C7 The Alpha's Mate

Iris pov

I took one last look at the hospital before I ducked into the cab that would take me away. I've spent about 3 days here recovering. The doctor advised me to stay even longer unfortunately because of something that happened recently that was impossible.

As time passed, the pain I felt from the failed abortion came down substantially. However, the ache I felt in my heart grew worse.

I rubbed my belly from time to time, saying a silent apology to my unborn child. I was bringing this innocent creature into this world now with only nothing but the clothes on my back and with the burden of the lie that I had told its father.

It would have been easier if he was as cold and dismissive as he had been when I was pregnant, then lying to him would have been easier but that evening when I was still rolling in pain he showed up and keeping a straight face I spoke with him.

Even though I was breaking down inside both physically and emotionally, I had to keep up the act.

He walked in, and immediately, I caught my breath. Earlier, the doctor had asked me if he could come to see me, thinking that my opinion meant nothing at all. I just shrugged and told him that he could let him in.

When has Alpha Kristian ever cared about how I felt or thought?

The air was so thick with this tense energy that a knife would have as much difficulty cutting through It as a thick wad of butter.

"The doctor said that you wanted to see me," I finally broke his silence that had been stretching up to a minute with two of us avoiding each other's gaze.

I have been looking at the roof, and I said that to him, and he took a step closer.

"Yes," that was all he said to assure me that he really wished to see me, then the silence was about to swallow us up again when he said.

" …he elso told me what happened concerning the bab-"

" Isn't this what you wanted?"

I had told myself that I will be composed when he stepped in; that I wouldn't allow a single shot of a emotion to break through my mask that I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing that he had destroyed me.

That the risk of killing our child had almost ended my own life but just like a wound that had been freshly slashed with a blade all my emotions came pouring out the only thing I was able to keep back was the fact that the baby was still alive.

Now, that was something that I would keep locked in my heart no matter what he said to me. I pulled out everything else, though. When I was only done, I was breathing my entire body falling and rising with every movement I made, and then I realised that sweat was dripping down my body as I looked at him.

He was completely silent, I had expected half knowing that he would slap me halfway through my rambling.

But surprisingly enough, he allowed me to finish until I was basically breathless.

"Aren't you going to say anything?"I said poking the hornet's nest.

Maybe I wanted him to hit me

Maybe I wanted to be hurt so much more physically so that I wouldn't be so hurt emotionally.

The more the pain from the abortion was fading away, my mind was replaced with the aching I felt in my chest that was threatening to rip out my heart at any moment.

"You are right," he said that the last thing I expected to escape out of his lips and I felt like a balloon that has just been punctured out of the blue feeling all the air leaving my chest as I watched him apologize I never thought that the high and mighty alpha will ever bring himself down to an apology especially to somebody like me who was a nobody in his eye

" You are right, I am a scum for what I did to you."

He came closer to me as I wanted to scream at him from the top of my voice, telling him to stay away as much as he could but the words got choked up in my throat and none of them escaped instead tears began to run down seriously down my cheek.

"I was not able to control my lust, and my mind was not working properly because of the heartbreak I just went through …but you didn't deserve to suffer because of all of that,"

he chuckled, but it wasn't a normal one it was deeply buried in bitterness, and there was no denying it.

"But now the baby is already dead,"

it took every single fibre of self-control that was still left inside of my body not to scream in his face that the baby was still alive and growing inside of me, but instead of doing that I have already locked these eyes and looked up the floor neither denying or confirming this, I just allowed him to believe what he needed to.

The only reason why he was regretting all of this was because he thought that the baby was already dead, and I had risked my life getting it done, but if I admitted to him.

if I pulled out my heart and told him that the abortion was not a success, he would squeeze it till it exploded.

All of this regret will disappear, and I am seriously doubting that it will be replaced with relief that the baby had survived.

"I'll try to compensate you," he said as our awkward conversation continued with the both of us looking at any other direction in the room other than each other.

"... Just tell me any amount that you need to start a new life, I'll make it available for you,"

I wiped away the tears from the corner of my eyes as I sniffled he was basically telling me to get out of his sight, slapping just enough money on my face to make it happen.

