C179 I don't feel anything for you

I reached home by a cab and poured a drink for myself while leaning over the counter. I kept my legs closed for a whole year, I barely made contact with men unless I was killing them, I never found anyone attractive as I was devoted to Leander and now, after learning that he clearly wasn't, I was devastated.

My head whipped around at the sound of shoes thumping down the stairs. Looking up