C71 Chapter 70

3 years ago...

"I know you're still hurt by what's going on, Selena." The lady told me. I kept looking at my window, didn't bother to turn to him or react to anything, even when he took one of my hands and gently squeezed my palm.

"But we are all already worried for you." I understand why because I hardly eat. But who will deal with what is happening?

I really want to follow Mom and Dad if I'm not afraid to take it yourself if you're alive, eh.

"I hope you eat at least a little." What I do is eat every other day. If I don't really feel that weak, I'd rather not eat anymore, eh. I'm just running out of choices so I'm eating less and less.

It's also rainy this month, which is why I can hardly leave the Saavedra mansion.

The strength of the downpour is like a typhoon but there is nothing, because when my other helpers come here sometimes I ask them what the weather forecast is.

Yesterday it rained like it didn't want to stop. Sometimes it makes me think that maybe it's raining because they share in the pain I feel, that the sky is crying for me. Sometimes because I have no more tears to release from my eyes when the ending ends, I just sit dumbfounded.

"You have a lot more to know, Hija." The lady told me. A few days ago, someone else mentioned Señyora, so she got my attention. For three days, apart from the one helper I talked to who I thought was my age, I didn't talk to anyone else. If I wasn't stunned, even though I could hear them Señyora, I wouldn't answer or even look at them.

"Believe me, I want to help you to get rid of the pain you are feeling right now but I feel so useless... I mean, I don't know where to start comforting you, I barely know you. I don' t know the things you like and dislike. I decided to reach out with you just now because I'm sure you're still sensitive of all the things that happened. Anyone..." He said hesitantly, nothing I answered and just waited for what he had to say next.

"To be honest, I am not sure what comforting words I should use as we speak right now, I don't want you to feel extra sad because of me. I'm gonna be disappointed with myself if that happens." This time, I looked at Señyora.

I don't know if I could just hear his voice, I feel like my heart is getting lighter. Until Señyora came closer to me, I thought what she was going to do when she suddenly hugged me and not just a hug, but a tight hug. It was like my heart was melting in the warmth of Señyora's embrace that I couldn't stop myself and I just cried more and more.

For some time that's the set up, I'm just locked in the room and I'm always weak not only emotionally but also physically and the weather hasn't been good as the days go by, this is actually the month of the year that typhoons visit the country, so I can't really go outside the mansion.

But it's different this time after Señyora hugged me that day, because she often went to visit me in the past, she was telling me about things that at first I couldn't relate to because it was just a matter of courtesy and expense. In fact, I can't blame Señyora for having such an experience.

Because he comes from one of the rich families here in the Philippines, unlike me, who is a man with a beak. Until one day I realized that Señyora's story was a happy one and I imagined that I would like to study it too, but I should study hard first and then get a good job, be able to save and when I have extra money maybe even if it's just an adventure of Señyora in another country I'm sorry.

In the past, he showed me so many photo albums that he was the only one in there, there are also separate albums that are just the two of Señyor, it was said that those were the times when they had boyfriends and they were newly married, they said they didn't have children yet.

Señyora has been to many places and she even said that she started traveling when she was 15 years old. My, we even had one room the other day when we were admitted and I was surprised that that room was only reserved for his clothes, he said that there were other rooms for his shoes and mine was another room for bags, accessories and perfumes. I have almost nothing left to say, I just hope you'll be wowed.

For today, we walked into his closet, hanging out and every item he had in it had a story. I feel like Señyora vlogged but the only difference is that I was the only audience.

"This is my Kelly Limited Edition Tricolor Ostrich Ghillies Violine Blue De Malt.” The Señyora said to me as she held onto my violet and blue hand bag.

"Do you know that I bought this when Joven and I went to California, do you know that I was wearing a violaceous dress that day and then I was wearing a white one, like a Hermes bag..." Then the lady came to another bag that was displayed in the glass his cabinet, I remember this is the bag I used that day, my Birkin Bag 35cm Olive Toile Officier Canvas White Leather PHW just in case I don't feel it, I feel like it's not appropriate to wear a dress, so even though Joven and I had less than 1 hour, I really forced him and Kenzo to go to the Hermes store just so we could get a bag that would match my outfit."

My mouth fell open at what the lady said. Literally you will be able to get everything, but you guys know that I was really curious about how much Señyora's bags would cost each. It's embarrassing to ask. It's also good that he is my brake on his English.

Then he next approached the small red bag, of all Señyora's bags that I think will exceed one hundred items when we entered her walk in closet, that was the first thing we noticed.