"Don't worry, I don't need your money. Just pay me what I have worked for,"

His voice suddenly became hard

"...that will not be enoug-"

"it is enough for me," I sighed, cutting into his words. I might have not heard a lot growing up, but the last thing that I was planning to do was the charity case to a man who was just trying to clear off his conscience not that he truly felt bad about what had happened.

"If you change your mind, the offer is still open,"he said after a while, and then I heard his footsteps announcing that he was about to leave all of a sudden.

I called him before I could even think of why my voice just escaped me before I realized it and it was his name that rang out just then our eyes met and I stared into his own they looked bleak of any emotion and as he spoke I realized just how montouse his voice sounded

"What is it?

He asked me and I felt my fingers going over to my stomach I needed to tell him the truth the doctor's words came to my mind ran around about three marathons in my head in less than 3 seconds and then finally when my lips fell open it was just to say;

"Make sure you close the door properly when you leave," and that was it he was gone, and I rested back feeling empty inside.

The door clicking shut announced his exit, possibly not just from this hospital but from my life.

why did he have to be like that, I ask myself as I buried my face into my pillow? I wish that he had been the same as he had always been before I wish he had been just as cruel as the moment he told me to abort the baby that he regretted getting me pregnant that would have been better.

All of my anger would have felt so much more justified and the decision that I was making to hide the baby, but instead, he had walking in here with his face hanging and his voice low and dreary.

but since my anger was still taking control of me I had still lashed at him with my tongue, I had hoped the downside that this will be enough to influence him to bring out that monster that had been tormenting me for so long but he had been so calm but now that he was gone and I was rethinking everything I said I felt so incredibly foolish.

why had I blurted out everything like that, basically stripping all of my insecurities and pain in front of him when he couldn't even care anyway?

I just made a fool of myself, and there was no questioning it

I was still in the hospital trying to recover when I got another unexpected visit, and this time, it was from a more unlikely visitor. It was Shantel. Yes, I was not already aware that the moment she stepped in, she swept her eyes across me like somebody looking at a heap of trash and said in a cocky manner.

"I'm Shantel, the Alpha's mate,"

She said with her nose in the air, looking down at me. She looks beautiful and sophisticated, the kind of person that the alpha would be proud to call his mate, and everybody would look to be a respectable Luna

Just from one look at her, I was reminded that she was everything that I was not that she was a glaring personification of everything that I lacked.

looking at her made me feel like crawling under the bed sheets and just hiding myself there but fortunately for me the visit was not long she even went out of her way to point out that nobody knew about this visit that she didn't want to be associated with someone like me

"So why did you come here?" I asked her tensley, waiting for her answer, and she responded after a while, sweeping her eyes across the entire room as if her response was hidden behind one of the medical devices that adorned the room.

"I'm sure that my mate is paying for all of it, isn't he?"she said allowing her fingers to follow the same pattern that her eyes just did and her voice sounded just as contempt in as it did the moment she stepped in and spoke to me for the first time.

I didn't respond, but my eyes probably betrayed me enough

".... Can I give you a good piece of advice?"she said planting her hands on her hips I look like the drip in my hand tempted to just pull it out instead of just hearing this piece of advice she had to give me but unble to do that I was sentenced to listen to what she will say next

"Even if I wasn't in the picture, Kristian would rather stay mateless for the rest of his life to be with someone like you,"

I knew this already it was a truth that I hadn't arrived in my heart, but every time someone pointed it out like this, it hurt differently.

" I know," I said emotionally.

"Good, then I can see that you are not completely stupid,"

She said to me.

"... now back to your advice I'm not the kind of woman that likes getting my hands messy but that doesn't mean I'm afraid of doing it," her voice was becoming less contemptuous and more aggressive.

" I am determined to protect what is mine and any obstacle in my way no matter how insignificant and useless it is…" she said and then she ran her angry crossed eyes on me so I can fully grab the message from what she was talking about.

"I'll not hesitate to get rid of it,"