C16 Him Again

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Anne

10.12 am

Please, guys

I wanna meet both of you

Raja

10.29 am

*Seen*

Farah

10.45 am

*Seen*

Anne

11.03 am

I'm sorry for everything...

Don't just seen me, please...

I'm so sorry, really

Guys...

Anne tries pleading to them as she wants to meet them but they refuse to and think that it is not the right time to meet. No, no and no. Rigorously nay! They are afraid that she will harm them especially Raja. She pretty much got trauma but was heedful with what she saw and count on it. She thought if she, unfortunately, swallowed the nail. God, this is chilling. Only God knows what would happen. Behind Anne, she was in dilemma but when she saw her photos or face to face with her, her temper got the best of her, meanwhile, Anne thought at least Farah will talk to her but sadly no. Not her too. She is at a loss for words. Wants to sob. Wants to harm herself. Wants to ask for help. But people around her(online friends, cousins, ex-classmates and colleagues) did not perceive what she desired excluded her parents and siblings. "That's just temporary. Small problem. They'll come to you next week. Believe me" She wants to believe this but... "You really did that? What the???" A few did not even lend their ears while scrolling on their phones. "Just find other friends la. There's a lot out there. Don't pity them. You're too nice la" Harshly said by them social butterfly.

Ting! Ting! Ting! Ting! Ting!

Raja

12.12 am

Listen, b*tch!

Neither today nor tomorrow until we are ready to meet you

And I already told you yesterday, right?

Not to disturb us and this is not a good time to meet you

Just stop sending messages and spamming, murderer!

She already asked them for forgiveness yet they kind of despise her. It was not her doing at all. She was innocent. She had tried to apologise ever since Raja confronted her yesterday night when she was peacefully studying for an exam. Her parents and siblings were asleep so they did not know there was a confrontation in front of the house yesterday. She had no idea where to locate the proof. All these things that occurred made her somewhat disquietude and full of foreboding feelings. She was enervated of weeping in silence. Having to withhold those sentiments made her agonize living through perturbation each day, hiding them from others. No one gave her the attention she needs yet got toxic positivity words in lieu.

Not knowing what to do as blank as it is and she also seems to be pensive in her mind this morning. Not having any proof to show them also made her more miserable than she is now. She got no control over it as she nearly gives up. The moment Raja accused her and Farah did not back her up are such a terrible encounter she had. A severe one. They are the only ones who understand her. Feel fearful thinking how far distant they will become. Only they could comprehend and serve her quirky side. Thought the troubles are small and could solve them early but things behind them were concealed she did not know will become big. A teardrop rolling down her cheek, one by one, thinking why she is this weak in connection with any relationship not realising the tears wholly wetting her cheeks.

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She got two papers left and she was just finished her third paper at 5 o'clock in the evening. She walks out from the exam hall and leisurely heads to the parking lot. While walking, she rakes in her bag and brings out a car key before unlocking the door as well as twisting the key starting the engine. Needing a soundless place, she thought of where to release stress yet in a matter of seconds she found one and drives to a nearby lake where only certain people knows. Better for her that nobody is there at this time. It is eventide so she would put her mind at ease as nothing matters for her now. To deter from sobbing, she firmly concentrates on her driving and thinking about the lake instead.

Once she arrives, she wanders around in a circle following the jogging track from the entrance to back with approximate 1.7 kilometres for one round remotely looking at the beautiful flowers and little fountain of dust along the pathway from the parking lot to the middle path. There is a fish pond in the middle of the pathway on the right side and a lake with a render quite a long fountain on the left. Mesmerized by the beauty of the lake, she treads to a white bench near the pathway and blithely sits on it peering at the pulchritudinous lake with awe as the fountain water splash out on its place prettily. It is satisfying to watch. Whispering and spacing out is all she could do right now as time becomes slow alternately ticking the moment she thinks about the awful event and pass by really quick as well after she lost in her unanswered cloudy thoughts. The most important questions that keep replaying in the system as of today. But then, she slowly let them go.

Why my friendship turns out this way? ~

What's my fault? ~

When did they go wrong? ~

How do these happen? ~

Who's behind these? ~

Two hours have passed, it is nearly evenfall and crepuscule begin covering the wide sky. She strolls around one last time before pacing to the footpath in relief. Mug beaming in the greatest consolation. Mitt swaying like a happy kid. The distress already washed away after she use a ‘looking after your mental illness’ method. A few of eight ways did help her earlier. As she is walking, looking vacantly forward to the floor, she heard loads of catcalling all at once but disregards the distraction. She walks freely thinking they were catcalling anyone else but her. Three stupid men are leering at her from bottom to top, one thinking she is beyond exquisite because of her sexy lips, one fantasizing with her on the bed and the other one checking on her quite thick body. They fasten their pace till the one liking her lips reach ahead of her first. She decided to spin but catches a glimpse of the two men rear her stupidly ogling at her as she senses people steps behind. One of the two at the back flirtingly asks her. “Peeewiiiiiittttttt awek la. Sorang je ke tu?” She curses under her breath. Sh*t. Render to English, he is catcalling her and saying a woman, guys. You alone eh? In an unpleasant way. She did not reply and kept walking. The other two merely leering at her.

