C2 why me?

shit...shit...shit...!!

what's wrong with me.?? even I told myself thousand times I'll not met her but here I'm waiting for her like crazy for hour, at our favourite cafe.

I'll just see her, an yes that's it, she cheated on me ...I won't give her any chance yes, I'll not.

10 minutes later she came to my view, I don't know how much I try to hide my happiness it can clearly see on my face how happy I'm seeing her Infront of me again. 'but no jungkook she cheated on you. don't fall for her' I said to myself and make straight face.

"Why do you want to see me? you supposed to be with your beloved husband."

"I...I'm sorry" she shutter and looked down.

"Sorry isn't gonna change anything that has happened between us, you left me without any single word and now you want to see me??...I was your friend and lover for long but how could you do that to me Lisa.!! how could you..."

Lisa started to cry her face was pale and her lips was dry, I want to hugged her so bad but I held it, she didn't even try to deny that she got herself new man, am I not enough for her.??

"ma-ma!!! why are you crying??"

I didn't saw that there's a little girl hiding behind Lisa until she spoke, but wait ...did she just called Lisa as her mother???

"N-nothing baby." Lisa wiped her tears and looked at me, I show her my confused look. "Mama can we go home now..I'm tired." little girl started to pulled Lisa's hand.

"give mama a minute, mama need to talk to uncle, go play ground for a while sweetie." little girl went running away to play ..

"you have a lovely daughter ...that guy is a lucky to have a family, it's your step daughter.?? you married with man who already have daughter, seriously.??" Lisa shook her head making me confused "No..s-she is my daughter" the hell ..how came Lisa have daughter before marriage.?? and I didn't know at all.!! she just got married year ago and have 5 or 6 years old daughter.??

"she's mine."

"But you didn't tell me before you got into relationship with me.?? why you did this to me?? whose child is she.?" should I cry Infront of her that she lied to me and have relationship with me even she already have daughter with someone else.?

"No jungkook, she's only my daughter... I didn't lied to you but unfortunately I did ..."

"Still you have another man Lisa, you even cheated on me and lied to me, I don't have anything to said to you now and I don't need your explanation." she looked down and cry harder, I don't know why I'm here to listen her bullshit, so I try to walk away but she grabbed my wrist making me stop "Let me go, I don't know why I even come here to listen your bullshit-"

"I got raped." she said closing her eyes as I widen my eyes.

"what.??"

"When I was 13 years old, I got raped by 2 or 3 guys when I'm returning home from school."

speechless....

"I got pregnant by those rapiers and gave birth to child, when I was 14 but my family hide it all because they were afraid with society judgement look, they even tried to aborted but I fight with them to keep her .. after I gave birth my family sent her to orphan house, I couldn't stop them ... my family warned me to not tell anyone they don't want that society kick us out and ruined our family reputation my step dad love his reputation but I always went to met my baby there at orphan house and spend my times with her, even I got raped by those evil person, kook..., that baby is innocent soul, it's not her fault, it's those monsters fault." she cried harder, I don't know what to feel.!!

"I left you without any words because my family fixed my marriage to another guy, my dad's friend it's for our company, I refused but they tortured me and dad said he'll hurt my baby, so I need to obey them and left you, i know I cheated on you unfortunately that's why I couldn't face you ... it has been years since everything became mess .... s-she wants to live with me she would cry every night asking for me but I can't be with her, I don't want anyone to hurt her .. what can I do.!!"

She took shaky breath.

"I...i can't tell my baby that her mother got raped and gave birth to her and even can't live with her because no one will accept her and she can't even have happy life living with me .. everyone will hurt her and hate her and I don't want that.." Lisa couldn't stop crying and I feel very bad for her ...

"I'm sorry to hear that but that has nothing to do with me.."

yes, I'm cruel because I was heartbroken...she should told be before but after she got married with another guy what do you expect me to do.?? so I was about to leave again but Lisa hold my hand again while crying and said.

"I'M DYING KOOK.... I diagnosised cancer, if I'm gone who's gonna look after my baby...!!"

what the heck with bullshit.?? it's hurting me didn't she know that.?

"I'm sorry Lisa but I can't help you, now let me go!!" I know I'm being jerk but it's not my fault, I got heartbroken whom I love and now she suddenly wants my help.!!

"Please...kook, not for me but for my daughter..."

why would i.?? her daughter is not my responsibility right.???

"why don't you asked for your beloved husband.?? don't make me suffer more Lisa, you already make my life living hell.." I jerk my hand and she knell down making me frustrated.

"No, as I said jungkook... they'll hurt her, I can't trust them ...I only have you, I trusted you jungkook please, please help me.." did she really trust on me.?

"If you ever trust me, you'll never lied to me and told me truth before getting into relationship with me and not to mention that you broke me and got married with another man, so why you expect me to raise your daughter .. why you just don't keep her at orphan house like before huh..!! do you really want me to suffer that much.??"

I shouted at her face, I felt bad but I was burning, what's with that crab that she trusted me and still lied to me.!!.

"please...., she's little and can't live there without me, please kook." she joined her both hands with teary eyes.