C16 Love Is so Tiring

Su Sier felt as if she had returned to her childhood, back to the shabby little house. She saw a little girl squatting in a corner crying. It was familiar yet strange. She felt an inexplicable pain in her heart.

A woman wearing an old cheongsam walked in with dirty bedding and piles of clothes. The woman looked at the crying child in the corner and did not say anything. She put down her things and turned around to leave.

Not long after, the woman came into the room again. She walked straight to the girl and patted her shoulder.

The little girl, whose face was full of tears and scars, looked up. The woman reached her hand in front of her. In her palm was a cheap orange fruit candy, small and sweet.

The girl's cry changed to a trembling shoulder. She picked up the candy, peeled it, and stuffed it into her mouth. The sour, sweet, sour, and sweet taste of the tangerine filled her taste buds, as if it had the power to relieve pain. She felt that the new wounds on her body were no longer that painful.

The girl in the plain qipao looked at her. Then, she combed her hair, hugged her clothes, and took them out to wash.

The little girl stood up and hurriedly chased after her. Her small figure followed behind the woman, not leaving an inch. The road to the outside could not be finished no matter what. They just kept walking and walking. Suddenly, the woman's figure became blurry. The little girl quickly went up and held the woman's hand. As soon as she touched it, the woman disappeared like a puff of smoke.

She started to panic. Her tears could not stop flowing down. She searched left and right, calling out loudly.

Su Yi, Su Yi, Su Yi.

She cried out in fear and caution. The empty surroundings became dark and no one responded to her.

Suddenly, Su Sier moved. She was woken up. It was a dream again but it was so clear. She was very sad and kept her eyes closed to maintain her original sleeping posture. She was powerless and did not want to get up.

She heard footsteps coming in. Only then did she remember that a man had returned to the apartment with her last night. A kiss gently landed on her face. Then, the footsteps left. Then, there was the sound of the door opening and the door closing. After that, it was quiet and the man left.

After a long time. Su Sier slowly opened her eyes. The place beside her on the bed slowly became cold. There was no longer a man's body temperature. It was as if no one had slept beside her.

She got up to wash up and poured cold water on her face. This was just a dream. It was a dream that she would have every night. It was not a big deal, was it?

You tried to find a man, hoping that in the night of passion, you could suppress the appearance of all kinds of scenes in such a young age. As a result, it became more and more clear.

Ah, Su Sier, you are really an innocent woman. You are so naive that people think you are daydreaming.

In the mirror, she was pale and beautiful. Su Sier stretched out her hand to look at the mirror, and her eyes and eyebrows in the mirror, just like her mother's.

It turned out that everything was still in her memory. Those unbearable feelings were really engraved in her heart.

She sighed and forced herself to focus.

When she arrived at the hotel where the exhibition was arranged, Su Sier found that she was not the only one who looked exhausted. She took two bottles of mineral water and walked towards the window at the corner.

"Xue." She slowly leaned against the other side of the window and smiled. She handed the water over.

"Thank you." Ye Xuechen smiled and still wore her casual attire.

"Xue, are you really not going down to see him?"

"There's no need." Ye Xuechen took the bottle and took a sip. Her eyes were still lowered as she looked at Wang Shuo, who was smoking by the car downstairs. He was very quiet. He just smoked one cigarette after another. Sometimes he would linger for a while. Most of the time he leaned against the car and silently.

"Does he have something to say to you?" Su Sier leaned against the window and also looked down.

"That's his problem." Ye Xuechen raised her head and looked at the mineral water in her hand.

"You..." Su Sier helplessly smiled and looked downstairs, "He seems to really love you."

Ye Xuechen pursed her lips and did not say anything.

"Really not going down? I heard that today is the fifth day. I can't let a general manager do this every day, right?" Su Sier smiled softly.

...

"Su Sier..."

"Huh?"

"Have you ever loved anyone?" Ye Xuechen suddenly looked up and asked her.

She was stunned and shook her head. "No. Love must be very tiring."

"Yeah, love is tiring." Ye Xuechen turned around and leaned against the wall. She looked at the corridor and said," I used to love him very much. Those memories were very sweet. It was so sweet that it made people's hearts ache. "

"Now." Su Sier said softly.

"I gave up. Really, I gave up a few years ago. Although it was hard. Just when I forgot, he appeared again. I was somewhat lost. "I often ask myself if I really gave up."

"Western Poison once said that the more you want to know if you've forgotten something, the more you'll realize that you remember him even more deeply." Su Sier said, "You just hid him deeply and not throw him away."

"I no longer have confidence."

"You treated him?" Su Sier saw Ye Xuechen gently wipe the corner of her eyes.

"No, I don't have confidence in me and I don't have the courage." Ye Xuechen smiled slightly with bitterness.

"Do you remember the Shiai?" Su Sier touched her. "As the spokesperson of the Shiai, how can you be so weak? You have to be brave. You are the representative."

Ye Xuechen looked at her slowly getting up and then said, "Su Sier, you are really a strange woman."

"Really? I thought I was a normal person." Su Sier drank some water to moisten her throat and smiled.

"Do you know why I am willing to come back and accept the endorsement?" Ye Xuechen blinked.

"Why?"

"Because my brother never asked me anything." Ye Xuechen looked at her with an incomparably deep gaze, "Su Sier, You are the same type of person as me and my brother. The goal that you set must be fulfilled. You are unwilling to admit defeat. So when my proud big brother asked me to come back with a testing tone, I was extremely surprised. To be able to make him like this, there must be someone behind him that he attached great importance to. I'm very curious about what kind of person my big brother values. "I agreed to come back."

Su Sier was silent. She knew who Ye Xuechen was talking about. Actually, she already knew Bai Mo's feelings for her. She just did not expose it.

"Su Sier, you protect yourself too much. You are so strong that it makes people pity you."

"Actually, I am not worthy of anyone's love. It is not worth it." She shook her head and sighed.

She really was not worth it. She guessed Moo Ling's feelings for Su Yi. That was why she lived in Moo Ling's house. She knew about Bai Mo's feelings, so she used him to get Ye Xuechen back. She knew about Wang Shuo's feelings. So he used Ye Xuechen to sign the contract. Now, she used Ye Xuechen and Wang Shuo's entanglement to let the media spread the news. She had allowed the Shiai to shine in the hearts of the people so that it could reach the level of publicity.

Who was worthy of loving such a woman? Even she did not love herself.

Love was such a tiring thing. If she did not love herself, how could she love someone else?