She supplicates hoping there will be someone or anyone around the lake, spesh where she is right now. Not having time for these deviants who had no things to do other than 'mouse-calling' her makes her facepalm internally. She wears a black and grey stripes XL long size jersey for a girl with 53 kilograms and 163 centimetres, a black 50 field Selendang hijab, grey straight cut slack jeans, a long white stocking match with a white and blue stripes ADIDAS sneakers(yikes!). What is wrong with all these, dudes? Hello, bruh? Where do these guys put their brains? They did not stop following her though getting close to her in lieu. She begins to open her steps feeling uneasy when the space between her and those degenerate men is decreasing while looking back and forth as they are getting closer and closer yet being apt, she does a bunk quite far until bumping into one tall jocular man while running out of puff as she is tired of sprinting. Her physique is unbalanced without her noticing falling her right to the ground. The man sees it thus grasping her arm as she almost falls on the concrete stone. She wants to thank him but in an abrupt motion, she feels a cool blow on her countenance racing towards who knows where. He seems to know her trouble but where the h*ck he wants to go?

She is too exhausted to face him. Thank goodness, he rescues her. He is the only stranger nearby. Abruptly, he shoves her into an artificial tiny cave that could fit a couple of four inside after about 13 minutes of racing. He gets into it at once and put his hands on her mouth even she did not say a thing. The breeze flowing over their ears gives a sign that the perverts are still far from them. She wants to push his hands to protest but he glares intensely at her but she did not find out yet. Finally, feeling the need to see his mug, she gazes at him. Slow-motion in action also he let go of his hands. Gasps are audible in both earlobes in terror discerning who he is. The man she hates the most, Ariif the menace batty. Argh! She knew it! His face! He teasingly shows his smirk which triggers her somehow. She grits her teeth in dissatisfaction appeasing her temper not wanting to lose her opportunity to hide from them.

Steps and commotion could be heard outside not long after. "F*ck! Where she go?!!" The one ogling her says. "She's dead if I found her. You’re gonna be mine pretty lips!” The lips lover guiltlessly tells. “She’s not far. I can feel it” The leader who was ahead of her just now replies. An ongoing hasten outside the cave could be taken in which both of them believe are them. The perverts are oblivious as they run straight could not see the cave as if it is a hidden place. Unbeknown to these two, one of the perverts knew they were hiding in the cave, showing a lopsided smile when he look briefly on his right knowing they were obscure but decided to play hide and seek instead and did not tell the other two. She let out a heavy heave as she is safe. For now.

Putting his hands on her slightly open mouth, he catches steps coming near them. She is startled wanting to pull his hands with a strong grip but he presses more deeply. "Wha- hmm umm hmm umm hmm umm hmm umm hmm umm..." The hands stay still on her mouth until it becomes a little sweaty. She could taste a tad of supplementary salt though. Yucks and awful! It made her belly churn. Just you wait, annoying! She says with her death glare. Meanwhile, his eyes travelling outside with ears focusing on any sound, he somewhat sure the three idiots are not near. Believing the steps were gone, she stomps on his feet but inadvertently pretty hard. Oh sh*t. It is not her intention to step on it that tough. She says expletive internally. Death coming on her way for sure. 'I'm done! Why did I do that? Ugh!'

"Kno-! You pinguid chunky! Bloody sh-" He explodes loosen the clutch on her mouth but turns silent after he discerns he pretty much emits a mouthful of oaths. His ribcage keeps moving to and fro as his respiration is loud. His exhaling seems to blow strongish to her exquisite face and her eyes got reflex every time he did that. She tells him to stop breathing heavily so he tries pacifying yet what Anne did made him a tad bemuse as he had not seen it was coming. He made her blood boil as he keeps teasing even made her triggered. Yeah, he deserved the stomp. They are entirely annoying. Does he have to do that? He could turn his countenance to another direction yet expel on her face. He sees her expression turns dark as she sends him a piercing gaze and she proceed to query what she has in mind. He shows his incensed face not wanting to lose and gives all his attention to her.

"Why did you put your hands on my mouth? Too late! They're already gone, insane!"

"I'm trying to save you, clever"

"Whatever, GENIUS! Listen you insane! I will never like you, nay! Just stay away from me! I don't care if you had a crush on me or not! Because I.NEVER.CARE!"

“Oh-oh. Yo- ey!”

