse than those crazed wolves you so much despise. ' I was becoming tired of hearing the utterances of the platitudes over and over again. I closed my eyes, a lone tear escaping. I didn't know how much I was hurting, until the salty liquid touched my cheek.

My chest feel jagged whenever her image popped behind my eyelids, like a million knives were stabbing me over and over again. I had gone for long runs for two nights, until I passed out from exhaustion. My wolf was right, it would worsen if I continued denying what the moon goddess gave me. I couldn't take it anymore, I collapsed on the floor, my bones extending and rearranging themselves. The weak barrier I had built over the days tumbled down in the blink of an eye.

It wasn't like a normal transformation, this was fucking ten times worse. With every pop of the bones, pain spread over my body, consuming every part of me. I let out a painful cry, the force of it making my back bent. My claws scratched the wooden floor, a continuous pounding rendering me almost blind. It was as if I was glued to the ground, I couldn't move, my thoughts became stuck. I could only feel the pain as it took over every part of my body. I could feel his rage, disappointment in me and desire for Scarlett.

Just then my father budged in, his figure appearing blurry as he crouched in front of me. The droplets of sweat evolved into little streams everywhere on my skin as the forceful shift took over.

'Jesus Jax, you will die if you continue disputing with your wolf. Look at you, he is forcefully taking over, you fucking know that he wants his mate, you want her too. Fucking go to her or die like a coward. ' I heard his voice from a far, thundering inside the room with unbridled anger.

'The pack is in a state of panic, we can feel your pain Jax! ' I had no control over my actions.

'Breath in, let him know that you are going to take him to her. ' I cried out, not caring about an alpha ever showing his weakness. My insides burned, my skin felt raw, my ears rang, my eyes stung and my tongue felt dry. She was indeed my mate, I needed to accept that and prevent a impending massacre from my wolf.

'Please, we will go, right now. ' I breathed out the words in stammers, letting out cries in between.

'Now! ' He roared, making me crawl through the door like a pup. He calmed down enough to allow me to reverse the partial shift. My clothes had already teared so I settled for a pare of spare shorts that my father threw at me. I didn't say a word to my father, in shaky legs and thudding heart, I stepped out, heading to the dungeons.

My father's voice followed my steps under the crescent moon. My head felt lighter, my vision had cleared a bit, enough to let me drive without head lights.

'You're doing the right thing son, she would be proud of you. '