C15 Frightened Dream

We are immersed in the infinite gentleness, the infinite love, the snow is still flying all over the sky, like the catkins in the spring sun, gently flying with the wind, the sun in our hearts is gently warming us, the green willow branches gently floating around us, my lover's skirt fluttering around me, like a butterfly dancing in the white flowers...

"I love you, Tongxin, I really love you, in my heart, I can't leave you for even a moment, Tongxin, you don't know how you occupy my heart." The lover's hand in my palm warmed my heart, igniting my desire, I believe that love is so pure, love really won't be burned to ashes by the desire of the body!

"You still believe in that old fairy tale? Brother Yukun "Zhu Tong laughed in his heart and said," That fairy tale seems to have turned into the sunset. But, has my prince grown up yet? "

"What do you think? Tongxin, he isn't riding a white horse, but in his heart there is a white horse that can fly. That horse is galloping in his heart, looking forward to the distant dream, but he is still stepping on that pure, snow-like world … " I looked at my lover, she was as beautiful as a fairy from a mythical world, her long skirt fluttered, her hair flew, her cheeks bloomed, her smile was as fragrant as wine, she had already drunk me, drunk on the world … "Tongxin, the world's most wonderful garden has opened its doors, has my princess opened her heart?"

"Who is your princess? Yu Kun, that heart of yours is the world within your embrace. It has never allowed you to take even half a step away from it …" Before her lover could finish speaking, the white world had already turned into a world of floating red clouds. This white world had already been dyed in crimson gauze …

"That princess is you, you, Tongxin, you, you are the sun in my heart, the moon in my heart, the resplendent stars in my dream, the distant mountains that are gentle when I wake up, you will never leave my heart …" I pulled her to me again and kissed her lightly on the cheek.

"Ah! Yukun, you are, you are. I am just an ethereal wisp of smoke in this world. Without your light, my heart is only filled with darkness …"

"I know, I know, Tongxin, love in the lover's world, love in the lover's world, love in the world, the heart transforming into sunlight, wind and rain, transforming into endless happiness …"

The snowflakes in the sky were still gently flying about. The world was still pure white. In the distance, there were misty red clouds …

Suddenly, I do not know what we stepped on, the beautiful flat snow under the deep endless dark water. In a split-second, the dark water had flooded our legs, and as I hugged her tightly, I could feel her warm, smooth skin slipping between my hands. The snow that filled the sky was gradually becoming cold, and the setting sun was slowly sinking, leaving only black ashes floating around in my world, and fear was enveloping me. I wanted to reach out and grab onto the last of the sunlight's flames, to hold my lover against my chest once more, but my life was like an accident, about to be annihilated in one moment after another …

But I didn't have time to think about it. I reached out and grabbed my lover. I was struggling to …

I tried to push her out onto the ice, but I was sinking deeper and deeper too, my breath coming faster and faster, my chest felt like it was being pressed against a huge rock, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't cry out, fear filled my heart. But I still couldn't bear to let go of Zhu Tong's heart …

Suddenly, I woke up. It was just a nightmare …

I touched my forehead. My forehead was full of sweat. My body was also covered in sweat. Even my shirt was soaked through. But I did not feel any discomfort, so I did not think much about the result of the dream, but was still immersed in its gentleness, but the terrible accident broke the wonderful romantic engagement, which made me infinitely chagrined and sad...

I was still lying in bed thinking back to yesterday's agreement, thinking back to the beauty of the dream. Perhaps it was due to the shock in her dreams, or perhaps it was because she was too concerned about Zhu Tong's heart.

This was tacit acknowledgment in my heart, because I didn't have any brothers or sisters, so I always thought Zhu Tong's heart was the opposite sex I cared about the most, apart from my mother. Besides, I'm not a superstitious person, so I don't remember this ominous dream in my heart at all. Instead, I'm curious about that romantic dream, and it makes me feel nostalgic.