She retorts spitting at him with go berserk written on her face. She mentions his best friend's name to make him go off the deep end after that. It is a successful action she thought by making a comparison between him and his beneficent best friend, Khairi. The fact of the matter, the latter used to be her crush since the first day she saw him helping a weak and old grandmother that nearly fell and piggybacked her to the nearest shelter. He then fed her two slices of bread as she somewhat seems like she was hungry. But it was 5 months ago. She just saw it from afar and that was what at least she thought it was. He is not on her list anymore. But she still likes him only a bit for being such congenial. And of course, she did not tell this man. He only knew she likes Khairi and he does not need to know why. "BLOODY *UCK! I WILL MAKE SURE YOU LIKE ME BACK! EVEN YOU HATE ME! I.WILL.NEVER.LET.ANY.MAN.NEAR.YOU!" He taunts with a fit to be tied expression and face full of crimson red.

“Allahuakbar, how many times do I have to tell you? I don't like you. I like a man who knows action speaks louder than words and apprehend an introvert like me. You aren't. Don’t waste your time on me. And I’m sorry for comparing you with Khairi, okay” She gently says after soothing herself from raising her voice again and sweating as she stays in the cave for too long. His outburst is overpowering and frenzied every second. It is out of control. Feeling chagrin, he pins her against the wall. She is choking and flustered with his actions and stumbles bumping her head on the concrete wall by accident. He argues back with his profound darkening gaze and his grip is pretty much harder than how he pulled her earlier. Was he possessed? Her breathing becomes short discerning at their close proximity. "Let me go! You are not supposed to touch my hands! This is sexual assault!" She growls albeit feeling appal.

“I have to, exquisite. Sorry not sorry” He replies with an innocent expression. “You are not satan, right? You know this won’t change anything. Lust could kill the future. Your future. My future” She tells to appease him. “I’m like satan since born. You...” He teases coming closer to her mug with only a 9 centimetres gap. “I don't like seeing you close with any men. Why do you have so many secret admirers?” He intently stares but she cannot even move anymore averting her peepers anywhere but him and tries gathering her strength to push and punch(if possible) him later. “Meh, jealous for what?” She scoffs. “You wanna try?” He jerks forward all but skin in contact. She promptly closes her eyeballs afraid things she imagines will happen. He titters in satisfaction yet she takes the opportunity pulling his hand hardly until there is a space for her to escape. Being bigger and much stronger than her, the first attempt failed as she just could pull her hands slightly out of his grasp. He knows this will be one of her actions to escape thus he pulls her hands up more on the same level as his large sights. She forestalls turning her face to the left side unsettling with the propinquity. Soon, she got an idea to slyly manipulate him with a moderate tone as she did not want him to do anything terrible further or he will regret it later. Will he?

"I know you are kind and I believe you are a valuable person like a treasure. You are much more than what you think. Believe me, horrible things always got ramifications. I hope I can caress your hair to ease your mind"

"Huh? All of a sudden? Uh-uh, I almost give in but no. I had my own reasons for doing this"

"And why is that?"

"Nay, not gonna tell you, tiger. You're quite strong though. By the way, nice try"

"Aargh! What do you want, huh? I’m tired"

"For your information, my name is Ariif. Double i just to let you know"

'Why his name is familiar? But yeah there is many Arif in this country and who cares he got double i or not'

"Whatever. I ain't interested with your introduction"

Black night is covering the fullness of white evening with light clouds turning dark grey, naturally replacing sunset fulfilling its cycle. As much she wants to keep fighting with him, she cannot lose her parents too. She is supposed to be at home right now not wanting to make her parents in madness paroxysm as they are no longer young. Health is imperative as money. It was her family motto she hold up to this day. Coming home late is an unpleasant occasion where the sweetness of a female becomes sullen bland and bitter. A dusk-to-dawn curfew. Typical culture. The practices and beliefs of the ancients will be till the bitter end. Remarkably the moment you bring an unknown man to your house without reasonable nous was ceaselessly forbidden. Haram. Some strict doings did help her since birth. But if she has to, positively only for emergency matters.

With one last push(much tougher), she succeeds and storms hurriedly sprinting as fast as possible to her Axia baby before she collides with the perverts once again. She leaves him alone without a single glance knowing he is familiar with the place and confidences he could survive from those deviants. He is the first one who found her anyway. But now, she is anxious because she tends to forget where she put her car. She is not good with geography spesh anything pertained to place and map. Please, flashback to where I passed by earlier. She thought. Her brain begin processing places she went one by one. It is a pressure system yet she keeps replaying them until slightly found the answer. Thank Allah, she remembers where she parks her car after some minutes of recollecting her memories. “There it is. But why do I have to roam this far? Bruh” She takes the chance to complain.

“Wait, Anne! Wait!” A croaky voice yells out of the blue telling her to cease. What the who?!!