C5 No sugar coating

Kristen's Point of View

I saw the evident look of shock painted all over her face. She looked like a bleached bed sheet, but I was not going to allow her to give in to her fear.

“You have to abort it…” I repeated again the words also tore at me too, after all the child was also mine but I could not have a child with somebody that was as low as a maid.

Such a thing was equivalent to tainting my bloodline. It was not going to be beneficial to either of us, and there was also another reason why I couldn't allow it.

“... I already have another woman in my life,” I told her, ripping off the band-aid one after the other without any hesitation. It wasn't going to do her any good now to live in a lie.

She was so speechless and shocked that she couldn't say anything and I wouldn't give her the chance to say anything because then she would probably change her mind.

I had started seeing a new woman recently and while there were no sparks in our relationship she wasn't somebody that I would be ashamed of in public unlike Iris if news of this came out it would be so humiliating to me I wouldn't be able to step out for weeks.

“if you need money, then I can pay you any amount you won't even need to work as a maid anymore. You will live a comfortable life,”

I assured her, and her resistance began to die away. She told me that she was afraid, and I assured her that everything would move on smoothly and that there was no need for us to suffer over the mistake of one silly night.

That night I was feeling ridiculously desperate thinking about my ex bride so badly that I wanted to feel like somebody again so when I saw her in my bedroom for some reason the desires that had been dying off for some time were sparked back and I wanted to know if anybody would want me.

Thinking about all of that, there was no reason to think that I was in my right senses at that moment.

“So when are we going to have an abortion?”

I was so relieved that she gave in, at least this could be something that we could put in our past and we wouldn't have to remember anymore after sometimes it would be nothing more than an unpleasant memory pushed aside to the corner.

“It has to be tonight.”

I said to her that the sooner that we were done with this, the sooner we could move one with our lives.

She was on board, so I told her not to worry about anything. I would arrange the clinic and the appointment for the abortion, I assured her that everything would be done quickly and as soon as possible.

Of course I had to be there to make sure that everything turned out smoothly but I couldn't be associated with such a thing so it would have to be in a distant clinic, somewhere where I would not be easily recognized and traced to Iris.

And when nights finally came everything had been arranged satisfactorily but my heart was still racing deep down inside I felt guilty about killing our child but such a child couldn't come into the world he or she would just be subjected to suffering and pain from the moment of birth.

“do I really have to do this?”

Iris asked me as we were in the waiting room. The entire clinic had this rather dreary look about it, and the structure appeared as if it was about to collapse at any moment.

But it's hard to meet all of the other needed requirements and that was why I would have to put up with some inconveniences once again I went into convincing Iris why this couldn't work after all what she was expecting to do after the child was born.

“Maybe I can raise the child alone by myself. Nobody will have to know that you are the father,”

She said, and I quickly refused.

“Even as the pregnancy advances, everybody will immediately know that you have been impregnated by an alpha wolf…the signs will be more prominent and stronger. There is no way of hiding it,”

I wish there was some other way though as much as I tried to be strong about all of this I could feel my hands shaking a bit and I had to balance them to keep them still until the doctor came and he said that he was ready for her.

She looked at me for a moment before following the doctor, and after about an hour or so, the doctor came out with her.

Everything had been done successfully. I was so relieved at that moment, but that was until blood started to dribble from her private area, and then she would have collapsed to the ground if I had not grabbed her. Immediately, she was rushed to more intensive care, and my heart was pounding with regret and shame.

I had actually arranged for my baby to be killed.

There was no sugar coating it at all. That was exactly what I had it on, and now not only was the baby going to die but the mother too. How could I have been so stupid?

I claimed that I was doing this for the two of us, but was it really just for myself just to save my image?

Just then, the doctor came out, and I approached him almost aggressively.

“Doctor, tell me something about what's happened to her?”

I said my heart practically in my throat at that moment, and the doctor looked at me with a forlorn expression written all over his face.

“Sir…I don't think you'll be happy with what you're about to hear now..”