In the midst of my warm memories, I dozed off. When I woke up once again, it was already morning. My hard-working mother had already cooked and was waiting for me.

"Yu Kun, were you tired yesterday? "Why did you wake up so late?" Mom asked.

Because I always got up early, I don't know if it was Sunday, or because of that horrible dream, I woke up especially late that day.

"No, Mom," I said. "It's Sunday, so I got up late."

"Oh, then let's quickly wash up and eat. Are we still going out this morning?" Mother asked me as she cleaned up the dishes.

"Go..." A classmate asked me to play at his place. I don't know why, but I didn't say that I went out with Zhu Tong. I lied to my mother. My heart felt a little stiff and unnatural.

Although my mother, whom I knew, liked Tongxin very much, and often praised her for being pretty and sensible, I knew very well my mother's heart, but I didn't want to tell her that I was out playing alone with Tongxin.

I really couldn't say anything, or I was embarrassed, or maybe it was for some other reason, but maybe it wasn't privacy or a lie.

Our breakfast was simple. I finished it quickly, and my mother was still eating. I couldn't wait to say goodbye to my mother. I told her not to wait for me for lunch and hurried out.

In those days, I knew that Zhao Mengxuan and Shi Liang had an extraordinary relationship. But I still didn't want to expose their relationship, because they were all so elegant and demure on the surface. Besides, I know they love face a lot.

Perhaps for them, love was a hidden place in the depths of their hearts. It was a deep and quiet Exquisite World that did not allow even a speck of dust or other people to desecrate or step into it.

It was with this in mind that I did not expose them to my face. Perhaps letting a friend have his own secrets is also a form of respect and love.

Then, one day, when I had a sudden epiphany, I realized how wise and smart they were … Yet, because of this love, I fell into this torrent of emotions. I nearly fell into my young life …

That day I sat alone on the concrete flagstones of the hospital, and it had been a full month since Sirion had brought me back from a school in the Northwest, and every day for a month I watched the yellow leaves of the trees fade away, and I imagined the university I loved in the Northwest, and the golden Gobi, already covered in snow, and the euphoria with yellow leaves, and the song that blew softly along my tears. I think those beautiful yellow leaves should also be covered by a layer of silver white snow now...

My thoughts were like a fly with wings but no head. I knew I was wrong. I really shouldn't be so obsessed, so stubborn or so crazy …

I thought back to those days when my friends had sincerely helped me. Our hearts were filled with boundless gratitude, and it was they who had let me know that the world wasn't all that lonely.

That was the day I met my friend again — Shi Liang, and of course his girlfriend, Zhao Mengxuan … That day, I was lost in memories of the past...

Suddenly I saw a pair of familiar figures approaching me. They didn't say anything. They just slowly squatted down and silently stared into my eyes. I could clearly see that there was a flowing stream in their eyes, and a desolate fallen leaf drifting in the current …

And the fiery red flames burning memories of the past...

"I'm not like you. I don't have this kind of endless love, I don't have this kind of endless sweet spring water. I don't want anything more, I only want this sun to be less dazzling, so that the lonely bird will no longer see its lonely figure …" I spoke aimlessly, not even knowing what it meant.

"No, Yukun, you are not alone. Why do you say and think this way? In fact, there are many things in the world that you should be infatuated with. There are many people — your friends, your family, they care about you.

"No, Sirius, who says that I can only see my own shadow, I can see a lot of them, such as the leaves slowly falling from the sky, the warm sunset gently touching them, repeatedly looking at their veins, just like an old father stroking his wrinkled son, who can understand that kind of deep warmth?"

"It's not like that. Yu Kun, your metaphor is too bleak. The world isn't so sad. He has even more beautiful things …" I saw how wet his eyes were.

"No, it's not desolate at all, nor is it sad. It's a long and warm scenery. In my heart, it's like a river of time. It's swaying so many times, changing its enchanting and serene mood …"