C26 Chapter 25

When Kent invited me to leave the Spade Club, I immediately agreed. I don't want it either, it will only hurt me. Speaking of being hurt, I clutched my chest. I won't feel pain anymore.

Why is it? Maybe I'm so numb that my heart can't really feel anything anymore? Or is it because I'm with Kent and he let me pinch him? My heart beat faster at the last thought