C1 my love

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why It's always me who left alone at the end.? why no one loves me.!! first my mother left me on this cruel world and my father abandoned me because he has family with another woman then she..... whom i love with my whole heartedly, why she left me without words.? why she did that to me.!!

what is this pain.!! why it's so hurting me.!!! why I can't be happy like I used to be, my childhood was so beautiful but then it ruined.

My father had affair with another woman when my mother knew that she fight for her rights but my father abuse her, dad kicked us out from our house, my mom was really strong woman but she left this world when I was 14 years old, she couldn't fight with her weak heart anymore.

My mom used to said me that I have to respect women and be kind person. when I was 9 years old.

"my kookie, my baby ...listen to mom please"

"yes mom...!!"

"Baby I know you want to be strong boy but don't ever hurt anyone specially any girl or women.. they're kind soul baby..... promise mom that you'll not do any bad things that make you regret later.!! save them who's having any kind of problem .."

"yes mom but not all girls are kind look at that evil woman who get kicked us out from our own house..I won't leave them.. how dare they-"

"no..no my baby, Don't ever swear, it's ok .. let them be, you have big heart right baby?? (I nodded) and I wish my kook will have beautiful heart girl one day, who will love you ..and baby please love her with wholeheartedly ok.!! I'll always wish your best baby."

I got shy and nodded.

I didn't know why my mom have to be that kind...other hand my dad who's just enjoy hurting Other's, he never love us But my mom, she was an angle who loved me, protected me but unfortunately she had to leave me. I missed her...

I was in mess, I had no-one left, but I got some dudes on dark alley who helped me and now I work with them.

3 years ago I got my first love, I knew mom sent her to me from heaven, but she left me 1 years ago without any reason, not even words... I search for her but no-where to be found. 2 months ago I saw her with some guy, I was happy and going to approach her but they kissed eachother Infront of me... heartbroken.!! yes...so fucking much.

I used drug to forget her, it's working when I'm on effect of drug but pain was there always I can just feel it.

do you know, what's worst part being heart broken.?? she called me to meet suddenly....how could she do that to me.!!! when I saw her kissed guy other than me it hurts, and I came to know that she's married with that guy who's not me obviously.. how dare she did that to me..?? am I Nothing to her.?? she cheated on me, a pain I feel right on my heart... I love her so much but it doesn't matter I'll follow her anymore ...do I.??

No...!!

she cheated on me.!