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An Shengmei was silent. The school was too biased, and the elite class was different. Living in such a good living condition, the class could only stay in a normal school dormitory. They didn't even have an air-conditioner or electric fan, let alone a washing machine.

An Shengmei turned around and felt unbalanced. She felt that Tan Yizhe was enjoying this treatment and she didn't have one. She felt that she was inferior to him and said depressingly, "Forget it, I'll go to the dorm."

Tan Yizhe asked for a while, then the two separated in front of the girl's dormitory. The next morning, when Tan Yizhe saw An Shengmei, he guessed that An Shengmei had entered No.1 Middle School. The two of them ate lunch together, and Tan Yizhe told An Shengmei to grab a good seat.

After a long while, Tan Yizhe finally came back. After putting down the two bowls, he smiled and said: "I've been scalded."

An Shengmei said, "Are you alright?"

Tan Yizhe said, "It's fine."

That feeling appeared in An Shengmei's heart again, that fake smile. She felt that Tan Yizhe was making An Shengmei feel guilty on purpose, making her feel inferior.

In front of Tan Yizhe, An Shengmei couldn't finish her meal due to her attention to her image and the thoughts she had a moment ago. An Shengmei said she was full and they walked out of the cafeteria.

On the way, Tan Yizhe smiled and said, "Basically, everyone who knows me knows you."

An Shengmei smiled. "Why?"

"Your husband is quite famous in school," Tan Yizhe said.

An Shengmei replied with a bitter tone.

After the results came out, all the school leaders contacted Tan Yizhe. The conditions for the schools to open up were all very good, especially since B had learned the most money. It was Tan Yizhe's parents' arrangement that made Tan Yizhe transfer to another school a few days before the first day of September. Tan Yizhe's parents wanted the money.

Tan Yizhe's family wasn't that rich, and B High School wasn't bad either, although it wasn't as good as A Zhong. An Shengmei was angry at Tan Yizhe's parents for not thinking for their children's future, but there was nothing she could do.

This matter was still not notified to An Shengmei, but before he left, Tan Yizhe sent someone to give An Shengmei a photo of Tan Yizhe with a few words on the back: If you want to wait for me, then please wait for two years. In two years, I will definitely come back; if you don't want to wait for me, then forget about me and wish you happiness.

No matter how hard An Shengmei tried, she couldn't catch up with Tan Yizhe. An Shengmei's self-esteem became heavier and heavier, and this was the first time An Shengmei felt like this. It was the first time that a boy made An Shengmei feel that she wasn't good enough and that she wasn't good enough.

An Shengmei knew that Tan Yizhe had always felt that Tan Yizhe had paid more than An Shengmei, but Tan Yizhe had never thought about how much An Shengmei had paid, nor did Tan Yizhe ever know about the hardships that An Shengmei would never speak of. Tan Yizhe only hinted at how much An Shengmei had done over and over again, telling An Shengmei how much Tan Yizhe loved An Shengmei, while Tan Yizhe also liked to do things that would let An Shengmei know about himself …

Actually, An Shengmei had wanted to tell Tan Yizhe that love wasn't like this a long time ago. Actually, An Shengmei had already wanted to tell Tan Yizhe that his way of doing things made An Shengmei feel disgusted.

Those intentional, those final outbursts, perhaps it really was love, to prove it in the most extreme way, or maybe it was just possession, unwillingness, unwillingness to be manipulated, unwillingness to be unable to own, and then being thwarted. Or maybe it was just a desire to love, to be imposed on and out of it, to be on the edge of abandonment and acquisition, to stand at the highest point of morality, to mark one's sacrifice and greatness.

Perhaps An Shengmei would slowly forget that there was once a person who said that he loved An Shengmei very much, but used the most extreme words to hurt An Shengmei. An Shengmei suddenly realized that when Tan Yizhe kissed An Shengmei that day, An Shengmei had admitted with her calm heart and closed eyes that it was love without any ripples.

Even so, An Shengmei still said that she would wait for Tan Yizhe. An Shengmei had no choice.

An Shengmei ate alone, went back to her room by herself, and carried water by herself. Thinking back to her friends from junior high school, the boys who had a crush on An Shengmei and secretly treated her well, were all gone, leaving An Shengmei alone in this place.

When she thought of how she abandoned her best friend to let her go back to her room on a date with Tan Yizhe, how An Shengmei went to a different school with her after the middle school exam, how she finally called An Shengmei and got hung up on her because she didn't want to disturb her time with Tan Yizhe, how she abandoned everything in the end to come here, and how cruel she was to her best friend, An Shengmei wanted to cry bitterly.

Every day, Lili would go to a corner of the fifth floor of the school building and curl up in a ball while hugging herself and running away in pain. But no one would give her a toilet paper, no one would comfort Lili, and no one would be able to stay by her side silently without saying anything. Now Lili knew that love was never worth friendship or kinship.

And Tan Yizhe would never know this.

Gu Qingyan also filled in the A on the day he volunteered, but changed to other schools the next day. He said he didn't want to see An Shengmei and Tan Yizhe happy together, and he didn't want to be a third party character.

When she was alone, An Shengmei would sometimes chat with Gu Qingyan or write homework. Tan Yizhe came back from B High School once during the military training. Coincidentally, there was something that happened to An Shengmei, so Tan Yizhe went back without finding her, leaving behind a pleasant surprise.

A few students asked An Shengmei to stay after the evening self-study, saying that Tan Yizhe left behind a gift. When there were only An Shengmei and a few others left in the classroom, they took out a gift. It was 11 roses, bright and glistening.

An Shengmei was slightly surprised. This was the first time she had received a rose. She had a vague unfathomable feeling, but at the same time, she felt a little sad in her excitement. An Shengmei carried the flowers back to the dormitory. Along the way, there were many people pointing at her with envious expressions. When they reached the dorm, someone immediately ran over to look at An Shengmei's flowers and asked who gave them to them. An Shengmei proudly said that it was from her boyfriend.

On the day that the military training ended, An Shengmei asked for a sick leave to attend the closing ceremony. Halfway through, she heard a classmate of Tan Yizhe's junior high school say that Tan Yizhe had come back to the A grade school. It was a girl, and she said that Tan Yizhe had sent her a message. An Shengmei was stunned. Tan Yizhe did not contact An Shengmei.

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