C3 Chapter 3

ENTOURAGE:

A group of people surrounding an important person or persons… like the bride and groom in a wedding.

I met up with my friends. I could tell that they were all getting bored with me. I whined about the usual things. Like how I had known Bryan since I was in college and we had been friends first before we dated and how I’ve known Geena since we were little and never in my wildest dreams had I imagined that she would betray me like she did.

Dannie Jones, my gay best friend, became the most impatient of my group. He had listened to me enough, I guess.

John Green, my guy best friend, was the angriest at Bryan for what he did to me.

Nicole was the most sympathetic for my feelings.

“I wonder how he is now,” I asked.

“Oh, for crying out loud!” Dannie muttered. “Ash, please! Don’t do this! You’re beautiful, you’re smart! You have your whole life ahead of you!”

“No, I don’t! I’ll be thirty in a few months!”

“You’ll be thirty in twenty-three months.” John muttered. “That’s plenty of time to score a guy who is a lot better than Bryan!”

“But we’ve been together for two years! Do you know how much work that took?”

“A lot! Particularly since you have been withholding sex!” Dannie said brutally.

“But what is wrong with… no sex before marriage?”

“Nothing! Only that you open him up to readily available sluts within a mile proximity,” John said.

“Look, Ash, if he couldn’t wait, then he isn’t the guy.” Nicole said. “And if he really did love you, he wouldn’t have the nerve to sleep with Geena. If he had an inch of decency in his body, he would have remembered that Geena is your cousin!”

“Relationships are not important to a horny guy,” John butted in.

“Apparently!” I rolled my eyes.

“So, now what are you going to do with your life?”

I shrugged. “Drink it away?” I asked sarcastically and took another gulp of my beer.

“Look at you, Ash! How can a gorgeous girl who’s sweet and smart waste her life over a loser like Bryan? I mean, no offense, but he’s not nearly that hot!” Dannie said in a frustrated voice.

“And he’s short. What is he? Like five feet tall?” John chuckled.

“Hey! He’s five feet six!” I said defensively. “And his chocolate eyes are dreamy.”

“His eyes are brown! As plain as brown could be!” Dannie argued.

“I just… couldn’t think of a reason for him to do that to me,” I heaved another frustrated sigh.

John rolled his eyes. “I can. But you’re not going to like it…”

“Sex?” I asked him. “He only needed to wait three more months… after we’re married.”

“Well, apparently, he can’t wait nine months. Haven’t they been sleeping with each other for a good six months already before you even found out about them?” Dannie asked.

“For all you know, Ash, he could have proposed to you because he wanted to get you to bed,” John suggested.

“Not with the size of the ring that he gave me!” I said. Bryan gave me a two-carat diamond ring. It cost a fortune. He wouldn’t splurge on that if he was only after the sex, would he?

“Speaking of the ring, where is it?” Dannie asked.

“In my jewelry box,” I replied.

“Hmmm… you should have returned that weeks ago,” John said.

“Hell no!” Dannie argued. “Don’t return it! Pawn it!”

“No! I’m not going to pawn that ring!”

“And why not? You want to hold on to it and reminisce about the good times you spent together whenever you look at it?” Nicole asked in an irritated tone.

“We did have some good times.”

“This is not the time to be thinking about the good times. That’s a no brainer. Right now, for you to get over him, you have to think about every single annoying thing about him and every single irritating thing that he has ever done to you,” Nicole said.

“True. Right now, you have to think of him as a monster. He has no heart. He has no conscience,” Nicole said. “This thing that you are in, he brought this upon you. Everything that he was before you broke up with him, was nothing. That’s not the person that he is now!”

“You need a makeover. Find a hobby. Get a gym membership. Learn to play the guitar.”

“Or you can always find a job,” John suggested.

“I hope you have been saving money.”

I sighed. “Of course. But... unfortunately, I used some of it to pay the florist.”

“I hope you had the guts to ask for a refund from them,” Nicole said.

I shook my head. “I gave all the receipts to Bryan when we broke up. I wanted him to refund all those payments so that he’ll know how difficult it was for me to make those arrangements while he was humping my maid of honor!”

“So, let me get this thing straight,” John said. “If he was able to refund the money you paid the florist, it means… he cheated on you… and you paid him to do it?”

“Shut up, John,” I told him, although I understood the irony he was aiming at.

“That settles it then! You have to pawn the ring,” Dannie said. “With the size of that thing, you can pay for your own wedding.”

I snorted. “That is, if I still want to get married. I think I completely lost faith in love. If I see or come to another wedding in my life, I think I’ll hang myself! I don’t believe in weddings anymore.”

“Really? Then why do you still believe in engagement rings?” John asked.

“Why don’t you want to pawn it for its worth? If you don’t want to use the money for your future wedding, then use it as a down payment for your own apartment,” Dannie suggested. “That could be at least ten grand. You’ll have a long way to go with that! And trust me, hon, you deserve it.”

“I wish you would display the same angst about Bryan as you do about weddings and happily-ever-afters,” Nicole said. “If only you would be as optimistic about getting over Bryan as you were about the doom of the weddings of the couples we were handling.”